All this pain inside me
All these bad thoughts
All these tears
The pain of a razer
The pain of a knife
The pain of words
The pain of love
All this pain breaks my heart
The strugle of trying to fight
the lie that giving up is the
way. This is so much pain
some times feels like giving up
life is the best way to go
My life may not be thw worst it
is bad but you never know
some one elses could be soo
much worse
Glistening symbol of my pain
this lonely tear. You wet my cheek.
As a smile I try to feign,
unable now of joy to speak.
This lonely tear you wet my cheek
hinting at things not shared.
Unable now of joy to speak;
feeling so lost and scared.
Hinting at things not shared
into the shadows I fear, I've tumbled
feeling so lost and scared.
My pain you make me ache and stumble.
Into the shadows I fear I've tumbled,
and all I see is black.
My pain you make me ache, and stumble
as strength I seem to lack.
And all I see is black.
By this grief I have been swallowed.
As strength I seem to lack,
and by rain forever followed.
By this grief I have been swallowed,
as a smile I try to feign.
And by rain forever followed,
glistening, symbol of my pain.
For Paula Swanson contest 'Pantoum'
3rd place
My mind wondered around the space,
The moon boring to my taste,
Lack of stars upsetting to my taste,
As usual the big muscled man flashed to my face,
The one who multiplies wounds in my heart,
Trembling in my jeans,
I was fashioned i pain,
I heard the voice of death,
My life was a breath,
My brains fixed to my stomach,
I tried to run,
Too late
He cuddled me like cheese,
A slap thrown to my face,
The pain took my flesh to my teeth,
Pleaded on my knees,
All labor in vain,
He marked me with tons of pain,
These are the eyes of pain that never fails,
He created a scene of terror,
My soul refuse to abide to his touch,
I gathered strength of a stone,
I shook the mountain out of its place,
It trembled,
I fixed lightening to my legs,
Elizabeth Lepapa inspired by Unwritten contest by Constance La France The rambling poet
in this sandsea
of darkness
lieing with a pain across his cheast
pretending he is heartless
as a fire flashes from the sky
he was fragile
and frozen
when paranioa took away his friend
and now he is somehow more broken
he is the waiting for the end of his demise
holding onto all of his goodbyes
holding his fate across the line
slowly
breaking
lieing with a pain across her chest
she wakes with her craving
as the fire burns her eye
she was fragile
and frozen
when deaths grip took away her friend
and now shes somehow more broken
she is waiting for the end of her demise
holding onto all of her goodbyes
holding death across the line
*this is a song by linkin park off the underground album but i did alter it somewhat i
did not create the song only changed some of the lyrics*
The tormented mind cries in silence,
the pain is almost too much to bare;
always having to put on a false face,
pretending that you care.
There is no magic cure all pill,
believe me I've tried them all;
You just have to keep on going,
hoping you don't finally fall.
At times the pain is overwhelming,
giving up would be the easy way out;
I know in my heart that's not an option,
although my mind is filled with doubt.
The pain I speak of is not from the skin
Its something worse, it comes from within
Its absolute torture, I shall now tell
In description, my personal Hell.
My lungs are without any air
My heart swells, and feels like it tears
My stomach is hollow, feels like stone
I feel empty, I feel like I am alone
My ribs, crushed by an unseen weight
This pain caused by my very own fate
My muscles weak, I am without a soul
I find myself buried in my own hole
I am rotting away from inside out
I will be an empty shell without a doubt
Someone please save me from my distress
Look at me, I’m obviously a mess
Sometimes I'd rather smile then cry
make pretend everything's fine
Look at the smile on my face
feel the pain in my eyes
hiding true feelings sucks
but its better then showing them off.
Laugh and smile
but in pain inside
lock yourself in a bathroom
break down, and start to cry
see yourself in the mirror
and finally you realize
that the person you're trying to be
isnt who you really are.
sometimes you try to be strong
but it takes a real person to cry
thats why i do it behind doors
no one needs to see my tears fall.
i dont let people see me cry
but they never look within
because even though my smile is out there
my eyes show the real pain inside.
if you looked into my eyes
you will see the misery
i'd rather keep it to myself
cause sharing it might cause grief.
take my pain to the grave
and pretend everythings okay
if pain tries to catch up
im just going to runaway.
Why can't I speak when I have so much to tell
Why can't I write when I have so much in mind
Why can't I man up and tell you how i feel
theres just to many things left undone
theres just to many things left unsaid
Why is it so hard for me to tell you what im feeling
for all i know this pain im feelin deep inside
took the joy from my heart
Is this the pain of missing you?
Is this the reason behind it all?
Hear the agony of my heart
Longing for you and for your touch
Feeling your lips, feeling your face
the darkness is closing in...
the two people that held it back for
me while i tried to get away are now down to one...one left and one stayed...
i pushed one awayfor their safety and selfishly asked the other
to stay and protect me...the other is now standing alone...
alone against the darkness...against the pain i don't want to feel...
against the pain i'm selfishly making them feel for me...while i cry, terrified,
terrified of the pain, all alone in the corner far away from the darkness...
with my little lamp that has become very dim...and my favorite stuffed animal and my
bible...crying and praying...not worrying about the hunger or thirst slowly building
up...
but only worrying about the pain that i want to disappear so i can stop hurting my
friend
and be able to be happy...able to truly smile and have dreams instead of
nightmares...
able to bring that friend back and stop hurting the other one...
then finally i can laugh again and stay happy...finally...
“Please don’t touch me” were the words that were spoken,
but he didn’t listen; his promises were broken.
Unwanted caress, he slips his hand up her dress.
Stealing a soul that’s not his, her body to posses.
Forceful domination, innocence frozen in fear.
Hiding inside, only feeling that one single tear.
Embedded scars, her heart forever closed.
Never opening again, pain never exposed.
Try and touch her heart, it seems happy on the surface,
bright cheery smile, distracting with a purpose.
Emotions concealed, don’t try to get in.
She’ll just smile, laugh and try to pretend.
With one evil touch, a soul was changed forever.
A bright shining light, hiding inside seems better.
Never know who she is, could be any random face.
Look into her eyes; can you see her disguised shame?
She wears a mask to the masquerade, the never ending dance.
True love can’t happen, never gives it a chance.
Scars never heal, in her world there’s no one to trust.
Her pain forever hides, because of one single touch.
Air breathed in, thick with sorrow,
The night too dense with pain,
This sunrise barely compensates,
For battles fought in vain.
Care has taken up its place,
Behind her weary brow,
Drowning out the happy sound,
Of friendly laughter now.
The pain that racks her weary form,
Mere words could ill express,
The toll it takes upon her heart,
Her lips must now confess.
Perhaps the bruises left by hate,
Should not have been revealed,
To those who turn their heads away;
From the elect concealed.
She dares not hope this pain will pass,
The scars, and nightmares fade,
Will time succeed in killing off,
What greed and anger made?
And when it's all been said and done
The final word it's tongue shall leave,
Will that word be filled with hate,
Or will it love conceive?
YLE
As my eyes run across the page
I see no signs of existance
But then rises up a hurt child
Slowly limping forward, weeping,
Cries out into the darkness, "Help!"
She reaches out her hand, hoping
That someone would grab it, and pull.
Her figure fades away, she's gone.
My eyes run to catch her, still
Even though I know she's gone
It took one second to feel
the pain she felt, in me.
We made a connection, then.
She and I, I and she, We
My eyes run to catch her still.
The pain inside her eyes
The hurt within her stride
Her all is gon away
As if it were taking
My eyes run to catch her
I feel the pain she felt.
There she is, she's found
Beyond the pine trees
Sprawled out on the ground
Crying and weeping
May I help you, Ma'am?
She looks at me
Eyes filled with tears
And nods her head
I help her up.
Her hushed walk
Intrigues me
What happened?
She is
silent
BLANK
She cries alone,
In her room at night;
Her sparkling eyes
Had lost their light.
She turns up the music,
As loud as it goes,
So no one can hear her screaming
Into her pillows.
Her pain is unbearable,
As she walks to the kitchen.
The only sound in the house,
Is the clock ticking.
She opens the drawer
And takes a knife in her hand.
She takes her last walk
Down the hallway that never seems to end.
She cries,
As she pulls up her sleeve
And puts the blade to her skin,
Thinking this as the only way out.
She closes her eyes
As she pushes the blade in,
Hitting a main vein
And all the pain her life's held in.
It's all over now,
As she lies on the floor
Waiting for the light to come,
As she drifts away.
One last time to see the face of joy
A feeling that has been ever so missed
I cannot let the pain that has controlled me to continue
The control that coils around my mind and heart
Fear of my inner me has caused
The pain will not subside
Letting your everything
Be hurt so badly by your own actions
I will not forgive my naivety
Never will I forget the moments that were ours
We and us are replaced from my vocabulary
To the empty words of you and I
I cannot stand to think about this anymore
They say time heals all wounds
Until that day the heaviness of my heart
Will demand my happiness
To be nonexistent
The holes in my arms are deep
and healed over,
but the strain on my back
from the weight on my shoulders,
still causes me pain
when I look in the mirror,
The scars on face
spell it out clear.
I can turn from my past
and plan for tomorrow,
but where is relief
from the pain and the sorrow.
I stll smile everyday,
grateful , no doubt!
for the pain i am hiding,
i placed high on a shelf
Years have gone by,
my children beside me,
what of the grief i feel
im still hiding,
what of the lost time
ill never regain,
or the child lost to me
i dare not speak her name
Lord give me refuge,
for i must seek shelter.....
(unfinished)
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