Maybe I Was Never Yours

I may not have a place in your perfect world I may not be that special emerald I may not be your perfect man But do you know that I am your biggest fan? Do you know I slowly became mesmerized by your charm And waited for the day to hold your arm I have waited for the day to speak to you Though we did speak often and the words were not few But it was that special something I always wanted to say I searched and searched for your heart's way We met as strangers having different lives And have met different people as large as bees of a hive But it is you that I remember the most For you are the most precious thing I have lost When our eyes first met,I experienced something different in me That is only you can ever, see I can't say I saw my future in your eyes But looking at them I could not speak any lies Oh how I wish our talks would be from the heart But I neither opened myself,nor my heart Was it a fear of losing you? And failing to start anew? I may not have been your emerald But you, and only you were my world I was not scared to express my words of love The truth is I did not show you my charred body in the flames of love