AGONY
I can't accept that we are not together
My chest just feels heavy and ready to explode
Everyone teaches you the concept of love
but none teaches how to live in their absence
I can't see happiness anywhere
Nothing excites me anymore
I don't find anything that makes me loved
It was you and only your love I ever wanted
Initially I was
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Categories:
love angst, angst, art, caregiving, crazy,
Form: Free verse
Loveless
I made you hate love
Were the last words you spoke
But your actions caused
Me to hate more than a burning feeling
We so easily define as love
I hated my body
For the marks you left there
Still feel permanent
Like a tattoo pen on my tainted skin
You thought of me just as a canvas
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Categories:
love angst, 9th grade, angst, first
Form: Free verse
Bird Cage - Hidden In Plain Sight
Autumn colored shackles
palpitations make the metal growl
Xanthic forewings and discal cells
grace my mucosa, the ripples feel foul
Eternal suffering in a blissful steel
I like to spend my days believing my delusions are real
Love is just chemicals
that we tend to confuse
But good lord, honey, these confusing chemicals have me addicted to you
May these Lepidopteras lay
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Categories:
love angst, 8th grade, angst, crush,
Form: Rhyme
Your Bedroom
i remember your bedroom at your moms house,
Thin walls and black blankets.
A energy drink and my perfume resting on your side desk,
The journal you’d draw in,
And you’d draw me.
Your guitar sitting in the corner,
Red and glossy but always growing dust,
You played music on it and I was surprised at your talent.
A hot summer and
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Categories:
love angst, anger, angst, change, emotions,
Form: I do not know?
Nonsense to you
Do you think I had forgotten about you?
You carried me home when I drank too much.
Hoisted me over your shoulder, drowning delicately in laughter.
It was late but we didn’t care, we’d laugh some more in the bathroom as you pried open my mouth for kisses and toothpaste.
Dropping me on to the
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Categories:
love angst, break up, drink, drug,
Form: Narrative
Such Sadness
I don't want you to know-- not all of it
the good, the bad, the dirty
No, there's no such thing when I try to speak my truth
Just for a moment, let me hold your hand in mine
it's you, not him
it's you, not her
it's you, it's me
Did it ever cross your mind what the little me looks
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Categories:
love angst, abuse, angst, change, childhood,
Form: Free verse
Libby
She experienced life
in her own way
The way a woman will.
At times she loved a man.
At times she was alone.
Collecting Memories,
Like shells on a beach
Or stored in jars,
Beside the mirror
In her bathroom.
Water, always the way,
In which her life flowed.
And now, she returned
To the memory of a well,
Into which she once
Cast her wishes.
Like the one about that
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Categories:
love angst, first love, loss, nostalgia,
Form: Free verse
Sonnet 73: 'The Agon of a Love Thrown Out, Debased'
The agon of a love thrown out, debased,
Doth wound as deep as deeply ever could
It cuts across the veins in my pump based
And turns my heartfelt words to dull, dry wood.
It is a blinding shadow hid in wit
That thinks, by wit that it cannot be seen,
A diamond rose, and
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Categories:
love angst, angst, longing, lost love,
Form: Sonnet
Behind the Scenes: Success
Global warming
Jealousies
Me: cool :)
25/5/2022
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Categories:
love angst, anger, angst, betrayal, happiness,
Form: Haiku
Naked Pain
Naked pain – abandoned hope
Treasure chest of dreams
Put to rest
Visions across the forest floor
With leaves in hues of amber
Scarlet and gold
Crunching against
Deep, black earth
Decomposing
Fading into
Death
Bare, aching sorrow
Breathing through my soul
In waves of agony
Piercing my heart
With grief
From the
Loss
Of
Peace
Rich, brilliant promises
Of flowing lights
Beaming across
The darkness of night
In whispers of
Intimacy
Encouraging
A victory
For hope
Faith
Limitless, lasting love
Dancing through
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Categories:
love angst, grief,
Form: Free verse
Futility
I could write this silly poem
Play a million songs
Lay awake not sleeping
Raging all night long
Spend my days and hours
Plagued by thoughts of you
But it won't change a single thing
There's nothing I can do
I can't control your feelings
Or fix reality
This exercise in torment
Is just futility
The truth is I'm exhausted
It's such a waste of time
Languishing
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Categories:
love angst, angst, conflict, heartbreak, longing,
Form: Rhyme
Their Salvation
Coming out of
distant dreams
of splendid things
lovely impressions
healing schemes
where
discerning deceptions
profound perceptions
within without were
strewn.
My consciousness
roused
from myriad worlds
of angels and demons
realms and reasons
from
castles and kings
subtle things
psyche’s pleasings.
This awakening
from primeval sleep
vast kingdoms
from fantasies
stories
allegories
from dark the deep
my ethereal dawn
rose moonless
from its keep.
Three words
appeared
without a sound
for which I prayed
for which I knelt
bound and chained
in despair found
begging blind sages
indifferent Gods
cursing the fates
no
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Categories:
love angst, love,
Form: Rhyme
Ides of Lovers
Do not wall yourself
dead within my eyes
as Anarkali was, alive
your silent tomb
as if Orpheus
I glance to seek you
but cruel Hades has
torn you back
to his hateful lair.
I am Odysseus
fighting demons
into oblivion
do hasten swiftly
into the night!
Oh, wait for me
resolve is not far off.
Agamemnon hurries
to your shore
valiantly seeking you
do not cower deeply
for he will not find you
cannot bring
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Categories:
love angst, allegory,
Form: Free verse
My Fragile Resistance-Lu's
I sense your essence in the breeze bound by love and affection
black ravens plague this existence as the tempest rages in warm rains
the wind blows and gusts prevail
fleeting into the ebon night; for our love loses not insight
but goes where it will as long as it please
intense obscurity of the calamity I faced before you
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Categories:
love angst, angst, love,
Form: Free verse
You'Re Gonna Think of Me
Deny it all you want to
Pretend you're happy being free
But when your mind begins to wander
You're gonna think of me
Oh you may find another
Thinner, pretty face
But she'll never measure up to me
I could never be replaced
I'll consume your every thought
I'll run within your veins
Your heart will stop
Be short of breath
When you hear my name
Your mouth
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Categories:
love angst, angst, desire, lost love,
Form: Rhyme
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