Power to try - Bradley Smith's Blog

Alcohol does not make you happy. It is a depressant by nature, and a good one at that. Sure, you'll be high for a moment, but you forget. Wake up feeling sick and full of regret. It turns me into a different person, one not so tame with my actions. One who does stupid things. So here I am again, another try at sobriety. With no friends or family to help me cage this demon, just words on a page. I won't whine though. And hopefully, I won't touch that wine. What now though I wonder? I don't want to be that boring guy at the party, but i don't want to die now either. At first i was married to Mary Jane. Than it was whiskey. Its funny how life goes isn't it. We run around all day, trying to collect magic paper that you think will give us freedom in some sort of a way, knowing though, that we all die one day. Me, I just want to have something to say. Something that helps people in a way. That's where true value is. I thought alcohol was like a steroid for an artist, but really it's our downfall. Will I stay clean now? I don't know. But I'll try... another attempt is worth a shot. Another attempt to be happy is worth trying for. They say the devil prouls around for people like me, so I can't stumble anymore. Will I have another Autumn fall? Maybe... but will poetry I have found some sort of power. Power through the pain. Power to try again

Constance La France Date: 3/17/2021 9:47:00 AM BL, it takes courage to lay your soul bare as you have done, so I know you have the courage and the will to beat this demon tormenting your life, so write on and on, your experience will touch people who share the same demon or another demon. Are there any groups in your area like AA, perhaps being with those also trying to beat this addiction you will find friends and inspiration from the meetings, you can and you will beat this, remember life is short, don't waste it holding a glass of booze, I don't drink and go to get togethers, I bring my own whatever I want to drink, bottled water, soft drink NA wine or beer _Constance Login to Reply

Anne-Lise Andresen Date: 3/17/2021 3:57:00 AM - It's worth a try ... fill your glass with thoughts and words ... best wishes :) - hugs // Anne-Lise :) Login to Reply

James Marshall Goff Date: 3/16/2021 11:22:00 PM Good on yer mate, impossible on your own, so much help out there it's crazy...you won't believe the high from livin' dry, holler my way if you want, either way, best of luck, I'll keep throwin' my rangs from Dr Lorin Hawes (rip) & Brother Brian Thomas (rip) I got from my brothers down under! Login to Reply