I noticed Catie disappeared from Soup earlier and then I saw Becca's blog also wondering where she was... I emailed Catie and heard back from her... She told me I can share what she told me...I also posted this in Becca's blog
Catie deleted her account here on Soup. She says she is sorry that she didn't judge her contest before she left.
She says to tell you that she wants to go home. I will quote her from here with regards to that..
"The reason is something you have to feel to understand, not just hear, and I am speaking figuratively when I say, I want to go home. Of course, i have my apt, and all is well along those lines. But I want to go home, Nikko. Not die and go to heaven, no, I just want to go home, maybe I even want my mom. I guess I want someone to hold me when i cry and tell me everything is going to be alright, when nothing is alright. It's very weird to want to go home, knowing there is not one spot on this earth that is my home".
I did get from other parts of her letter that she feels down w/ some things here on Soup. I hope we can lift her up... if you have any message for her, please do post it here and I will make sure to email her, just in case she doesn't pass by here....I can feel that she feels down, and I honestly worry...please join me in lifting up her spirits-- not just the "come back, Catie". No. Let's make her feel that a lot of us care, we may not know each other personally, meet physically, but let her know how she has touched you.
Thank you 
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Let me start:
Catie has always been sweet and caring for me. Aside from reading my stuff here (she is one of the few who still read me, thank you!) and leaving thoughtful comments, I distinctly remember this instance when out of the blue, she just emails me to share her thoughts on something, reassuring me in her own caring way. I will never forget that moment-- I really needed that, and will always be grateful. We then got to share more insights with each other. We don't often get to keep up to date with each other, but somehow I know that our friendship will always be there. Oftentimes, we connect with people on different levels, and I am glad that I have connected with her the way that I have, that we have our own shared moments that we can both treasure. Sending smiles and love your way, Catie. We do care. 