You're in my head
and I want you out
I can't focus in class
with you here
I'm trying to learn
what life is about
But my mind
and my heart want you here
I clench my fists
and close my eyes
And open
to a piece of my past
Blinking rapidly
until I focus again
I'm glad that day didn't last
But you, your pieces
didn't stay long enough
I pushed that puzzle away
I was afraid of a challenge
I'd never before seen
I wished I could start
a new day
I got my wish
and that's why I'm here
But why
am I still being haunted?
The ghost
of all the mistakes we made
Is sitting in this classroom,
undaunted
You're in my head
and I want you out
I can't focus on life
with you here
You have moved on
so leave me alone
And alone
I will conquer this fear
As if life wasn't hard enough.
Today made it so much more tough.
My self-confidence almost didn't exist.
Now it is all but dismissed.
Finding a decent women is hard task
Now I feel I shouldn't even ask.
I don't even want to try anymore.
They have slam shut and locked the door.
I am lost, don't know what to do now.
I must push on through but I don't know how.
There are so many questions I have like why?
No one will answer me, no one on which I can rely.
It has been five long years since my last time.
Now my life was stopped on a dime.
So to my girlfriend who cheated on me a long time ago.
Thanks, but the gift you gave me will never go.
Remembering when you held me close
the tears run down my face.
I can't remember just what you said.
The fear in me was erased.
I cherish the moments we shared
together In your rocking chair.
I look back in my mind
how you were so kind.
and I felt so loved and secure.
I miss you now that your gone.
I keep your memories in my heart.
It's been 30 years since your hand held mine
but I still think of moments and our special time.
I rejoice in knowing that when my life is at an end
I will go to heaven ,that I will see you again.
Until then I will hold you dear to my heart
I will embrace what life has to offer until I shall part.
I wonder was it my insides,
Turning themselves outside.
Or was it the cobwebs I wiped from my eyes.
Seeing life through different shades of gray,
When there was just too much s#@t to be a good day.
I close my eyes and embrace the cold,
But it's funny someone should want to touch my soul.
I'll wander that walk until I die,
A fact of life,
It narrows my foot steps,
Begins leaking into my mind.
Will arterial poisons fill these veins,
Or will my body just burn and blow away.
Perhaps through death life wouldn't be so bad,
But its somewhat amusing that they should feel so sad.
Darkness falls on my troubled brow
I want to get out but I don’t know how
Surrounded by the absence of light
I look for you but your nowhere in sight
You’re lost from my life and gone forever
It wasn’t your time to die I can tell by the weather
It’s rained for days inside my head
I’m alone and angry all I see is red
It’s cold and damp and I can’t keep warm
Then there is another torrential storm
You’re lost from my life and gone forever
It wasn’t your time to die I can tell by the weather
The wind blows violently and there is no end to the overcast
Every break of sun is quickly swallowed up fast
When the morning was over what can you say
There was a beautiful sky what a perfect day
You’re lost from my life and gone forever
It wasn’t your time to die I can tell by the weather
Her body covered with the bruises and scars,
her heart withholding the truth.
Her eyes speak the sadness, her mind won't let her say,
confused, she doesn't know what to do.
In her eyes, hope there's none,
all hope has been taken away.
Courage she has it's just hidden within
and strength to be able to face the day.
A victim in the world of brutal abuse,
now lost inside her own fear.
Weak from all of the confusion and pain,
left alone with nothing but her tears.
Screaming out for all of the world to hear,
her eyes say a thousand words.
With nobody there to guide her through,
her silent pleas were never heard.
Trapped inside a life of h*ll,
a girl with no name, now just a faded memory.
Her life brought to a tragic end
and her secrets now buried under a rock carved so beautifully.
Forgotten to the world, an empty soul,
her life now condemned to hell.
Just a statistic, a file with no face,
her story, she can never tell.
You died without warning we didn’t get to say goodbye
I can’t get you out of my head no matter hard I try
I see the simplest thing and it reminds me of you
It’s hard to handle but for your memory Ill pull through
Your body has gone what you left behind is the only trace
The pieces of your life may be forgotten but I will always remember your face
I keep all the things that made you light up wit glee
And when I saw that joy it brought warmth to me
Even though your death has ripped me apart
I will keep that feeling close to my heart
Your body has gone what you left behind is the only trace
The pieces of your life may be forgotten but I will always remember your face
Your influence on others I see at every turn
A legacy for you and a torch that shall forever burn
I pray I don’t loose your memory, heaven please forbid
I will honor you and live like you once did
Your body has gone what you left behind is the only trace
The pieces of your life may be forgotten but I will always remember your face
“Take your shot Fun boy, you got me dead bang.”
that was the last line he ever sang.
He came onto the scene and into our hearts.
Showing us his skills in martial arts.
He showed us what it was to be free.
He told us to live life to the fullest and be happy.
An amazing actor, he knew how to flow.
He gave one of the greatest performances in The Crow.
“Nothing, nothing in this life is trivial” he said,
not knowing his life was on a short thread.
He was only 27,
when he was called to heaven.
In May of 1993,
we lost a great one, named Brandon Lee.
I loved you once in silence
and you helped me find my voice
My heart sang songs of yearning
now life has given me a choice
We built a love worth having
our foundation strong and true
So much happiness worth sharing
and it is all because of you
My days and nights are empty
now that you have gone away
No amount of love or caring
could make you want to stay
It is all unclear my darling
still I wish you here with me
My life turned out so different
than I thought that it would be
I wish you well I wish you love
I hope your dreams come true
I loved you once in silence
now I know that I still do...
Confusing emotions feel in vain,
But loves so strong, for this one.
Feeling your pain, their pain, all pain,
And my life not your silly pun.
I am true, faithful, and promised.
Heartfelt for all, feelings strong,
And burry the ones that coexist.
Still they never get along.
So much sadness I feel, and see,
Left here to die wasted cheeped.
Under the gun, like a parolee,
Through this darkness, I have cheeped.
I feel all that you still drain,
And eat all your wrongs, you make.
Leaving behind a tragic life bloodstain,
Remembering this heart is what you forsake.
I have never really been good at,
Letting loved ones go;
And saying goodbye to you right now,
Hurts me more than you’ll ever know;
I find myself resentful,
That life is so unfair;
And I hope that wherever you are,
You know that I still care;
I missed my chance to tell you,
How much you meant to me;
And I’m bitter when I think about,
All the things you’ll never see;
And I truly hate the fact,
That your life was fleeting and brief;
And knowing that I’ll never see you again,
Fills my heart with grief.
Thinking of you in my stolen moments,
Alone here with nothing but time.
My heart still breaks knowing,
I never had a chance to say good-bye.
I know your looking down and smiling,
No longer the worry of being in pain.
You had more than a life’s time share of suffering,
You took it daily and never complained.
Now you’re an angel in heaven,
We all know that you have your wings.
Though we still feel the loss here without you,
In our hearts we can feel how yours now sings.
At times I still feel your presence still around me,
I believe you watching close now over us all.
You still have that power of bringing me up when I’m weak,
Somehow you still cushion me when I take a fall.
I know one day you will be there to greet me,
When my life turns and comes to an end.
In your life you taught other’s to see more clearly,
As now as in your life you were always more than just a friend.
Now you’re an angel in heaven,
We all know that you have your wings.
Though we still feel the loss here without you,
In our hearts we can feel how yours now sings.
(Answer to Claude McKay I shall return)
YOU shall not come again
You won’t come back
You shall not turn up, you shan’t
To chuckle and care for the ones you want to see
To wristwatch with wonder surprised eyes
For the dozy noontime shall be shadowy,
And you shall not see the way
The forest fires shall have eased off
And there shall be mere darkness, grey
Grey smoke drifting stagnantly
To the blackened grey sky without limit
You won’t reach your destination
Where many streams loiter without flowing
As huge boulders in it are embedded
Your dreams shall be unrealized
From afar ere you arrive
You shall hear the fiddle and fife
Of the village of your destination,
Eliding desponding delicious tunes
That stir to life the secreted depth of native life
Of a life of depression, nullity of life
Dull melodies of primitive, smart tunes that
Shall make you moan, this weak and vicious melodies
You shall not return, you shall not return
The pain in your heart, the soreness in your soul
Cannot be alleviated, you shall expire
Before you return your dreams unrealized
You shall not return again
In life’s infinite pursuit computer incantations for world peace takes one far from the beaten
path, into the fast lane.
The storyteller an Amazon king reaches to the heavens, with an open mind he speaks to the
cosmic messenger.
In this gift of life and times we all live in a fake paradise, it is the individual’s choice to find
new resolutions in the kingdom of peace.
The obsession of life brings on an ethereal mood or modern times blues, but to live in man’s
radioactive legacy is coming to pass.
After the storm, at a journey’s end, we pray for orbital encounters between the sea and the
sky. Don’t let the world pass you by worshiping plastic idols.
In case we survive forms of life in life cycles will become peace crusaders.
With no more doubts the metamorphosis is complete and we become happy robots, with only
tender memories. Farewell!
It was once a blue planet…
James C Bryant Jr.
January 17, 1992
Images from books I've read, dance around inside my head.
Like fireflies in the night sky, are images that refuse to die.
Thoughts of memories inside my mind, are becoming the only ones I can find.
Recollected from the past, why did these certain memories last?
Some are painful, some are nice, still on these memories I can't put a price.
Sometimes I wonder where we'd be at if you had lived.
We were close as could be till I got sick.
Either life threw a curve or life played a trick.
Your memory now is how I reminisce.
After all you were there when I experienced my first kiss.
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