Someday I'll have
said all I have to say
but until then...
Hand me the microphone
let me speak my piece
without interruption without hesitation
Sit back and zip it
take a break
it's my turn
I’ve waited far too long to give
And get back in return
The kind of hug for which long-distance
Causes you to yearn.
But yesterday, at last, I did
Experience that treat
And got to spend some precious time
To make my joy complete.
When friendship’s deep and close and strong,
The phone keeps the connection,
Though there is nothing like a hug
To share some true affection.
All around the world.
You look for me.
Do not leave,
A stone unturned.
In brothels and bars,
From near and far.
Around a corner or an alley,
Between, Gingers’ valley.
You seek but
Cannot find.
Because some of you,
Are totally blind.
I live in you.
All you need,
Is to believe,
It is true.
Your yearning fall,
On deaf ears.
During you’re failing years.
You have to find me,
First of all.
You’re long overdue.
To found love.
I come to you at the lowest point in my life,
Because I know that my new one must start here.
I’m the only one that has caused myself pain and strife.
I must begin change with the one I see in the mirror.
As I look at myself and see that I’m going nowhere,
I come here in the hopes of turning myself around.
I want to live my dreams and stop being so scared.
I want to stay focused and keep my feet on the ground.
I have the desire to completely change my ways.
I will begin a new life: starting here, starting now.
My addiction has seen the last of its days,
And it’s in this place that I will slowly learn how.
I know it’s a process that’s different for everyone,
But, in the end, I promise to set myself free.
I will enjoy my life and always try to have fun,
And become the person that I was always meant to be.
With God’s help, and the help of so many more,
My addiction will no longer have a hold on me.
Nobody knows what my future has in store,
But it all starts here… in my heart and mind… now I see.
Come rise with me above the horizon;
Console the seeds of the Messiah soon;
Come breach the calms of distorted waves of view;
Banquet the thoughts of evil discord;
What to ignore, no need to explore;
What rights if I had to choose;
Unrepentant evils I've done I lose;
My forgiveness is long overdue:
4/5/20
Written words by James Edward Lee Sr 2020
Is spring ever freaking well going to arrive
Bloody hell, it's long overdue, sakes alive
Done nothing wrong
Wear clean sarongs
Well sometimes I neglect to powder my thighs
Illusion illusion,
My dreams end in disillusion;
Confusion confusion,
My thoughts are jumbled fusion;
Nightmares and dreams,
Bust and blend at the seams;
Never do I know where they start;
Where the they will at any minute come apart,
This is your doing my undoing;
Creeping up on me I feel the sting,
Of reality the apprehension;
Can't break the icy tension,
Though you are just within reach;
You're like a security field I can't breach,
But its just I with my heart in a lie;
That without you I would die,
But that is my roadblock;
As the time paces I watch the clock,
Awaiting the next time I'll be with you;
Just an hour, a minute, a moment long overdue...
I know it matters little,
At this time, I am sure,
But I've always felt,
I owed you,
A reason why,
We did not endure...
As I approach,
The final destination,
I've unfinished chores,
I must amend,
And I guess
It's up to each
Of us to tend...
It may sound insane,
In fact, I think it is...
I was feeling too much in love,
Something had to give...
All I'm sure of,
Is this, I do swear...
It was never a question...
Of if I did care...
All I'm sure of, that is,
Whoever followed me,
The luck was his...
I felt I was losing control,
Felt jealous and insecure,
Withdrew into a defensive caccoon,
But there's even more...
I knew I blew my chance
With the most beautiful girl
I ever had,
One who shared my love,
And to this day I'm sad...
I did what I'm good at,
I ran away and hid,
My life was forever changed,
The dumbest thing I ever did...
I know it sounds insane,
And I'm sure that this is true,
But one thing I can swear,
I never ever,
Stopped loving you.