I look myself in the mirror and I
quickly look away, the man I see
before me was different yesterday
seems to me I worship the same
God everyday, I been a slave to my
flesh for too long still I'm hoping
today is my payday, Mayday my life
is in a state of emergency, they say
it's power in prayer I hope so
because me not doing so is hurting
me, my surgeon says I gotta heart
condition and the only way to fix it
is to be sincere with repentance,
forgiveness only takes place when
the heart is broken and contrite,
psych 101 when your mind is a
slave, no matter how hard you try
it's hard to escape, but the father
threw a rope a way out of this
destruction, the son gave it all up
and it cost us nothing. So as I look
back into that mirror I see what he
saw imperfect perfection, sanctified
sinner who by faith and grace he
predestined
So i will sit like a sparrow on a power line,
just patiently waiting for the sunlight
to wake me up and save me.....
save me from these dying times.
Because this land is loseing color
and these trees they bare their bones.
i am just waiting for the summer
maybe by then i will have a place
to call home.
Today I was hoping it would be
a new beginning
But then my head started
thinking
I tried so hard to stop the
thoughts
But nothing I did kept them
apart
I called out for help and no one
answered
I was left all alone and
stranded
I drop to my knees and asked
for forgiveness
I prayed to God to give me
guidance
Show me the light and give me
the strength I need
To accept who I am with no
regret
Follow the straight and narrow
path
Awaiting me is a brand new
start
Loving you strong
Loving with ease
Just Loving you is my disease
Don't get me wrong thou
You're all I need
Nothing more
This time it will last
This time I'm here
Loving you is all I have
and that is what I give
Breaking your heart
I could never do
Sleeping beside you
makes me free
You just know what to say
even when you don't
Still I adore you the same
Put me in a direction
Take me away
To a place you know
Quiet and alone
Our heaven it would be
Just you and me
Till the end comes knocking
so forever more
Heaven await our arrival
clouds gather above my fitted
rain drops fall beneath my feet
im still alive
there aint no need to sleep
i feel the falling rain drops on my face
i dont expect them to stop with the hate
so i shoved my watch in there face
and i told them its my time
all i do is shine
its all i know
funniest joke i heard
they expect me 2 fail and fall like snow
yeah lifes a chick
and deaths her husband
im havin an affair with there daughter destiny
making it happen aint gonna share the recipie
love me or hate me
i weather the storm
the world is mine
it will never be yours
never had a game plan
when writing i change hands
im up in the sky
u can let the plane land
hip hop is what keeps me alive
as long as hip hop is living
my heart will have a beat inside
i weather the storm theres no need 2 hide
The trees makes atmosphere so that birds can get their needs,
The same way you make a love to me so that I can live in this lonely world.
There was nothing to me in this world;
I thought that it’s a mistake of mine, to live alone these days.
But a day you’ll come to me, enlightened a hope of way to live,
In the shade of your love, I can built my world……..of love…..of love…….of love!
- Written and owned by Amit Valmiki
I’M MELTING AWAY WITH CRAYON PICTURES UNDER THE SUN
I DRAW BIRD AND I BECOME A BIRD
AND FLYING IS SUCH FUN
COLOR ME BLUE
WITH FEATHERS OF ORANGE AND RED
MAYBE I’LL BE AN ANGEL BIRD
WITH A HALO ABOVE MY HEAD
I’LL BUILD MY NEST IN THE TALLEST TREE
THE ONE CLOSEST TO THE SUN
I CAN WATCH OVER THE CHILDREN
AND COMFORT EVERY ONE
I’LL SEARCH FOR A RAINBOW
AND BATHE IN ITS’ SOFT LIGHT
UNTIL THE WIND CARRIES ME
INTO THE GENTLE NIGHT
AND THEN I WILL GO
BACK TO THE COMFORT OF MY NEST
THE MOON HAS TOLD ME THAT IT’S TIME TO REST
I PUT AWAY MY CRAYONS
ALONG WITH MY FADING DREAMS
THE COLORS HAVE MELTED AWAY
BUT I WILL KEEP THESE WINGS©
I want someone to come chasing me through tall forests filled with fog
Someone whos arms wrap around me tightly as if they’ll never let me go
Take me away
Just please if you love me
take me away today
Finding the strength to go on was hardest to do I thought
But then I found you
And ive found breathing around you
Near impossible
You take my hand so easily
Not knowing what it does to me
So take me away in your mind today
Engulfing me in your scent
Making every moment I ever spent before you
A far distant nightmare
Dance with me in the moonlight
Tell me Im you’re princess
We can run away as long as you say
That you will be mine
Please say you’ll be mine
There you stand a crooked grin and an open hand
Leaning in toward me
I never thought I’d be the one that needed saving
Make me laugh a thousand times in a day
All my dark thoughts fade away
Please just make sure you’re here to stay
I don’t think my heart could take it
If another walked away
Do you ever even attempt,
For us to see eye to eye?
Have you ever seen me cry,
And for a split second,
Wonder why?
And when I am down,
Have you ever even noticed my frown?
No. But how can this be?
It's simply that you can't see the answers clearly.
So can you try?
Try for me?
Of course, it is not a cry of a beg.
Just a whispering desperation,
A question that should have been said.
So all I ask is for you to hear my plea,
Also to do the simple task,
And please try...
Try for me.
(this poem is about someone that is close to me family wise... i hope that this makes the poem more meaningful.. thank you for reading.)
MY DREAM
I have watch in my very heart
the true colour of my dream;
For the size is as empire,very large and the
Fragrance thereof as aperture of a
Diamond;
Yet,the road is diverged,like in a dilemma.
Thanks to the Lord in and
For Leading me In the way thereof.
I see,i saw and i conquer those sucker to my
Dream;
For my Lord made me from the start
And my pen never late to draw my plans,
Its evergreen yet holding sweet aroma of
Its largeness.
I see my Lord awaken for my sake
Pleading my path with lesson to learn,though
I learned and yet,learning;
For the road to accomplishment is of the Lord,my
Lord and my God,
Leading me the road less expensive.
02/09/2005(1:30am)
Dear mama
I kicked you out of my wish
and you bear in mind without a wish
good meals you kept for a dish...
what will I do to make you at your wish?
peace you stood for me
and held me close to be
your dream was to see me
how will I do to please you your wills?
no words you spoke in my fame
and showed a smile of bless
to me your son bliss you named
why will I trouble you?
never in you word says
fie unto me
in you I see my rise..
I cry silently
No-one hears my passion
No-one hears my thoughts
All I can do is write
Misery is all I see
Poverty is all I see
Life is devastating
My mum cries for what
If she experienced half of what I suffered
She would not live, god forbid
No-one understands the misery that happens behind these glasses
I cry silently
Take these broken glasses
Angel
Rise me above
Take me from life
Grant me a new one
I can’t hold it any longer
No-one understands this misery
The only hope I have is achievement
Is it a matter of death?
My liver hurts
My head hurts
My eyes hurt
I am half blind
I am ill
But I have one hope
To achieve
No-one can stop me!
Not for the life of me
Will I ever know if this where I should be
Over there the grass is green
But I will stay here and plant a new tree
They have never taken root before
Reminds me there is a lesson down every road
Maybe I will think my choices over again
But maybe this time a new road will begin
One that leads me to my destiny
How strange it took my demons to set me free
From a life of restitution
And save myself from my own self destruction
So my skies are no longer just night and day
Somewhere in the middle is a different shade
But thats where I found my peace of mind
I think I will paint my fence and rest in this new shade on this side
I awake contented as I hear the birds sing
A message of hope seems to be what it brings
The sky opens up providing rays of light and hope
The future hangs before me like a carrot on a rope.
Brooks stumble over stones on their journey toward the sea
They remind me of the change of what is and what shall be
The water rises up but soon it shall recede
I don’t get what I want but have what I need.
I see the flowers open up to accept rays from the sun
Little rays of happiness so they all try to grab some
Beauty surrounds as the trees provide some shade
As I view all the beauty that nature has made.
The grass is so green and the sky is so blue
Erasing all the sorrow making everything brand new
The birds take to the sky as they begin to soar
The world is before me as I open up my door.
I look in amazement at all that God has made
A cool breeze blows by in the oak tree’s shade
Animals scurry around they don’t seem to have a care
My eyes take it in and my heart joins in the share.
I know I’ve seen this many times before
But it seems today I see so much more
The world I see daily becomes inspiring to me
As I see what is and imagine what can be.
I knew that instant, the very first day
Bad case of 'caught up in the moment'
Senses abused, you blew me away
Chemical, violent and potent
For one perfect week, I try to deny
Cant tell the affect that you have
Beats me and eats me and kills me inside
I fear if I speak, you will laugh
Compare me to you, I'm nothing, a germ
A something you'd find on your shoe
I don't want you ruined but I'll never learn
I must keep my filthy hands off you
I'd cover the distance and wait for an age
I kneel and I pray that you feel the same way.
09 June 2011
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