Substance
Filled with substance,
Never know who I’ll be next -
A person in disguise
Like the back of an earring,
Lost in the fibers
Unsure of what thought comes next -
But I feel more aware,
Yet still so alone -
Misunderstood,
Substance,
You’ve held me so tight.
Made me feel safe
But without you, it’s so much clearer
I cannot replace,
I must escape
And learn to live without
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Categories:
addiction recovery, addiction, anxiety, dark, drug,
Form: Free verse
High Powered Woman
She needs that drink to start the day
When the children play
To get away
Meetings, lunch, that damn report
The never-ending stress
A drink to rest
She makes love like the dead
Her mind ahead
Major decisions, racing instead
A drink to unwind
To go to bed
Tomorrow a drink to get ahead
Engagements, talks, drinks to go
The high-powered girl has hit the low
Make up getting
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Categories:
addiction recovery, addiction, recovery from, woman,
Form: Free verse
The Gift of Recovery
The gift of recovery is a gift like no other
it is not easily given
One must work harder than is thought possible
it is a gift that is often taken back
multiple times before
it is given permanently
it takes strength of mind, body, and spirit
it is a gift that is sadly not often sought
nor won
it is elusive and precious
it
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Categories:
addiction recovery, addiction, recovery from,
Form: Free verse
Broken Halos
Heard a song of broken halos,
folded wings that used to fly.
Wondered why I go where I go.
Yeah, broken halos as miles went by.
Angels used to come and teach me,
now they’ve gone another way.
Don’t blame them, I told them they should
find another soul to save.
Stared at the darkness and
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Categories:
addiction recovery, addiction, recovery from,
Form: Rhyme
My Fight Each Day
Another day another fight
I find myself another night
The lessons learned and hardships faced
My time is now, no days to waste
I'm not alone when it comes to my journey
No need to be frightened, letting nothing deter me
But my feelings are haywire telling me to turn back
Reminding me only of the strength that I lack
So I close
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Categories:
addiction recovery, addiction, depression, good night,
Form: Rhyme
Insanity
Another day gone by a chance now in the past,
More time has been forever lost sand falling through my glass.
I want to free my mind and soul I've dug this hole so deep,
I numb this choice of living as I pass days way till sleep.
This choice to let the time tick by is poison in
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Categories:
addiction recovery, anxiety, depression, loneliness, mental
Form: Lyric
This Hollowed Life
It's like your world is ending
Everything comes crashing down
Can't catch your breathe
Down, down, down you drown
Waking in the morning
To another dreaded day
Going through the hustle
Just to keep the pain at bay
Escaping is what you want
Numbing you try to survive
Hating the world when you're sober
Hate yourself for getting high
Oh yeah-This hollowed life of lies
Going through
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Categories:
addiction recovery, addiction, beautiful, blessing, change,
Form: Rhyme
Recovery
I want to be
the best version of me.
I want to believe
in myself
and my recovery.
I'm tired of living
a life of insanity,
that's not the person
I want to be.
I'm not that person anymore,
now I live in accord.
Harmoniously happy,
thanking God
for my sobriety.
I was once surviving,
now I'm thriving.
This is my time,
I'm really trying.
Forgive me for my past,
the changes I've made
are
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Categories:
addiction recovery, addiction, recovery from,
Form: Rhyme
Time For Change
You were my sunshine,
once upon a time.
When I stood by your side,
day in and day out.
Do you remember who raised you for so long?
I spent every second
surrounded by you.
I found security in being needed
and my purpose in life was clear.
I catered to a life I created and held so dear.
My soul longed for you,
you saved
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Categories:
addiction recovery, addiction, child, drug, forgiveness,
Form: Rhyme
Hope Within
Hope Within
I’m a hope-a-holic.
I think that’s why I’m here.
I want to celebrate the moments,
Turn straight away from fear.
Focus on the good, good, good,
Never lonely, never sad.
Cover up the not good stuff,
The jealous, anxious, mad.
Share the smiles, one by one,
I spread em’ down the line.
All my inner conflict, gone.
Again, I’m feeling fine.
What happens when the good
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Categories:
addiction recovery, addiction, emotions, hope, journey,
Form: Rhyme
Rehab
I once had a Lazy Susan
Adding confusion to choosin'
I gave her a spin
But never could win
And that's why I turned to boozin'
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Categories:
addiction recovery, addiction, recovery from,
Form: Limerick
Inevitably
Day old coffee
in its maker
a cold witness
sometimes
to broken dreams
and war stories
and proclamations
of
getting well
of
new beginnings
of
hearty hope.
Solemn stories and
cloudy memories
and Joe
laughter’s echo
at some obscure
joke but
the window
knows
how schemes get
distorted
deformed
disfigured.
Some have just
flown that way
inevitably
some do go
without ceremony
without fanfare
no hoopla
simply vanish
and all that’s left
are
empty seats
empty room
empty maker
waiting for
the next batch
of sunshine.
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Categories:
addiction recovery, addiction, recovery from,
Form: Free verse
Bird By Rehab
They unload life’s lead
into unseen enemies
machine gun memories
flying rapid fire
recollections and musings
spent shells amassing
mental turbines spinning
smoking the room.
And they yawn and doodle
ink stains for amusement
their purpose loosened
without caffeine courage
meetings adjourned
aimless wandering down
immaculate hallways
wounded reflections
in thoughtless pursuit
of quiet relief.
And they nod gingerly
with grim understanding
lives in the balance
teetering on a wire
as the bird careens
by the smokestack
somehow in
silent
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Categories:
addiction recovery, addiction, recovery from,
Form: Free verse
Disease
I walk amongst them but nobody sees
I blend unnoticed
As I inhale my disease
The air is constricted causing me to fall
All the things which once mattered
Now seem not to matter at all
Going nowhere just standing still
Trapped inside of loneliness
Since the day I grew ill
Clocks keep spinning around me so fast
I grow dizzy
As I look
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Categories:
addiction recovery, addiction, recovery from, sick,
Form: Rhyme
Life Sentence
life sentence
I can’t go on with my life in addiction
How can I ever have any kind of relations
A week a month a year
I really have no idea
It’s all the not knowing
That’s stops life growling
You build it all up
begin to restore
All the love and respect
from your family
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Categories:
addiction recovery, addiction, recovery from,
Form: Rhyme
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