Long Hate myself Poems

I’m stronger than I realize,
I’m not alone
And I’m not a failure

I am focused on the prize -
God’s Kingdom today, though I’m on my own
Feeling like a Jailure

I was brave enough
Life can be quite rough
I was...

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alarm goes off*
I sit straight up startled and scared
Just my alarm, I hit the button
Get up and go to the bathroom
I brush my teeth with my toothbrush
Scratchy, painful bristles
Toothpaste that makes me sick
With the strong...

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I’m stronger than I realize,
I’m not alone
And I’m not a failure

I am focused on the prize -
God’s Kingdom today, though I’m on my own
Feeling like a Jailure

I was brave enough
Life can be quite rough
I was...

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I understand that you’re mad at me
I understand that you’re sad, I see
I didn’t mean to cause you pain
I just want to send you sunshine your way,
But it turned into rain
Every time you smile, I...

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Treat this poem as the truth
Non-fiction...
Because this is the best way I can try to describe what it feels like to suffer with cocaine addiction
It’s hard to even put this feeling of addiction into words
To...

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My physical self is pitiful

I have been incapacitated since an early age

Inadequate in every regard

My body is a useless shell

Luckily, this place is beyond basic physicalities

This place transcends the grim and darkness of reality

This place...

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Let Live, Forgive

Live life to the fullest...surely I will. 
Some people would say take a chill pill.
I'm leaving my temporary home...
I need a friend with me to roam...

By my side...
Just take me for a ride...

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Don’t know when it started….freshman year?
I look in the mirror
	See….fat
		Hanging
			Bulges
				UGLY 
UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY UGLY 
		UGLY
Remembering the food….calories….sugar….fat 
Passing my lips….
		Leading down my throat
			Into my stomach….onto my hips….my face…my stomach…my arms…my legs
			UGLY
Next day,...

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My mind is burning, blazing, turning
With doubts and irrational drivels
My heart is livid and hardened
For it freezes in the potentials of disappointment
Of failure, downfall, and impending death
In ceasefires of never mind, and never more 

My...

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Dylan, it sucks that we lost you so early when I heard that you first passed away the only thing that fled my head was guilt. 
Guilt ate me alive knowing that I could’ve messaged...

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I’m scared of the lies, I’m scared to give away my heart
Cause it’s been broke before and torn apart 
I’m scared of the feelings that I’m feeling right now
Cause I can’t be the perfect guy...

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My Mind whats it doing?....where is trying to go? A once safe haven only i could control.  What happen to me i feel like im falling so deep into a lonely darkness. thats now...

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God, you know who I am, you know me by name 

And I know that you know about all of the pain 

Your love and warmth are the reasons that I am alive 

But right...

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"Hey,I give up"
Ha! How easy that seems.
A weight off my shoulders. 
A sigh of pure relief.

"One more test and i'll scream"
Only pain,noise,a quiet,so shrill 
Every time you touch me, 
A little more, you take.

"I'm not...

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I wonder about life and what might become,
Whats around the corner for me, is she the one,

I sit back and feel the darkness creeping up,
Wondering if i should start to cut myself again, geez m...

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Dust is falling
The one above is calling
Hate myself but can't erase
The damage done is written all over my face

Killing me from the inside out
Disassociated and consumed by doubt
All that iv ever known
Turned out to be...

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I’m sorry to you from the bottom of my heart,
I never wanted to be the reason why you were torn apart,
It wasn't my choice for him to depart,
Although I take the blame, sweetheart.

Firstly I’d like...

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...A throat clear by the tall doorway, and she saw Geren there,”
he said, “Lindone, that slave is mine, and I don’t like to share.”
The warrior growled and said,“Your hall is cold of late.”
Said Geren,“There’s brothels...

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I just want to preserve how I feel right now.
Because today, I'm in pain. 
My back and hips hurt.
I got 3 hours of sleep last night after crying for an hour.
I cried this morning before...

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Thank you for loving me, everybody…
Know that I’ll be free eventually…
Love you all…
I’ll stand tall…
I won’t fall in love like I did with him
I feel like hurting myself tonight 
I feel like a loner sometimes...

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Hey guys this isn't a poem it's more like me telling you all about myself and my life.
As you all may know from the content of my poems that I suffer from mild to severe...

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Put a sail to me, I'll cross the seven seas
I'll just sink with the ship
that hasn't carried me that far
it's battered and dilapidated
but I'm too lackadaisical to try and fix it
who do I appear to...

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God doesn't take my hand because he's never let go. God Walks With Me more than I with him. God talks to me more than I listen. For the amount I hate myself it's twiceend...

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Like an old photograph with wrinkled edges 
my mind returns to the times that are etched, 
So vividly they flash through my mind's screen, 
times that I cherish when our love set us free. 

I...

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I want to tell you a true life story,
This very story has never been told to any ear before now;
It’s a burden to hold this story to my heart alone;
As I share a demo of...

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