A memory never she forgot
The hold you had
as we rolled
A green glade
sun shine a shadow it made
Our lips touched
A love was made,
Two hearts lost
They shared for a brief time
Lost their way in a mad mixed up world,
Like fate a friend
Brought them back again
Kindled love fear afraid,
Lost in a heartbeat
A lost love found new,
A heart still beats
But lost in the past.
im not sure if its healing or if ive simply learned to cope with the hole you left in my
soul...part of me feels guilty for trying to move on like im being unfaithful to my
heart..accepting this is it between us but holding on to hope that eventually we'll
regain the realationship we lost in pride..time seems to pass with out meaning and
ive lost track of my purpose here..friendship?ha! just another empty word used to
fill the title of this strange realationship weve come to develope..your words mean
nothing except everything to me,searching for your voice in the back of my
head,your face etched into my eye lids..ill never forget you.....
I found my long lost friend
I found my long lost love
We message, here and there
Now, for more than a year.
Pictures of your life
Pictures of mine.
Miles and miles seperate us
Still they interwine.
Day after day I check your page
A stalker I became
My life was put on hold
Facebook, you? had control
So with a glass of wine, or two
and with a heavy heart
I have to delete you ...my old friend
I hope you uderstand!
You were a different kind
Quite disturbing
Not very kind
A cold heart stole your soul
I could not look in your eyes
You stole everything from me
You were so cruel
I lost my faith in you
I lost my trust
I could not love you back
There was nothing left
Pain and misery robbed our relationship
A tornado descructive to the only path
We had no future
A loss of hope
No wedding bells to celebrate
Just bitter hell
That I choose to let go
And live without.
What if?
I sit and wonder, What if?
If only I was not a toy to you.
I was a shiny toy who lost her luster.
I lost my affection from you.
I’m just a toy, an island of misfit toy.
You never really cared about me enough to want to fight for a future.
Just a toy discarded after minutes of play.
A little piece of plastic that was played with for a short while
Until you decided I’m bored and walked away.
My feelings, hopes, and dreams had no say in this.
Even though you would think because I was part of this mixture I would have.
But you never know how the world is going to turn
Good or bad, you lose all you have.
So why do I feel pain, in all of this?
Why do I wonder if ill ever stop loving you?
Why after all this pain I still want you?
After all you’re the one who discarded me.
You’re the one who didn’t want me.
So why do I wait, and wonder?
What if?
The diamonds of the twilight…
They sparkle in the sky
Testifying of my solemn place
In this my somber time
So lost without you, a dying ember into a falling sky
Growing cold and so very dim
Crash landing within this maze of a God forsaken life
Any hope for joy to cling too is all together grim
From a distance among the crowds
Everywhere, go I, I feel your smiling face
When I see you in the drifting clouds
Splendor sets the pace
But, then the freezing rains
Fall callous, way too many tears
Seasons run together, never do any change
Drifting aimlessly through muddled years
These questions I forever whisper to myself
How do I leave the heart break behind?
Stop the memories from twisting the knife?
Or recollections of your sweetness now lost in another time
I fell asleep tonight with thoughts so deep..
I dreamed of days with promises we didn't keep..
Morning comes so slow as I step out the doors in space..
A look so far away as I airbrush a smile on my face..
Did I step to slow, or did the train just miss my station..
Your hands are gone, a smile lost with no more destination..
Too many distant thoughts of what might have been..
Lost in my own reflection and forced to only sketch a grin..
Your now a world away and I wonder can you feel me..
Maybe when your lost in your dreams I'm who you see..
"The One That Got Away" contest
My fingers are cold.
My heart is broken.
There is just some things that i was hoping i could say to you.
Because now we're through.
And there's nothing i can do.
To get back to you.
Because they've stolen you.
And now, i lay here in tears.
Without you near i've lost control of the weel and i'm lost on this long road.
There was no more deciet.
I followed your wishes.
Only to be torn by you and heald together with butterfly stitches.
Hang your head, and mourn
the lost smile of elation,
Happiness shattered asunder,
While melancholy tears, stain
the frame of a tarnished silhouette,
And speak words of wisdom, that
pain the ears and restrain laughter
by the chains of harrowing truth,
Demeaning a demeanor, with
structured news of elated nuptials,
Which force the ambivalence of love
and lost wishes, that belong to
a memory, which fades with time
but can never be forgotten,
Leading to a flaw in poetic justice,
that pushes a mind to delusion
But to return from a dismal and
desolate place, with even an inkling
of untainted hope, there alone lies my
whisper of salvation, And while my
pen freely bleeds, with phrases of my
most tender reminiscence, I can
only assume, that faith
is purposeful...
Thus by a dangerous choice, to
trust my memories to save me,
before they eradicate my being, I
find a breath of grace in writing of
you, and knowing you through my
words, and all your beauty throws
to them, and by this plea, hope to
know you, if only another moment,
With the mere faith, that
rediscovering you, will mercifully,
help me find myself...
What am I to write….what am I to say…
With the hurt that I carry….
Of the lost love I cherished..
Months have passed by..
Days are lived…minutes are spent..
Seconds are count with my lost love…
Will I ever move on? Will I ever live..
With this love lives in me…
Will she ever know? Will she ever see..?
The love I hold for her so strongly…
I think about her day and night…
See her in my dreams every night..
I wish I always had her love…
My heart is filled with her love…
Yet I really want to move on…
I want to be in love..
I want to share, to be belonged..
But I am always alone…
I am always holding on…
The love I had so strong…
Will there be a chance…
Even a second…for me to be..
With the woman I love so dearly…??
Dilupa Wijegunasekara
The world was simpler then
Why can't decisions stand fast
Immutable, Are there only ten commandments? Oh, I wish I had never done it,
Or not, how to avoid this tug of war
But then everything was simpler
Singing "She love me"
"She loves me not"
"Red rover, red rover"
Let my love come over
Where is my love?
My long lost love
My long lost precious love
The day's move from morning to dusk
And the seasons color changes
But not my long lost love
Lost by a stroke of the pen
Lost in the shades of time
I'm trapped in a void beyond my control
I have no place to turn
Surrounded by sorrows, I can't understand
My soul not able to yearn
What place is this my heart can't feel?
Is this hell or is this my grave?
The keeper is pain, of this dreadful place
And I have become his slave
The desire I've known is forever gone
I'm lost here without any reason
Complain though I might, no one will hear
For hope is a puppet to treason
Mistakes will follow me where ever I go
Reminding me of my past
My future is bleak, just out of reach
How long is this destined to last?
Memories here fade into darkness
Replaced with broken dreams
Smiles are lost to hopeless desires
Replaced with silent screams
Trapped in a void beyond my control
I wonder, when did this start?
It happened the day when you said goodbye
The day, that you broke my heart
I got lost in the middle of your riddle
miles away I sat and pondered
while you struggled and tried to fight
against a heart on the line
I took one chance and spilled my guts
just in case you didn't know
it echoed against a solid wall
crashing unheard to the wood floor
don't feel bad, it's not your fault
I could see how it all shakes down
the differences as plain as dark and night
you always saw what I couldn't hide
it all frays, that once thick tether
even duct tape couldn't hold it together
time moves on and I think its settled
then some thought will bring it back
it could be a dream or monsoon rain
the phases of the moon or a song's refrain
it churns and surfaces once again
that old heartache--my long lost friend
don't feel bad, it's not your fault
I could see how it all shakes down
the differences as plain as dark and night
you always saw what I couldn't hide
it all frays, that once thick tether
even duct tape couldn't hold it together
Feel my rage...
Watching my tears fall,
From my pain.
It is you!
Laughing as I'm breaking into shame.
Silly me,
I tried giving my heart to you...
Now I'm stuck in this small cage!
NO! I won't love you,
You can't make me smile.
I want you to hurt too,
Pain that will last for a while.
My rage?
The pain that will hurt,
Who?
Silent,
I still speak.
Treating you like you treat me,
As Dirt!
You STUPID FREAK!
Unlock this small cage!
I should have known,
You seem to be pushing deeply,
Inside of...
My heart,
Hmm? me,
From the start.
Are you weakening my black heart?
Listen as I scream out my rage!
You lost a friend,
I lost only a sin.
Lovers?
Together we make great poison,
Passion?
Look deep into my blood shoot eyes,
I love your rage,
My rage.
Kissing me again.
This has to be the end!
Raging Reality
Love lost cannot find the freshness it once knew.
Haunting past memories absorb sanity.
Spellbound, last illusions, and joys say, “adieu.”
Flickering dreams blanket deaths black reality.
Haunting past memories absorb sanity.
Reality grips hate’s raging encasement.
Flickering dreams blanket deaths black reality.
Final mockery proclaims a new standard.
Haunting past memories absorb sanity.
Spellbound, last illusions, and joys say, “adieu.”
Flickering dreams blanket deaths black reality.
Love lost cannot find the freshness it once knew.
© Name withheld until after the contest
May 9, 2010
Poetic form: Pantoum
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