Many tears fell to her name, many
sunrises I saw awaiting her call
Childish, all but sincere a heart may break
and get lost but never forgets
Stolen emotions built upon doubt, only the
soul goes but not the heart
Today you smile on your feet yet your
heart hides behind your tounge
Where were you when I fell, when I
needed you most
Where were you when tears rained from
my soul
You don't have to be with someone to love
them its what you said
You say my love wasn't fake, but more
fake is the mask you wear as you pretend
As you pretend to have found love, when
all you have found is but companionship
You seek and if to find, and you speak as if
you no lomger pain
Aged are the lies that sweep beneath you
Integrity you once knew
Love perhaps never
Do your life as i will do mine
Til never,
A heart unknown
U (dj)
A faint memory of the times
together
A constant reminder of what i
lost
U
Left a giant hole where my
heart was
Took away everything
Him(Caspar)
I found u in the midst of my
sorrow
Just telling me i was loved filled
what was hollow
Him
Laughing with me
The one person i wish i could
see
Me(Latin elf)
Now my heart is patched up u
come back and rip it up
Now im broken again just
waiting to be fixed
Me
Hopes and dream are set aside
Wishin to get back whats mine
Him
He came and filled my cup
Told me i was loved
Held my broken heart carefully
in his hands
As i slowly stood back up
Dustin my self off
I looked up
I saw his heart before he took
mine
And now we are so Devine
Thank you for holding me
Thank you for helping me
With in these few days i have
came to know
Who i can gladly call Caspar
So u see thanks to u i have
found me
I have torn my clothes and sprinkled ashes on my head, I am wounded and my
blood runs red!
I believed you were my friend, now I realize I was wrong. You used me when I
provided the things that you desired, but when that was over you cast me aside.
You have turned your face away from me, no longer do my company you keep. I now
can see my friend you never were, you were only a parasite, taking what you
wanted, never caring for me.
My heart is pierced and there is sadness in my mind, I truly cared for you, but your
feined friendship was merely a subtrafuge the entire time.
How will I learn to trust again, to open up my heart, when such travistry I have
experienced so many times. Perhaps in time my wounds will heal, maybe then I
will open my heart again, but warily protected by a shield of steel.
Thoughts they are both good and bad, just letting my mind run through how we
were so perfect together. Thinking abput your soft voice leaking into my heart and
letting you stay there for a while, then thinking how we used to fight and how you
smashed my heart with the violence of your words. All i have to say is im sorry, i
wish i coud do us different but lifes unfair..I might as well deal with this pain and
hurt. Now i must mend my bleeding, broken heart.
was there ever a time where u didnt know how to feel?
what words to even say or what feelings to conceal?
emotions u didnt want to hold and the things u say are cold
some days its not easy to turn the page
thoughts of being trapped in a cage
scared to even move but eager to run
days u sit there wishing it was done
no this mess aint fun
sitting there wondering if its easier to speak
clawing to get away but ur feeling so weak
off in a corner with complete devastation
words unspoken with no contemplation
hopes and dreams failing to come true
so many things i still have to go through
before i open my heart to the pain
frozen emotions and a cold soul i blame
is this just a mind game?
emotions still trapped and a heart still broken
giving up is an option but not whats spoken
curled up in fetal position on the floor
eyes dried out, puffy and sore
this isnt how i imagined myself to feel inside
but this happy place inside me completely died
i cant seem to find these emotions in me
blinded by confusion i will never see
will i ever know these feelings inside of me??
by taneia j. nelson
November 6th, 2005
Pulled up to my house
Couldn't believe my eyes
Everyone sobbing
Couldn't control their tears
What's going on??
Time to face my fears
With no idea
I just ran and asked
To hear the news
My big brother had passed
Empty & broken
I ran to my room
Not talking to anyone
I was so damn confused
Retracing my weekend
Thinking to myself
What's the last thing I said to him,
The night that I left?
Beating myself up
Trying to dig in deep
Did I tell him I loved him?
Such a painful memory
Find myself writing
With nowhere to go
My heart takes me to him
For what reason I don't know
Guess there is a lot supressed
Pent way up inside
Forcing its way out
Through the pain that I hide
It eats me up
Not knowing that night,
I was walking out the door
Saying my last Goodbye
Tear after tear
Ache after ache
That November night
That ultimate heartbreak
Finally releasing my heart
From the prison that its in
Letting go of the unknown
Now the hurt can end
November 6th, 2005
The day he left
And a piece of my heart died
they say its best to love and lose
then never to have known of love
but i remember long before
when i was never thinking of
the heart inside anothers chest
having so much pull on mine
a feeling way more confident
to me that is the realiest sign
i loved a girl with all my heart
she said that she too felt the same
but that it seems was just a lie
and now i know this feeble game
most say they want love in their lives
and then they break the hearts they hold
i feel that knowing love and loss
has taken my once heart of gold
Saying Goodbye
How do you say goodbye?
When you’re not yet ready to let go?
How do you stop the tears?
When they want to flow?
How do you walk away?
From everything you hold so dear?
How do you move on?
When your heart still wants you here?
How can a heart be healed,
When it’s been completely torn apart?
How do you satisfy?
This longing of the heart?
NO WORDS I WRITE CAN EXPRESS WHAT I HAVE TO SAY
HOW MUCH I MISS THEM EVERY SINGLE DAY.
AS TIME GOES THE LONLINESS GETS BIGGER AND HIGHER IT GROWS
HOW I MISS THEM NOBODY KNOWS... NOT EVEN MY CURRENT BFF'S KNOW.
I THINK OF YOU IN SILENCE AND I MOST OF THE TIME SAY YOUR NAME
BUT ALL I HAVE ARE MEMORIES AND A PHOTO FRAME.
I NEVER STOPPED LOVING YALL AND I NEVER WILL
DEEP INSIDE MY HEART YALL ARE WITH ME STILL.
NO ONE KNOWS MY PAIN AND SORROW AND THEY DIDNT SEE ME WEEP
BUT THE LOVE I HAVE FOR YOU WILL BE INSIDE MY HEART AND MINE TO KEEP.
MY HEART STILL ACHES AS I WHISPER LOW...
I NEED YOU AND I MISS YOU SO
THE THINGS I FEEL SO DEEPLY WITH YALL ARE THE HARDEST THINGS TO SAY.
BUT I CANT HOLD ON ANYMORE SO ILL SAY IT ANYWAY
THERES A PLACE IN MY HEART THAT NO ONE CAN DESTROY OR FILL
I LOVE YALL... AND ALWAYS WILL
The sun has set and faded into the background,
I hold you near my heart one last time.
This love that was once a fire upon the world
is now but a flicker from the flame.
My heart has hardened, my soul is dark.
To long have I been ignored, put down and forgotten.
Goodbye my lost desire, may you find your holy grail.
When you do hold her close,
and always remember there is a great difference between love and lust.
I just wish that I could explain...
How empty I feel in my living days...
Tears drop down in my heart in everyday...
I am having heart attacks everyday...
I loved you and was fully yours But we only hold a past and future is not belonged…
Present you live as the world told...
What happened to us I supposed…
I know you were never belonged...
In my arms I held so strong...
Wish that I can turn back and go…
To the past we felt so belonged..
To hold you in my arms so strong...
To share my life all in all…
To keep my soul full as gold...
I just wish…I can turn back the time Once and for all!
Dilupa Wijegunasekara
Her feet haven't danced across the meadow
Nodules prevent dancing and walking is strenuous
Mental fuzziness skews the facts
His smile is a fresh memory etched like a tattoo
Nodules prevent dancing and walking is strenuous
Memories warm her heart and nights
His smile is a fresh memory etched like a tattoo
Laughter was common in their youth
Memories warm her heart and nights
Mental fuzziness skews the facts
Laughter was common in their youth
Her feet haven't danced across the meadow
Pantoum for the tragedy contest
autobiographical
Missed the contest!!
Was I a fool to love you
this beating heart of mine
They said you come in April
this beating heart of mine
With tiny hands and tiny feet a wonder love of life so sweet
this beating heart of mine
Yet you did not make it
this beating heart no more
Am I a fool to love you still
this beating heart no more
Tears falling from my face.
Heart broken in place.
Filled with nothing.
Just a black hole.
Starting to feel and think
Is no longer real.
Just a 4 letter word.
Easily said, not easily shown.
Just waiting….Waiting
For the day my heart is no longer broken”.
My blood no longer flowing.
My heart no longer beats.
Life has stopped just for one moment”.
A tear escapes
slides down my tender cheek
as I hear your vacant voice,
the voice that used to be
so full of life,
of love,
that used to protect me in my
innocent oblivion.
But I’ve lost you now,
you’re an impossible distance away,
I’m searching with all my heart and will
but you don’t know to be found,
you don’t know I’m looking,
you don’t remember that you want me
to find you.
my tear falls,
and the crack in my heart grows
but for your sake I wont let it show.
Your oblivion is your only protection.
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