Long My own mind Poems

You’re sick, demented, and twisted and you want to judge me for my sins? What about yours? The ones that lie deep within
The ones that sculpted you into the person that you are, the ones...

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"The Strange Case of F.T."



They say the dead don’t talk
the stories I have calculated
to deliver a saving grace 
confessional shared amongst 
my equal peers, or so I deem 
you somewhat sometimes seem,
less than me, you...

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1 - I can't be alone

I struggle to be by myself because my dark thoughts come
But when I'm with people my heart is numb
On top of a lot of pain is what I built my...

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Break my neck; snap it in two, snap it in half
don't give me that incredulous, frightened look as I ask
don't hesitate in front of me, please just do me this favor
so I gain a halo,...

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I cry at baptisms, funerals,  and touchy movies. There are more                       ...

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This is how it starts
the decline of who we are, the decline of something more
the start of wars
Installed in us is confidence
confidence, a blessing or a curse
Without confidence we stand degraded, disenchanted, alone
while with too...

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Let your skeletons out of the closet and let them dance with mine, the way that our bodies once moved together in an unspoken of time
I am one of these skeletons, maybe your biggest one...

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“Upon Waking”


Slumber has its upsides 
while the outside runs around
like a split fowlyard, 
cacophonous 
pecking at each other 
and at the ground…

Elsewhere, 

like dull background noise
through the fog of dream 
the sound of the gamble...

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In moments of weakness; I look up to you. thinking of the off chance that your situation is better than mine. Now, you must understand that this is only a moment. None the less, it...

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Punishing for revenge,
could this occur to natural systems
without capacity to imagine alternative futures?

Punishing others for their defiant behavior,
actions and words stronger than ignorantly ignoring,
bolder than merely angry with Other 
and our defenseless selves

But how much...

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Suicide, euthanasia
I never thought I’d be the one to go down like this
But I wanted to have control in the way I was sent out of this world
Instead of kept barely alive, pointless.
My parents refused...

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30 Days In

I fall short of just enough
Words escaped my breath
Eager to talk 
My tongue utters
As a mute 
Finding his voice 
My mind races with mighty a speed

My fragility becomes apparent 
A spectacle amongst
Figures who...

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I feel I am drowning
In open air,
Clawing at dirt that isn’t there
No one sees my distress—
No one really cares
Clacking, scraping sounds
Of glasses and plates
Echoes of breathing and voices
Assault my senses,
And still I cannot breathe…

Even as...

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Purposely, intentionally
enter out my reluctance and enter in a nose dive back into the past
a Samurai Jack experience
It has to be here somewhere
these long forgotten memoirs pieced together yet never mentioned
never verbally spoken nor handwritten
They...

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A couple of twisted shacks composed in Card Board City in Everywhere 

County the nameless man or woman spits out another tooth with 
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Under the cloak of night,
where the moon weaves delicate incantations from forgotten dreams and silent woes,
I wander the corridors of my own mind,
a flickering flame in a world of spiritual guerrillas,
of gods and madmen.
These young...

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Shattered glass scattered across an empty room, an empty floor
darkness closing in rapidly, where has the light gone
which direction is the way out
Romeo...;Juliet...is that you calling out my name
Romeo...;Juliet...I'm here, please don't walk away
Romeo...;Juliet...please hear...

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It's very time consuming
Driving yourself mad
But not quite mad enough 
To commit to the mental torment
So trying to balance 
Very precariously
Whilst throwing tiny weights
Onto the wrong side of the scale
So existing forever in extreme stress
About...

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My Mind whats it doing?....where is trying to go? A once safe haven only i could control.  What happen to me i feel like im falling so deep into a lonely darkness. thats now...

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I know that I’m not dead, but I might as well be, I live in an altered reality where I’m still the me I used to be
Here I sit beside of me talking to myself,...

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After El Cielo or Bust

I know time isn’t 
on my Mother’s side
for much longer

Her frail body like a delicate 
wine glass that has just tipped 
off the table toward 
a floor
that is sturdier than 
an...

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If I had to choose
would I brave that dark sea
waves crashing relentlessly upon me
knocking aside the armor I've spent so long
meticulously piecing together

My heart is a fortress
made from clay
water is its natural enemy
and you on...

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To see u again I thought wld be rough
But turned out it wasnt so tough
Even as I caught u looking my way
There was ntn u cld say
Tht cld change the way I feel now
3 months...

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Things are very hard for me to see and hear, it’s very distracting
I never ever thought that I had such disability that causes problem
I find myself reading the words backwards and it’s more frequent
And I...

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Another day down, another day to go. I'm so sorry I let you down, like so many times before. It wasn't supposed to happen, not like this, you're  not supposed to be, the one...

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