Taking Over

I awaken once again, alone in my room not knowing what lies ahead. I am afraid to walk out to greet the day but I know to stay here I’d sit and dread. Will I venture out to a day that is good or will I be met with the usual routine? I could hope for the previous scenario but know that’s not the typical scene. So I gather my tact and my will all at once and go out to see what is there. As my mind fades off to a fantasy land the other one is not easy to scare. She takes the shifts that are too tough for me without her I’d surely be lost. And when its safe to come back to me she lets me know and that is my cost. For life as I know it for right now at least must be this way don’t you see? Then when I am ready to face all the mess I can learn what it was like to be me. 2/2017