Long Infertility Poems

This is my last confession; there will be no more.

I am impercipient and slow from last night's sleeping pill,
wincing away from the harshness of day.
Kitchen cold, the room tear-splintered,
sunlight striking a watery rainbow in my...

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Though my heart was broken because I never knew you, my unborn, unknown, unfamiliar thought, the one that was much more than an inkling, yet never as familiar as the whisper of a hope. Though...

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Identifying as a Taoist-Christian hybrid,
a polypath feasting on root systems
of East meets West
Right greets Left
Yin embraces Yang
does not make me a good Christian
or a healthy Taoist.

However, these permaculturing designs
on polyculturing 
polypathic neuro-sensory healthy outcomes
do seem...

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I remember those moments
So far from me now, the past echoes
Defeated by the silence of my womb,
The deafening silence breaking through
Peaceful moments, gentle breathes,
Serenity, sincerity, soothing… 
The longed for caress – softly stilling
Cries from the...

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Suzanne realized as quickly as she focused her bottled up angst upon this young woman that it
Was misplaced.Standing behind her son with hands on his square little shoulders Francis eyed her in concern.

How can I...

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IV.
It started out like it had every year,
she went to the hospital, sat on a bench,
stared at the eminence from the outside,
and felt the stirrings of a heart to be wrenched,
just about the time that...

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"She is brave and strong and broken all at once." — Anna Funder


When spoken, it might seem innocent
Like any word – just a word
Afterall it doesn’t have hands to maim
It doesn’t have feet to trample...

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Why?

No one can explain
Why there is so much pain
Why will it not work
When will it ever come

Needle after needle
Month after month
It’s all the same
Just more pain

Feelings are indescribable
Loss, rage, sad, despicable
That’s how my body feels
Rejected...

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Suffocation....
Under the strain of guilt and fear
Conscience fights for her last breath.
Wave after wave of violent thoughts
Come crashing against the rocks of reason.
Rocks that once proved to be a barrier and a fortress,
Now being pounded...

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Lessons Learned from the Tennessee Valley

Spoiled have we become!?
When you look back from whence, we have begun,
the provision of profit to our young,
that sheltered them from hard work, and supplied them with ample fun,
have we...

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Once, an old man sat at a bar
Seemingly, alone in the woods
The Falls were just over there
Above all of his shunned shoulds of good

Too great to enter into regret
He suckered anger instead
Justifying all his words...

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after marriage she's happy 
                              ...

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Something different happened this time 
on this year's Women's Day
We worshipped, we praised and sang songs
as the Holy Spirit in us moved and swayed  

Today we have our 1st Black female VP
and soon a...

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Raging, fierce winds of Mars
marched across Earth’s skyscape,
	in the season of the decline of Man
Fall of the God-chosen specie,
autumn of impending extinction
Twas an apocalyptic mushroom noon
	when the radioactive rains descended
upon the cities of carnage
War-torn topography...

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I want to shine down at the sun
Wrest a love
from illusions that 
stalk, to give life
I want to curl a toe and be heard
Defy sprawling deserts,
Convey their infertility 
to silent victims
And dictate a momentous imperative
of...

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Infertility 

If anyone told me that one day I would grow to hate you id say that it was a lie,
If anyone told me that one day id see you and feel sick to my...

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(TW Infertility) 

My body is built to bear children.

I must stop comparing my body to those 

of women who are simply built....

differently than I am.

My stretch marks are an atlas of the 

paths I've walked....

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Blood – rich whispers of crimson,
Like flames melting the feelings
beliefs alive, grief that spelled
Out the word – I n f e r t i l e
Infertility wrenched beauty from my life,
Erasing the stars from the...

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Infertility

Crayons on the wall, muddy feet on the floor; things that I would surely adore.
Hugs when you cried, tears that I’d wipe, loving how much that we are alike.
My beautiful princess or perhaps my young...

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Every month, ovulating
Yearning, breathing in and out
In and out, breathing – inhaling
Exhaling, panting, gasping
Yearning, begging, pleading
Please, God, please!

Every month, echoing
The past months, the years
The tears adding up, rivers
Of yearning, hopes shattered
Moons coming and going, 
Hearts...

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(After Langston Hughes)

I hadn’t known 
my infertility was their problem;
The adult table contracts
from a toddler’s wide wobble
while over a gavel — I mean, 
a rattle — and in between 
chip resistant plates 
advice is served,...

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STANDING ALL ALONE
THINKING NON BUT ALL
NATURE AND DESTINY AT
ITS BEST
AT WAR BUT WHO WINS
GRIEVE NOT WOMAN
GRIEVE NOT
FOR IS THERE A REASON TO
NO SEED CAN EVER SURVIVE
IN THIS LAND
WHICH YOU’VE NURTURED
PLOUGHED AND TILTED FOR
MANY YEARS
YET NO...

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Barren women in the arena of Sylvia Plath
Weep for a baby
To bless their progenital path
With a lilting lullaby 

Sung at night
Rocking baby in maternal arms
Imbued with love delight
In urban hamlets or on farms

Where baby comforts...

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Here we stand on both sides of a one way street.
Open arms and a shedded soul yet my heart continues to beat.
Memories of that joy seem to haunt me in every inch of her smile...

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YÉMIÍTÀN

If you would stay do stay
Please tease me no longer
My body, no more can bear
But my heart, yet still craves
My womb you make hollow
My hopes many times dashed
How can you be so heartless
With visits that...

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