You Lost It All

To see u again I thought wld be rough But turned out it wasnt so tough Even as I caught u looking my way There was ntn u cld say Tht cld change the way I feel now 3 months ago I made a vow I married some1 tht means everything 2 me Finally over wht used 2 be Yet still I cldnt help but 2 wonder y I did all I cld not 2 look u in the eye Even tho I kno Im finally over u Forgetting just wasnt something I cld do I wonder wht was going thru ur mind But the answers I refused 2 try & find Figuring my best bet was 2 let it go For the answers I was sure I didnt want 2 kno I spent 2 much time Trying 2 get u 2 be mine & no mtr wht I ever tried 2 do I failed when it came 2 u So in time I had 2 learn That 2 u I cld no lngr turn For love or as my friend Everything we knew had come 2 an end Tho it wasnt the easiest thing 2 do I knew I must 2 learn 2 live w/o u Pretending as if wht we had & from every1 I hid The love I still had for u Cuz I was sure it was wht I had 2 do With time even I began 2 blv my own lie So sure my love for u wld eventually die But it nvr did & in time in2 ur memories I slid Old pics I found myself goin thru Revisiting all my old thoughts of u The love we once shared creeping up on me & remembering wht used 2 be No mtr how hard I try 2 fight My own mind keeps me up at nite & thru my poems my secrets come out I find myself writing about All those things I keep trying 2 4get Starting with the 1st day we met All these things are burned in2 my brain Even tho w/ u all I found was pain My love 4 u was true At one time thought u felt the same too But over time I began 2 wonder if u were rly mine Walking away seemed so easy 2 do For so lng I stayed in love with u There wasnt anything I wldnt try No tear I didnt cry Still tht didnt seem 2 mean anything to u At least tht was wht it seemed from my point a view I tried 2 convince myself u rly loved me & that 2 your heart I really did hold the key Just like u once said I had But I guess tht was my bad For believing anything u ever said was true Cuz the real u its clear I nvr knew & wht I used 2 think we shared Turns out I was the only 1 who truly cared But as I think back 2 wht used to be U were the 1 tht missed out not me For u there wasnt anything I wouldnt do & now my love for u Isnt there anymore Things will nvr be like they were b4 U will nvr rly understand the cost Of wht u had & wht u lost ntn=nothing wht=what rly=really nt=not nvr=never wld=would cld=could shld=should mtr=matter tht=that lngr=longer