Dust, ashes, memories
Dust is falling
The one above is calling
Hate myself but can't erase
The damage done is written all over my face
Killing me from the inside out
Disassociated and consumed by doubt
All that iv ever known
Turned out to be one sick show
From start to end it was all a lie
Now the perpetrator runs and hides
One person left to carry it all
I think they want to watch me fall
Love and loss is part of life
Yet here i stand just a low life
My heart is shred to a thousand pieces
Yet on Facebook their all smiling faces
How do I hurt the one who has hurt me
What can I do to make her see
Daughter disowned, left on the street
Perfect family left, no baggage on the back seat
Yet hidden in her black cold heart
Is the truth in her playing her part
Narcissistic is too kind of a word
She's my mother, yet her responsibility defferd
Actions have consequences
Lies betray
Sadness heals
Disappointment stays
Music playing but I can't hear the song
Iv been stuck in my head too long
Days and nights merge into one
Coffee and cigarettes is what my life has become
Betrayal has stabbed me, its the end
Will I come back and be on the mend?
Or will this darkness finally consume
Just me and "the lie" left in the room
When will I be happy again?
When will my life turn back to mundane?
When will the tears stop their fall?
When will I stop feeling so small?
Betrayal by my mother has broken my heart
A lie told in the 80s was the start
Every year after was just a lie
She never loved me, I say with a sigh
Playing the victim is her best trait
One day maybe I will set the record straight
All she will see is how SHE was wronged
Whats the point in fighting when her love is already gone
There was a time it was me and her until the end
Then she met someone and it was all pretend
I was a child and had to hide
Otherwise I would bare the brunt of his bad side
All these wrongs don't make things right
I just need her to have some insight
The pain she has caused through her lies
She's the reason iv always wanted to die
My world is black, no hope in sight
Always looking up to catch that light
Out of darkness people shine bright
Do I have the strength for this fight
My heart is yearning for some light
How do I make this right?
I do hope I win this fight
Out of darkness people shine bright
Forgiveness is not an option for she
She has to know she has really hurt me
A mother's love is sacred they say
My mother's love has gone away
Dust is falling
.......nobody is calling
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