My On Going Disability

Things are very hard for me to see and hear, it’s very distracting I never ever thought that I had such disability that causes problem I find myself reading the words backwards and it’s more frequent And I understand things incomplete, wrong, mixed in lost sequence I guess is guessing my specialty, never really know till I was tested Things in my mind get all mixed up I get so frustrated and quit It takes me a while to read and analyze what I see If the sentences get to long it becomes backwards My understanding is always being tested and confused Dyslexia is so unfair, but worse thing I am in despair Why does my mind recall things backwards? I don’t understand at all, simply because it takes twice as long The thing is that is not all, I even hear things differently That I know I recall, I had to take ten hours of testing Reading, writing, and motor skills that I had The testers notice I was so inconsistent and so bad After repeating the sentence three or four times I ended up finally getting it, I also would start understanding After the tests they did sequences, which show the start and end What happen was that I could not pretend That the order of the things was mixed up in my head I put one, as three and two as three, and three as one I am confused because I did not read the small sentences Under the pictures words was mixed, not mixed for normal people But mixed for me, so I was completely caught off guard The big pain was that it takes me three or four more hours To complete a total paragraph of a book to read And that frustrates me a lot, this feeling that is hard to control Because I am such a mess, in the understanding of a sentence It takes so much time for me to read and sometimes write It makes me want to cry, but instead I basically quit which is wrong My disability takes time, so time will tell how I will learn Most of the time it is hands on, with a person, one on one I do take med for such unfortunate physical curse Just because I take med does not solve my problem or disability It will help, but I have to trust my own mind and learn by honesty So my disability is somehow connected to how my response I have to be patient and try to agree, with people who don’t know me This curse is sad, but a lot of people have such disability like mine It takes many years to start getting things corrected with my disability I don’t frown as much as I get older, I become smarter and wise Through time, because that is what makes my disability go away