Forgive, Let Live

Let Live, Forgive Live life to the fullest...surely I will. Some people would say take a chill pill. I'm leaving my temporary home... I need a friend with me to roam... By my side... Just take me for a ride I'm a failure You're a success I try to hard To impress...what a dumb bard I came to be... A disgrace to the Breidenthal's I'm a raisin tree (a non-nourished tree) I missed God's many calls... Depression surely has a way of reducing me... To anger, but it boils softly due to His Spirit I see... Selfies never helped me... It was only temporary happiness Perfection and cuteness isn't easy To have when I can't even feel comfortable in my own skin...I try to impress and express Pride doesn't exist in my blood Humility is me - I'm good bloooood... I can feel the veins with bludd... Zipping through them violently in a thud... Heart . . . Pounds...... Torn apart... By wretched sounds... In pieces... Mended... Not at all offended I'm OK I need time with God and I...for no one knows the reasons I cry But, hey... Forgive, let live - God is like that and I say that with no lie... Friends...fans...family... I need you immensely... I'm, in reality, a hoarder's mess To begin with... A myth... To play with... Graze into my labyrinth... I dare tell you Get the hint - I love you too You're just a different tint To my own... I'm an unchewed bone... Left behind by a dog... I'm an all-alone log, Floating along The river of song I have decided to stay home from church Sleepless, depressed, angry... Anger boils softly due to His Spirit I see... I feel regret for not learning His Word again today... But, I know tomorrow will be kinder... As my sister and I sung that song many years ago Something is wrong with me... Me - someone of no significance... But in God's eyes And those eyes aren't lies... Hmm...Regret hurts so badly... I can't just pretend everything's ok When it's not in the first place, you see? But, hey, I'm a handsome, intelligent guy with insecurity issues...I've just gone a little on the cray-cray side...some say... Voices in my head... Pounding in my head with dread Wanting to start again... Refrained from driving me insane... I hate myself... I love you...if only you knew I love me - the giant elf I'm confused and blue I'm missing my other shoe Oh dear my words of oblivion and distress I'm a regretful mourning dew I am a document on this laptop with blank progress I'm sad... I'm mad... I'm glad... I'm rad... Lately... Frankly... Naturally... Blessed thankfully Thank you You're welcome Sayme ol convos... But, no body knows... Me... Labels ruined me... I ruined me... God nurchered me... I butchered me Dreams went sky high To ground low I was accustomed to a lot of people I can't get out of this depression hole Alone.... On my own... The sadness is shown... But, not alone... He is there He cares I don't mind Being blind by blinds I want to die sometimes I want to live at times I'm scared for my life Can't deal with peace and strife But, live, I must Turn all pain and suffering to dust I need sleep... My eyes... No need to weep... They took me as lies... I guess goodbyes... Are helloed again (are welcomed again) All my issues are in God's hands - everyone understands :) Let live, forgive...He forgets are former lands... Of mistakes that put our lives at stake It dries up surely like a dessert that was once a lake