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I’m stronger than I realize, I’m not alone And I’m not a failure I am focused on the prize - God’s Kingdom today, though I’m on my own Feeling like a Jailure I was brave enough Life can be quite rough I was courageous to the touch Nothing much is happening and such I was courageous to the touch Life can be quite rough I was brave enough Melt away the shame that came to mind Melt away the shame that tame the fervent, flattering flames Melt away the shame that left me behind Melt away the shame that take the blame with nostalgic names I am like a candle in the windstorm I am as crazy as a daisy in its dorm I am like a handle of the stove again Wondering where you been? You been? I am a flamboyant flamingo amongst the many in the fields of evergreen I am an ardent shark in the seas of radiance and I have seen the unseen I am numb as the bread crumb on the floor in which you step upon I am the dusk before the dawn, the dusk before the dawn I see Ghosts in the fire in my heart I dance with desire from the start I see Ghosts in the fire in my heart I prance with ire like my work of art I like to be like the glitches of your game I like to put to shame all the stuff you put me through I like to be like the stitches in your heart strings I like to be as surreal as the ocean waves of red and blue The reflections and shadows of our lives Have arrived undone in our bees’ hives Regret accumulates in my mind’s eye tonight I will fight the good fight with delight with my might, for I’ve been in the right because it’s all black and white Inhale...exhale... I am a cat without his tail Exhale...inhale... I realize that I don’t fail, But I exceed at what I do But I succeed at what I do But I precede with what I do But I lead with all I can do I breed away the sorrow There is yet another tomorrow There is yet another tomorrow Everyone must come together, together But, remember this, we are like each other We are similar, not different We are the same, not ignorant I soak in all the tension... The apprehension... The sensation... Of dire delusion... I soak in all the tension... The descention... The ascension Of me in worldly detention Let me fade away the sheltering solitude Shed away the shimmering bliss and renew me again with even better happiness I want to still have the attitude of gratitude Fed with fret, yet regret won’t let me be? I am such a mess of distress, distress, distress I hate myself, Yet I Love myself I’m confused to the core Remove the foreskin of faithlessness inside me Remove the foreskin of faithlessness inside me Drain away the dimensions of damage from Satanic desire Replace the rain with sunshine and truth away the liar inside me and lift me higher I’m a passionate poet I bet you didn’t see this poem coming...I am still alive and burning on like a scorching flame of sweet, sweet sage You want to bet? I’m becoming someone else...overcoming The remedy of rage and transforming it into a set-me-free cage Melt away the free speech of hatred on Earth God, replace it with Mirth... Arrest my arrogance and turn the other cheek at humility and what it’s worth Melt away uncertainty at these times Shine bright and brilliant like American dimes I’m an icicle in the cave The cave of be-brave The cave of be-brave The cave of keep going... The cave of moving on... The cave and rivers aflowing... From dusk to dawn Keep treading the road of lovely recovery You are free like a blessed bird of liberty Keep heading the beautiful dirtroad of Arizona and stand vigilantly tall Keep beheading the bodies of lies...and stand in awe of Him all and all We all need repentance and draw on the canvas of dreams with me We all need acceptance and you are flawless as hell as you can clearly see You need to forgive yourself and let your wings fly oh so free I need to give in to joy and peace with the best of my ability Diligence and elegance is what I am Gracious and cheerful is what I am Happiness and positivity is what I am What about you, God’s wandering lamb? You melted away the ice from me You froze me in place pretty vacantly But, I was walking on thin ice for so long I was running away from the price of singing many-a-song Tranquility and glory is what I need Pain and suffering equals no greed But, empathy... A little slice of sympathy as well as your liberty To set us all free To set us all free To melt away the ice inside our souls To make our darkness beautiful To make our darkness beautiful Triggered by the distress and bubble space Triggered by the success of a lack of grace Molested by mesmerizing moodiness... Thick skin is what I have, regardless... Apparently, you have no feeling Dealing with your own hardships that are quite appealing... I apologize for everything that I say I apologize for living day by day What more can you expect of me? What more do you reject of me, baby? Let go and let live and what goes around goes back around... What’s been lost cannot be found...freedom of speech has made you captivity-bound... I think this world is sick You are acting like a mud in the stick I’m sorry that I’m dealing with my own demons But, allow the angels to pray away the...negativity Difficulties and downfalls collide with my mindset tons times tons Set me free...the toxicity of suicidal homelessness that won’t leave me be

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Date: 6/9/2020 3:04:00 AM
You're the poet...with energy like a flowing river...jumping over the puddles to kiss the sky, in the fields you run to feel the earth under your feet...I love the freedom of the write...
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