The rumors hurt
Im not the person they
Make me out to be
Why do you listen to them?
You know they are lies
Why do you hurt me over them?
Do you start them to?
Slow than fast and
changing my life always
thought you would be
mine but I know its true
it would never me and
you
Cuz you broke my heart
tore it apart I wanna
know where I'm
suppose to be Cuz when
I'm with you u set me
free ya you set me free
How am I supposed to
the where am I
supposed to go I wanna
know what I'm looking
toward
Cuz u broke my heart
toee it apart I wanna
know where im
supposed to be cuz
when I'm with you you
set me free ya you set
me free
the screaming just won't stop
it lives between my ears
its tears and sobs keep me up
its lonely weeping makes me shake
why does no one hear the screaming
coming and going through out these
years
I've lost my own voice
lost while begging it to stop
does no one ever notice
notice when I hide away
this tiny little monster
it lives within my brain
some days it lays quiet
nestled sleeping in a dream
other days it's violent
screaming with all it's might
this tiny little monster
I wish I could befriend
but this little monster
It doesn't know my words
She said: "you're such a sweet, sweet liar"
But I could never lie to you
These words I say are born from desire
My every sentiment is nothing but true
And every time I seem to start a fire (in your eyes)
It loses to the ice of your heart
But tell me, darling, aren't you tired?
Of playing hard to get, you've mastered the art
And all the pretty faces that they suggest
Fail to impress me, I don't want second best
It's everything or nothing, glory or death
'Cause you're the only one that I need to have
She took my hand and she gave me scars
"Now you'll remember me forever"
But can't you see I won't forget the one
Who turned to hell what once was heaven
But lesson's learnt, and burnt on your fire
I realised how I was wrong
Cause even though you called me the liar
You've lied to me all along
Don't be my hero. I'll only walk farther into the flames and let you get burned, unaware that
I could trip and stab myself with my own words. I'd tell you not to wait for me to come back
and welcome solitude as my mistress. The battle is over, have I the right to find you again? I
used to paint myself with the blood on my hands. Left only with the stain, I try to patch the
wound that had already scarred. Will I be brave enough to step back off the edge and let
faith take me by the hand, pulling me back from the unknown that I live to dive into? All I
wanted was for the flames to consume me, with ashes in the laughing wind to remember me
by. They were holograms and spotlights. I run to the only place I know you'll be; a silent
request for one last dance, without a promise to stay 'till midnight.
.
When I first talked to him I fell in love
He seemed like someone I couldn't live without
A few short days later
He asked me out
He knew we couldn't be together
But we didn't care
People always say that long-distance never works
But we still love each other no matter where
He is perfectly amazing
We've only been together awhile
But no matter what
He always makes me smile
Our love grows everyday
We may not be able to be together
But I hope we will love each other
Forever
I don't know if I should show this to my boyfriend or not. If y'all could give me some
feedback on if I should or not I would really appreciate it. Thank you.
Through paper thin doors,
Seep the colours of my twenty nine skins,
Hanging from mismatched wire shoulders.
On one side are the statues,
Full circled, halter neck statues,
With shiny black plastic eyes,
That warn me not to touch.
Their colours catch me like wasp fur,
I am terrified by their beautiful boldness.
Glistening cold, black satin nooses.
On the other side,
Home hangs solemnly,
From each metal hanger,
Shrugging into its pale grey,
Apathetic stance.
My fingers run across this side,
Like a reader gently fingers the favourite lines,
Of a childhood book.
The page is torn and yellowing and loved.
I've lost a friend
And I don't know why
It's hurts so bad
It makes me wanna cry
There's too much drama
Why can't you see
I love this guy
And it's killing me
She's being a witch
And a stupid little hoe
Trust me honey
All the boys know
You're lies I believed
I was made to be a fool
Why can't you just go
And leave me the hell alone
I've been dumped on the ground
Like a common piece of trash
I can't take it any longer
I swear I won't last
I have no one left
No one to hold
I need to be alone
So I can accept this on my own
The past is what haunts me.
Its what kicks me down.
Its what follows me...
I used to get bullied at school, all the time.
And i have noticed, that it is slowly coming back..
And i find myself asking "Why me?"
I find myself wondering why it is coming back...
Im thinking "Will it ever end? Or just keep coming back to haunt me?"
I cant take this anymore,
It is killing me inside.
I feel like nothing.
I feel as if i am alone.
I feel as if i have nothing.
I feel as if no one cares.
No one, no one understands.
I feel as if im living in my past.
I cant take this anymore,
Its just to much..
I want to leave..
But i cant get myself to do it..
So i shall wait..
Until the day..
That i can leave..
And leave this world happy,
Without me..
I cant get you off my mind
it's like you haunt my dreams
everynight...
i try my best to be strong
but you always bring me down
you say that those feelings
the ones we had that night
do you remembr?
The passion between us
the neediness in every kiss
well you said they didnt matter
well to me they do!
I wanted you then and i still do
why can't you see that?
You date all these other girls
but they're all wrong for you
I think about these things
everday... everynight
always runnin through my mind
I'm starting to get worn out
by the sleepless nights
just open you eyes
and see that your true love is me!
If I actually believed you didn't care for me
I would've given up by now
but everytime we're together
I feel those sparks go off in my head
and I know you do too.
Your just afraid
well baby don't be
sometimes I wish you could see
that your always on my mind...
I walk where I dare not pass,
I stay where I am not welcome,
I talk to those who do not talk back,
I look where I cannot find,
I jump into depths too deep,
I ask where there is no answer,
I stay who I am to be hated,
When I am asked why I am not open,
It's because of the pain it brings me,
When I am asked why I am so mean,
It's because I have never been given kindness,
When you see me you see dark,
When I see me I see distrust,
Why do I try to only get hurt again,
Who I am to who you are,
I asked to be hurt,
You gave me what I asked for.
i break down once more, lost
falling off of the highest precipice of
my own bitter consciousness
tumbling down, crumpling to the floor in a pile
my worn and sagging shoulders crushed with the weighty knowledge
of this injustice that is my ceaseless torment
this abysmal internal darkness which claws into my mind
driving me mad with sorrow and fear and contempt
now i pound and plead, shudder and scream
my blue button eyes spilling saltwater
and i find myself wrapping limp, lifeless arms around my sack body;
shields to ward off this desperate, terrible loneliness
that is growing inside this empty husk of me
for my stitching has torn, and my sides have ripped
and i've spilled all that i am onto the carpet;
all of the sawdust and cotton fluff
the silly stupid meaningless nothing that makes up my entire existence
now all that remains is this hollow aching inside of my fabric body
a hungering for an escape, anything anything anything please
this slow throb that drowns out all else
reminding me forever more that i am and have always been
truly alone.
You tell me i dont talk to you,
You tell me i ignore you,
You tell me i hate you,
But what you dont know,
I try to talk to you all the time.
You are kind, amazing, and wonderful
I've never known anyone like you before
You show me love and care
You are more than I could ask for
You aren't normal, no
But I dont care
You are so much better than normal
That there's no one who can compare
You slowly crept into my heart
And I'm glad I let you
If I didnt let, then I probably would have never said
I love you
You mean the would to me
Im glad our love gets to grow
And trust me when I say
I don't think I'll ever let you go.
But the truth is...
You are deciving, manipulate, and a hoax
I know everyone like you
You show me lies and tricks
This isnt what I askd for
You are normal, yes
But I dont care
You are more than who you look
There's a lot who can compare
You crept into my heart
And I wish I didnt let you
If I didn't let you, then I would have never said
I love you
You are the biggest mistake in my life
I'm glad my hate gets to grow as much as your "love"
And trust me when I say
I'll never let this go
Through it all I know that You are with me
I know that You forgive me
I know that You love me
Your Love, inspiring me to change for the better despite old habits
to reach new heights in Your glory
to fully surrender and hand over the reigns of my life
to conquer evil because You did not create me to be a victim
to part seas because You do supernatural things through whomever You choose
to be courageous in the dark of the night because You are greater than fear
to have overwhelming faith in whatever storm I am engulfed in
to disregard what anyone thinks because You alone are my God
to live determined and focused because I am Your soldier and should not involve myself
in civilian affairs
to carry my cross because It is a do or die job
to lay it all down because You are beyond worth it
to dedicate my life to you because You are the only One for me
to love..to lose...to gain
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