Long Addiction recovery Poems

All you need is the will. Where there is a will, there is always a way.
But, my polluted mind couldn't see the path to success ahead.
No map exists to sobriety, or a magical compass to...

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I’m an addict
In recovery 
And I’m kind of glad of it
I don’t want to be
Just another G
Out promoting weed
While I’m planting the idea 
Like a G-13 seed

Read between the lines
And you’ll find I’m blinded
Beating up...

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I walk amongst them but nobody sees
I blend unnoticed 
As I inhale my disease

The air is constricted causing me to fall
All the things which once mattered
Now seem not to matter at all

Going nowhere just standing...

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If only I’d said no

Just a couple of beers after work with a mate
No big deal lm not staying late 
You’ve said that a few times but still got in a state 
Careful did you...

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For Diane

You are young and so alive
and I am old but with the fire still alive

We come from places far apart
and still we connected at the heart

I have fought the fight you face
it happens in...

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(Year 1)
You try to hide
somewhere deep inside
As the blood spatters on the window
You try to compromise with the needle
Like a hero without a soul
As it throws you to the ground
There are no reasons to hold...

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It's like your world is ending 
Everything comes crashing down
Can't catch your breathe
Down, down, down you drown

Waking in the morning
To another dreaded day
Going through the hustle
Just to keep the pain at bay

Escaping is what you...

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Dear Sister's,

            I remember when you arrived on that very first day.
You looked really sad and had nothing to say. The pain in your...

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White nights
Another  night so dark and bleak 
How did I become so weak 
Here I’ll lay this is it 
My cold dark lonely pit
Because over me it still has power
this so very destructive white...

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You were my sunshine,
once upon a time.
When I stood by your side,
day in and day out.
Do you remember who raised you for so long?
I spent every second
surrounded by you.
I found security in being needed
and my...

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I replied to the beast, “ We are done!”

No longer will I be captive to your powder
of numb thought and emotion.
No longer will I need to have a special
cup, cotton, and spoon next to those
dirty...

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Heard a song of broken halos,
folded wings that used to fly.
Wondered why I go where I go.
Yeah, broken halos as miles went by.
 
 Angels used to come and teach me,
 now they’ve gone another...

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life sentence 
I can’t go on with my life in addiction 
How can I ever have any kind of relations 

A week a month a year 
I really have no idea
It’s all the not knowing...

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Everyone hurts 

Your all beat up broken busted 
all burnt out no longer a flame 
Full of shame pity guilt and blame
But wait is it just you 
have you not hurt everyone else too
What of...

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Hope Within

I’m a hope-a-holic.
I think that’s why I’m here.
I want to celebrate the moments,
Turn straight away from fear.
Focus on the good, good, good,
Never lonely, never sad.
Cover up the not good stuff,
The jealous, anxious, mad.

Share the...

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Yes me I did leap
Can't determine 
How high

I see now
The path
My troubles are nigh

That fog in my way
Those chains 
wearing me down

The locks they 
have crumbled
Grown Rusty and brown

That drama in my life 
The story...

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She needs that drink to start the day
When the children play
To get away
Meetings, lunch, that damn report
The never-ending stress
A drink to rest
She makes love like the dead
Her mind ahead
Major decisions, racing instead
A drink to unwind
To...

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Minds eye revolution
14/08/2018


Minds eye revolution
Industrial solution
Brainwave pollution
Stunted evolution

Living life reckless
Fragile future feckless
Heavy heart helpless
Soul search purpose

Chemical dependency 
Limited life expectancy
Wake up reluctantly
Doubt self constantly

Hard fought decision
Much self derision
Brain cell collision
New world vision

Wake up expectantly
Start again...

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They unload life’s lead
into unseen enemies
machine gun memories
flying rapid fire
recollections and musings
spent shells amassing
mental turbines spinning
smoking the room.

And they yawn and doodle
ink stains for amusement
their purpose loosened
without caffeine courage
meetings adjourned
aimless wandering down
immaculate hallways
wounded reflections
in thoughtless...

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Another day another fight
I find myself another night
The lessons learned and hardships faced
My time is now, no days to waste
I'm not alone when it comes to my journey
No need to be frightened, letting nothing deter...

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How do we harvest light? 
We dig through the darkness. 
When light is a turnip
Growing in the rocky Newfoundland soil
Digging through the darkness
Hands bloody and torn
Digging into my past
Through trauma
Stories and roots 
Block the path
Rocks...

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Day old coffee
in its maker
a cold witness
sometimes
to broken dreams
and war stories
and proclamations
of
getting well
of
new beginnings
of
hearty hope.

Solemn stories and
cloudy memories
and Joe
laughter’s echo
at some obscure
joke but
the window
knows
how schemes get
distorted
deformed
disfigured.

Some have just
flown that way
inevitably
some do go
without ceremony
without fanfare
no hoopla
simply...

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I disappeared behind his too-white teeth and charismatic falsehoods,
That I clung to with my heart curled around his sensuous, rippling body
My eyes sewn shut lest the picture not fit the frame of my mind's vision
And...

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