Voices in my head
Never cheer or praise
Laughter only when they mock me
Highlighting all my inadequacies
Making me feel only shame.
Voices in my head
Loudest when my eyes are closed
Never let me rest
Bringing up all my flaws
Making me feel so sad.
Voices in my head
Causing just pain
Screaming I'm not enough
Even when I do my best
Making sure I feel unworthy.
Voices in my head
Picking apart my sanity
Creating false narrative
Questioning my memories
Making me feel insane.
Voices in my head
I wish to silence
I hope they'll go away
Leaving me alone
Making me feel at peace.
Voices in my head
I know is me
Maybe if I went away
They'll finally go too
No more inadequacies, sadness or shame.
rap pounding in my ears
not at all sure what it means
~ stilletos whacking at my skull
Wordku: 5-7-5 words
AP: 2nd place 2025
So you live the high life,
as swamping on egg-plant
and the salty of the seeds.
You brought nothing
to your troubled life,
your father, excuses,
mother so proud
and yet you're so alone....
I too feel the high
of no gift of suicide,
its brings no closure
to these fights,
repeatedly
in my head,
if my mother,
could....
well,
I did
forgive
I don't
know
how to be...
she's been dead
for a few years.
Yes, I'm troubled
but you were
the ignition
buried in my head.
The Ghost Inside My Head
I see you when I close my eyes
I hear you when I sleep I night
I miss you when the morning comes
I try so hard to bury you
Yet you never seem to stay dead
I try, I try to run from you
The ghost inside my head
You left me when I needed you
But it was impossible for you to stay
You shattered the windows and changed the locks
All so you can get away
You took away my peace of mind
So when I lie in bed
I find myself haunted by
The ghost inside my head
With lucidity comes memories
Of days with you long past
And dreaming only brings the things
I know could never last
My mind is as a home left empty
Where hurt accumulates like dust
And the foundation of my heart still stands
Only because it must
I wish I could say goodbye to you
Keep you just a memory instead
But youre forever living on as
The ghost inside my head
sunlight
is
that
spiritual
morsel
of
bread
that
speak
the
word of God
inside
my
head
Wear a salmon on your head,
the wild Orca said,
make it a big chinook
or perhaps a steelhead.
It's very avant-garde;
it makes a fashion dent,
and kittens think the smell
is heaven sent.
A salmon hat is a cultural fad displayed by orcas, where they wear dead salmon upon their heads. It was first observed in 1987 with southern resident orcas and was a relatively short-lived phenomenon. In 2024, the behaviour was observed again with orcas in Puget Sound. The motivations for salmon hats are unclear, but other orcas will mimic the behaviour once it begins. One hypothesis is that orcas wear salmon hats to display high food availability, or that the same individuals that originally started the trend revitalized it. It may also indicate playfulness. ~Wikipedia
Heard my head screamin
My eyes couldn't see
Oh rum set me free
More flagons and mugs
But all my demons
Just won't let me be
So now all I see
Are dragons and thugs
On clumsy day of morning fogg
I woke up to reality
To check my beloved sanity
A stone became the chosen one
It was picked for his services
A hard son of soft rock,
A tough block, a rough block, indeed
Destiny knows his path
Growling wind observed the scenario
First flight took Mr. Stone to few feets
The desire was to Re-release
It left my hand to reach space
My head became a Crater by double pace
The stone lives in my head since then
He was first where the headache begin!
Inexplicably silent in choir
being unusually quiet
not a word from me was heard
neither spoken nor sung
so as not to cause a riot
when jibes bad vibes at me were slung
and I was asked, 'Cat got your tongue?'
I replied, 'Here's the thing,
really and truly, I cannot sing,
it's been this way for all my years,
whatever it is I appear to hear,
and between my ears to me audibly sits,
tho' quite right there, when on the tongue's tip,
it's not the same music my mouth emits.'
How can I tell if you really care?
How can I know you'll always be there?
There've been so many times in the past
I've had relationships that didn't last.
I don't know if I can go through this again,
I'm not sure that it's worth all that pain.
I managed to keep all the others at bay.
I even found that I liked it that way.
The freedom to do exactly as I choose,
there was no way I could possibly lose.
I called the shots, it was my show and
if you didn't like it , you knew where to go.
the last thing I wanted was to get involved,
but somehow in spite of my resolve,
you've gotten through, god only knows how.
so it doesn't matter what I do now.
I'm in love with you, like it or not.
All I can do is give it my best shot.
sun rises in east, lotus turns its head to west, birds fly towards nest
Today, my head doesn’t hurt.
Thank you, Lord.
Today, my shoulder doesn’t hurt.
Thank you, Lord.
Today, my back doesn’t hurt.
Thank you, Lord.
Today, my knee doesn’t hurt
Thank you, Lord.
Today, my toe doesn’t hurt.
Thank you, Lord.
But oh, the pain in my soul, my Lord!
The pain in my soul!
Fred wed, Fred said
My wife chose another man's bed
Fred bled, Fred's dead
He chambered a round in his head
When your heart and your head
Have a major disagreement,
Which body part should win?
Certainly not in every case,
But in 2020, my heart won.
Two of our dearest friends offered a gift to my
wife and me. My wife immediately consented
Without question, to the opportunity to go on an
All expenses paid cruise. I immediately said "No"
With my head, but I could not find the heart within
Me to say anything but "Yes".
Our friends had gone on 29 cruises and wanted
To share one of their greatest joys with us. Indeed,
I have what we call a bucket list, but going on an
Ocean cruise is not on my bucket list.
I confess that there was a secret war being waged
Between my head and my heart. With my calculating
head, I was losing one of the biggest conflicts of my life.
Moreover, by consenting to accept the gift, I learned
Experientially, a great lesson about selflessness.
Due to circumstances related to the COVID-19 virus,
The government canceled the scheduled cruise.
Notwithstanding, the heart of our dearest friends will
Forever have a special place in our hearts.
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