Revelation

God, you know who I am, you know me by name And I know that you know about all of the pain Your love and warmth are the reasons that I am alive But right now, the only warmth I feel are from the tears rolling down my eyes I hate myself and I hate all of my emotions Especially jealousy and anger, they lead to all my frustrations I bottle it up because I want to be presentable in your sight But Lord when altar call happens, I try with all my might To step forward and give you my heart But my emotions break me down and I fall apart I always run away in fear because I’ve always failed to accept myself Anger and hatred are like poison, hazardous to your health We’re always too absorbed in ourselves to try to understand one another But that’s because we’re all humans in nature, not Jesus, our Lord and savior But I’m just your typical hypocrite Preaching about empathy yet I fall into the pit The same cycle of thinking of myself and not those around me You gave me this as an outlet when I couldn’t see It’s dark in here, pitch black I only hear whispers from hatred, he’s whispering behind my back I turn around, knowing that he’ll attack But he cut me from the inside, cause that’s where he always is He tells me God will never accept me and my life is his and only his But I walk on the path toward God, or at least I think I do There’s a lot of cages in here but I’m not at the zoo All of my sins whisper to me because I can only lock them in I can’t shut them up, just can’t seem to win It’s always easier to give into the temptation But I already gave that old life my letter of resignation Because God you lifted me high and believed in me That’s why I’ll lock the doors to these cages and throw away the key What’s the message here you ask Be who you are at all times, don’t ever wear a mask God loves you and accepts you no matter what you’ve done If you keep things to yourself and never tell God anything, the enemy has won Trust me, you might just cry from church to home in front of your brother God knows your burdens and bad news, but to him it’s as light as a feather Give it to him and treat every day like it’s Church Cause it doesn’t start and stop on Sunday, you always wear the merch Christian is a lifestyle you chose when you started your walk with Christ You’re worthy of everything, even that awesome girl you like So stop wallowing in self-pity and be the champion he made you to be Just rhyming by the camp fire, based on a true story