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You Lost It All

To see u again I thought wld be rough
But turned out it wasnt so tough
Even as I caught u looking my way
There was ntn u cld say
Tht cld change the way I feel now
3 months ago I made a vow
I married some1 tht means everything 2 me
Finally over wht used 2 be
Yet still I cldnt help but 2 wonder y
I did all I cld not 2 look u in the eye
Even tho I kno Im finally over u
Forgetting just wasnt something I cld do
I wonder wht was going thru ur mind
But the answers I refused 2 try & find
Figuring my best bet was 2 let it go
For the answers I was sure I didnt want 2 kno
I spent 2 much time
Trying 2 get u 2 be mine
& no mtr wht I ever tried 2 do
I failed when it came 2 u
So in time I had 2 learn
That 2 u I cld no lngr turn
For love or as my friend
Everything we knew had come 2 an end
Tho it wasnt the easiest thing 2 do
I knew I must 2 learn 2 live w/o u
Pretending as if wht we had
& from every1 I hid
The love I still had for u
Cuz I was sure it was wht I had 2 do
With time even I began 2 blv my own lie
So sure my love for u wld eventually die
But it nvr did
& in time in2 ur memories I slid
Old pics I found myself goin thru
Revisiting all my old thoughts of u
The love we once shared creeping up on me
& remembering wht used 2 be
No mtr how hard I try 2 fight
My own mind keeps me up at nite
& thru my poems my secrets come out
I find myself writing about
All those things I keep trying 2 4get
Starting with the 1st day we met
All these things are burned in2 my brain
Even tho w/ u all I found was pain
My love 4 u was true
At one time thought u felt the same too
But over time
I began 2 wonder if u were rly mine
Walking away seemed so easy 2 do
For so lng I stayed in love with u
There wasnt anything I wldnt try
No tear I didnt cry
Still tht didnt seem 2 mean anything to u
At least tht was wht it seemed from my point a view
I tried 2 convince myself u rly loved me
& that 2 your heart I really did hold the key
Just like u once said I had
But I guess tht was my bad
For believing anything u ever said was true
Cuz the real u its clear I nvr knew
& wht I used 2 think we shared
Turns out I was the only 1 who truly cared
But as I think back 2 wht used to be
U were the 1 tht missed out not me
For u there wasnt anything I wouldnt do
& now my love for u
Isnt there anymore
Things will nvr be like they were b4
U will nvr rly understand the cost
Of wht u had & wht u lost

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