working 12 straight days
she falls asleep on my thigh
no blood circulation, but i just smile anyway
my whole leg will soon be going to sleep with her
working 7 straight 12 hour shifts
my eyes are heavy as well
my heart has a strange rhythm
my temples tingle, and i see very bright spots
like a man, i try to wing it
like a man, i admit that the very exhausted, yet beautiful lady, is right again
sleepiness takes over, and i hear myself snore
next thing we know, it's 4:57am
we feel like we felt medusa's wrath
we decide to go back to sleep right where the lovely journey began
she dreams about winning the lottery
i dream about us taking a cross country trip in an RV
The Out-Going Treasurer had me briefed
But through the released records I still leafed,
Just in case a thing was tightly overlooked
And I some tomorrow hatefully booked
Over some books I had barefacedly cooked
And some missing one million or thereabouts
I should kindly explain its whereabouts…
The one hitting about The Handed Over
And one lousily taking them over:
Before a week’s swiveling of the chair, A Police Land Rover,
If one had happened to be lucky with Army Range Rover;
For unsmiling cops that shall in your office hover…
Always, while taking over from A Treasurer,
Try to be about one or two things surer.
I may be a white boy but I fell in love with the game
These days That isn't nothing strange
Been doing it since a young age
So come on up in my lane
Because I'm about to take over the game
With my musical lyric
My name is lil B
And I work hard to deserve it
Working every day putting this pad to pen
Just to scribble it out and rewrite it again
I've got so many lyrics racing around in my head
But with what I've been through its a wonder I'm not dead
So Ima tell you just a little bit of what I've been through
Hoping it'll help you understand the things that I do
Tired of being judged when you don't even know
About the path I choose and the road I had to go
But I'm going to let you in on a little secret
Through the blood and the pain yeah baby I made it
I awaken once again, alone in my room
not knowing what lies ahead.
I am afraid to walk out to greet the day
but I know to stay here I’d sit and dread.
Will I venture out to a day that is good
or will I be met with the usual routine?
I could hope for the previous scenario
but know that’s not the typical scene.
So I gather my tact and my will all at once
and go out to see what is there.
As my mind fades off to a fantasy land
the other one is not easy to scare.
She takes the shifts that are too tough for me
without her I’d surely be lost.
And when its safe to come back to me
she lets me know and that is my cost.
For life as I know it for right now at least
must be this way don’t you see?
Then when I am ready to face all the mess
I can learn what it was like to be me.
2/2017
Sigh.
Not good.
It's your job.
He's bleeding, dude.
Do something for him!
My patient, and he's fine.
Your patient, and he's dyin'.
Why don't you care anymore, man!?!
You ever care?! Just want the t-shirt!?
Come on my scene again, you're the one hurt...
-Angel Fatale-
-ode to intern 1
Everyday is like paradise when I look into your eyes
That smile you have melts me all over
It hurts to see you walk out the door, even though you will return
Each second that pass is a second that I don't want to be without you
You are my King and I am your Queen forever
I love all the beauty you possess inside and out
Show me eternity in your arms as I drift away
You drown my precious face with tender warm and wet kisses
My heart beats fast when I know you are around
Could you be the one I been dreaming about
Cloud nine has taking over me as I float
How can I come down when you keep taking me there
You are my Lovely thang that I can't get enough of
I dedicate my heart, mind and soul to you
Love has officially taking over and I am happy
When your not happy with yourself ask why
Is it because of that toothbrush in your bag you had on standby
You may not enjoy your body but many people don't
But just like King James have those thoughts overthrown
Some people can't even gain weight
That's why most of their lives are filled with hate
So come, sit and contemplate
Look in the mirror is this what you really hate
Your body is a temple
Which you need to worship
Those hurtful words that were brought to you need to be zipped
Because people love you for you, not the shape
So graduate from this conversation like a summa cum lauda
Because your the most important person in your life
So spread your wings and thrive
Because a rose is still a rose even when its petals fall off
Teenage Suicide is taking over
Its stuck in our head that its a good idea
Its stuck in our head that we wont be missed
That death is a good thing
That it will end all of our problems
That we will be free, no suffering, no regret
But its all a lie
You take your life
You leave others to suffer
To think its our fault that you are in pain
We blame, we mourn, we're in denial
Teenage suicide is taking over
You take your life to end the suffering
You shut us out, you leave us here, you kill us when you kill yourself
Death is not the way, allow people to help you,
when a hand is offered; take it
When a ear is there ready to listen; talk
When a shoulder is there to cry on; soak it with you tears
Don't let death be the only way out
Teenage suicide is taking over
Take a stand
And help end it
It's taking over me
I Ly awake,
Cold In dismay,
One more sickend thought,
Of knowing the truth,
Knowing It's not me,
Again I bleed,
I am Bound,
I am tied down,
From this Heart,
I can not fight the feeling,
I have tonight,
It's Taking Over Me,
My Body,
My mind has become its own,
I have no control,
The words just come right out,
The Hate,
I Begin to scream Loud,
And its taking over me,
Go ahead,
Run Away,
They always do anyways,
Then I wont have to grab your Hand,
I wont have to walk the mile for you,
You can see it can't you,
The dreded look on my face,
I don't want to do this anymore,
And I'm doing it to myself,
I've become so weak,
I've lost count of the scares,
And this feeling I have,
Its taking over me.