Napping nap nighty night
Tapping tap tighty tight
Sapping sap slightly sight
Happing hap heightly height
Japping jap jightly jight
Wrapping rap rightly right
Lapping lap lightly light
Dapping dap dightly dight
Flapping flap flightly flight
Grapping grap grightly gright
Mapping map mightly might
Slapping slap slightly slight
Running hart racing scared no one is helping why is this happing , people are dying families crying, WEAK it leaves us in our minds and souls ,
Is it real is it fake no trust in media FAKE friends FAKE government FAKE FAKE , this is not truth it's the panic pandemic is what they have wanted , civil unrest is the world's greatest threat which allows Marshall law to take effect Ww3 possibly next
not happening
not going down
this is getting nipped in the bud
cutting it off at the root
not being allowed to grow
placing poison on this
invading weed
kill it before it has
a chance to even
start to grow
dropping a brick
down upon its leaves
suffocating it were it stands
As a youngsta my MOMMA always tould me (THINGS R GUNNA GET EASIER.)
I always grew up thinking getting beat n raped was the normal wya to live!
Being able to see dirrfrent aspects of life i soon than realized the things that were happing in my life wasn't what happened in life itself!
Thinking there was n0 h0pe at the END OF THE TUNNEL I soon began to give up on my-self.
I eventually realized what my mom had tould me when I was about 6 (THINGS R GUNNA GET EASIER) I always tould my self that. Till this very day I go through things that make me wna give up.....& now that i have my mother by my side she constanly reminds me of how things got betta!!!!
Things are heated, but she keeps telling herself that things will be "okay". Even if it doesn't. She still thinks about blaming herself! She's fighting the tears, because she wants to believe she desvers "better", but she can't believe it. She doesn't understand, what's going on? Why is it happing to her? What happen? She's not surprised, because this has happen to her before. She wants tp pretend that she doesn't care. But she can't anymore. She wants to be strong. But she can't stop thinking about all these thoughts and questions. What did SHE do wrong? Why is it happing, again?! What can she do to fix the problem? Or, can she even fix the problem? No! She can't, that's why she's so sad. She can't even find the word of how she's feeling right now, because at this point. It's way past broken.
where did it go this life is new to me,
the air smells different from the way it use to be.
the sky isn't as bright from before,
i dont want to feel this way nomore.
The walls are small this rooms closed in,
im the loser that can never win.
the mirror shows a reflection of a new face,
where did i got i was replaced!
the me i use to be is gone,
i've been living alone all along.
The sun is dim when i open my eyes,
So i close them to see no lies.
this world is new and i hate the sight,
of the never happing of a sunlight.
My palms are sweaty and my minds at still,
i dont like the way i feel.
Let me smile just one more time,
I want to feel what use to be mine.
The way my life once use to be,
I just want to be free.
Im locked away in a tower so high,
The clouds are dark around the sky.
I feel this world caving in so fast,
Please stop this pain i dont want it to last.
save me from the tears that wont stop,
every second its a new drop.
afraid of this world and the bad it has inside,
please cover me i just want to hide.
please somebody please tell me the truth.......
what happened to me!
When you look into a women eyes what do you see, do you see a benevolent sprit, airly light
as a futter of a feather, or a demon malicious wink
When you look into a women eyes what do you see, do you see the present events that's
happing, the furture events that gonna happen, or the past event that did happen and never
told what really happen
When you look into a women eyes what do you see, do you see her tairls, tribulations,
distress, her emotions as vast and distance as the oceans and sea's turmoil, toublesome or
calm, smooth swifty moving softy along
When you look into a women eyes what do you see, do you see her desires, wisdom, valor
do you see her failures, dreams, goals like clouds wandering aimlessy
When you look into a women eyes what do you see, do you see the uniqueness of her soul
made mavelously by heavenly divine hands, gifted to earth tested by life expecties
When you look into a women eyes what do you see, do you see her as who she is , suppose
to be, wants to be
When you look into a women eyes what do you see, or do you just see a women and nothing
else l
In this world today can't say it's safe today. Because you'll
never know which way to go. You
try to make some friends but don't know where to began so
what can i do or what can i say.
You try to speak your mind but somebody don't won't you to
say a word. Got to raise your
kids got to teach your kids and tell everybody that they lost
their daddy. You try to struggle
to get through this world. But don't know if your gonna make
it. You drop out of high school,
never tryed to finish school. Didn't get no degree in anything.
So you decided you might as
well go and sell the ring. Everybody in the world always got
something to say. But never try
to give you a hand and tell you gurl that it's ok. You cry everynight
thinking about how are
you going to feed your kids. When they are coming up to you telling
you "momma why are
you crying,momma when will we get to live in a house like the rest
of the folks. You just tell
them to look to god and he will direct our pass. But your still thinking,
why me in this world,
why is it happing to me, Just because i'm in this world.
We are born, we live and we die,
that is not new to anyone. What we
do in between is new to everyone.
Dividing death with life is not
an easy thing to do.
After were born, we learn to
do things without knowing why,
but we arrive to adult hood not
knowing what happened to our childhood.
We are at a point where were
dividing death with life,
time is passing us by,
we are moving so fast
and don't know what is happing.
We have arrived at middle age,
life is so grand and carefree,
for ones with children we watch
them with careful hands and eyes
not knowing we are aging so fast.
Dividing death with life,
and still moving toward that
day, we all shall reach some
sooner than others.
Dividing death with life
will come to us all,
slow down and look around
enjoy the beauty that surrounds you
while you can.
wrote 5-23-07
On
the
margins-
negative
spaces in the floor.
Ekphrasis after Shobboleth by Doris Salcedo (happing installation at Tate
Modern)
Yesterday was fun and games,
Now my life is full of pain.
My mind is wandering as if I'm mentally insane.
But who else could i possiably blame?
Losing trust because of everyone elses lust.
Time passing me by as if its a crime for me to die.
Life is dull and i can feel the pull deep down im my pitch black soul.
Living in today only to find that tommorow is too far away for my eyes to see.
Everything was happing for me yesterday.
the faith i had for our love is now poisned our love is dieing its leaving for good
but why us what did we do wrong something is wrong yet no one will tell me tell
me whats wrong befor its to late.faith of our love is poisned help me stop our love
from dieign are is it to late ......its me thats why its over. i was never nice to you
and you got sick of it so bye.im so stupid for what i did but why me why did i do
this now im gonna pay for what i didi said i was sorry yet you didnt care
something is happing to us whats rong now why me and you what did we do
i love you yet you didnt love me at all you said you do but prove it .faith for our love
has been poisened so bye now ill leave.the faith is now gone.
feeling the pain in my heart
feeling you leaveing me
feeeling my whole world riped to knowing
looking at you and looking at are kids
how do you leave with no one not even your kids
how do i rise my little ones to be strong
feeling it was my fult
trying and trying again but how can i trry when i am not a man
i beleaved your words i beleaved your dreams
why why is this happing to me
you said you loved me you said you needed me
then why are you leaving me
you said you want a man
then why oh why in gods name did you marry me
you hurt me you hurt are kids you shatterd my soul
how do we live knowing you will always be gone