I am sorry, I didn't tell you,
What my heart said long ago.
It said it loved beating for you.
It said its emotions were long due
To be spoken out to you.
I am sorry, I didn't tell you,
That my brain couldn't hault,
Caricaturing your pictures
Hallucinating your images,
Mistaking it as a fault.
I am sorry, I didn't tell you,
My eyes couldn't see
A life without you.
I ignored it's voice ,
Thinking let it be.
I am sorry, I didn't tell you,
My tears talked about you
My happiness spoke words of you.
My ears whispered too,
But, I didn't know what to do.
I am sorry, I didn't tell you,
I couldn't imagine,
Me without you.
Why did you cheat on me?
Where did I go wrong?
Wasn't I trying to improve?
Wasn't I learning to live?
Wasn't I working to achieve my dreams?
Where was I at fault?
That you brought me to a sudden hault.
Why are you making me sad?
Enough of pain I have had.
I wanted to live my dreams,
No, not now, was your scream.
I waited, I stopped for day and nights,
Still I lost most of the battles and fights.
I cried for hours,
And waited for relief showers.
You did not pay heed,
You did not care for my need.
Why are you so cruel everytime?
I cannot disagree that you are mine.
Dear life, please help me.
Come on let's patch up,
Please help me to get up.
There’s Fault In This Gender
Late, last night,
she was caught by a group.
Men wrongly said,
monsters in troop.
Molesting, harassing,
the helpless in fright.
The vulnerable is not right.
By default at fault,
must have been the cause,
the onset physical assault.
How badly thrashed !
To be raped one by one.
To bear the pleasure of the fun.
Pitiable she!
Must have been the cause,
attire must have been short.
Shouldn’t have been out of the house,
shouldn’t have worn such deep blouse.
The pebbles of judgement are thrown,
her pain, her wounds, all unknown
The mind set of men shouldn’t be changed,
it’s the gender, women to be blamed .
To wrap themselves up
with attitude, conduct ,not bad.
To be whistled walking alone,
while crossing the danger zone.
But men shouldn’t be taught,
to respect this gender a lot.
It’s a woman, an angel.
Born as mother,
as wife ,as sister
to get things untangle.
Born to be at fault,
Until life comes to hault.
I am the wonderer
Don't know where to hault,
If you find me in your neighborhood,
Just let me know whether am lost or not!
A never ending tunnel
Hate spewed at me at a astonishing rate
Trying to hold it together
I grasp for something or someone to hault my fate
Silent sobbing, as i try to stand
All who said they loved and protect me, dont even lend a hand
Its loney at the bottom
I can only try to climb out with each passing day
Understanding that i only seem to be in the way
I cant do anything right only everything wrong
According to you i just dont belong
Broken as i am i could never be as cruel as you
Karma will hold you accountable for the hell you put me through
I am having a dance party
Head to toe inside my body
Busting loose with happiness
I silently have to confess
Slowly I am learning
Why I have a special burning
In my heart like a strong fire
I have never felt desire
Like this before its so sweet
When my lonely hearts complete
Joining yours taking away
The suffering I've felt every day
Into a hot and sexy tango
My passions starting to grow
With a never ending dance
Its a pure and new romance
That I can not stop or hault
I am putting all the fault
On your charming ways so dashing
Cute smiles and eyes are flashing
With sparkles lit up so bright
Taking me to new love heights
UNSUPPORTED CODE
Is life really a race?
Do i have to keep up to its pace.
My heart hurts while it says,
How horrible is this phase.
Sometimes I aspire to be an engineer,
But the performance results asks the dream to disappear.
Sometimes with my voice , i want to be a singer
Who can carry the world on her finger.
Sometimes the heart says,"You can be a great writer".
Then the heart says,"will your future be brighter?".
Sometimes i want to be an actor
But mom and dad's permission is such a prime factor.
Now the heart says," Be an IAS".
Ah! Who will tell it that its full of stress.
Sometimes it says,"business can be a good start".
But i ponder that its not just your price charts.
these questions never give me an answer.
That are just my knowledge enhancer.
I do not have one aim
Is this thing that is to be put to shame?
Its not completely my fault.
But its just that my desires never come to a hault.
UNSUPPORTED CODE
They tried so hard to tarnish you, casting
Every fault. One by one they teased with
Words, not coming to a hault.
I laughed and lolled at all their talk and
Yawned at their reprise. I sat and
Listened to their guff, as each thought
She was wise.
I gazed over at their husbands, and grew
The biggest smile, I simply could not help
Myself, for they looked like a horse's pile!
Suddenly they were silent and staring at
The floor, my darling took me by the hand
And led me to the door.
I wish you could see
The weight you put on me
I cry myself to sleep each night
I cringe, I shake, I close my eyes so tight
Slowly my heart breaks, there's no way to stop
I feel like you see me as a broken down prop
I no longer know what to do to stay sane
No matter what I do, bad thoughts still remain
Tears are streaming down my cheeks
They leave nothing but shameful streaks
People tell me to turn my back on what I feel
But I don't know what to believe, I don't know what's real
Pills, needles, cuts, and scrapes
Numbing the pain comes in many shapes
Why do I attract people that don't really care
Maybe I need a sign to tell people to beware
Am I so blind I cannot see
How your actions are slowly killing me
I hate myself for falling for people like you
You have no idea what you put me through
You will no longer be the one I call, the one I will trust
My faith in you has been forever crushed
No more will you make me feel at fault
I'm bringing this relationship to a hault
So goodbye and to you I bid farewell
No longer will you put me through this hell
arts incision bleeding deep
hearts weeping through faucet sinks
down drains swirling on sewers blink
streams conquering rivers burning seas
all of which are bound beyond the depths
of
me
lines fill filled with salt
grinding me before a hault
here it is we learn bled
thoughts
of
head
our final decision
arts incision
?
now that car accident you hear in the background is my life
coming to a crashing hault.
I told myself,"time to grow up kid".
you see we all take a turn in this human buffet of life and death,oh and that gray area called"In between".
I'm not going to lie I was a man of leisure
travel
money
women
gambling
sleep all day and partied all night
I loved my life
then it all changed.....I took it all personal even played the victim card to myself,now I had to deal with reality,the raw brutal truth that a human being and there life depended on me.
I went by many names but the name they call me now is CAREGIVER.
It's hard to read between the lines.
When love entangles, intertwines.
You think that it is your own heart.
But you've been cast to play your part.
Confusion reigns and floods your soul.
Through out the years, it takes it's toll.
You think that love just never dies.
But then you find you're believing lies.
The sun has set so long ago.
And changed the dream you've come to know.
The hope is gone, the love has faded.
It's not a wonder that I am jaded.
You've walked alone for so long now.
Alone, alone, asking how.
Praying for a hand to hold.
Someone to love now that you're old.
You thought she said that it's your fault.
But she just wanted it to hault.
Someone else came into view.
To make her just give up on you.
Too much has passed in one lifetime.
The spell's been cast in words of rhyme.
Someday has come and I am grieving.
For the love and lies, I've been believing.
Presentations misunderstandings brings relations to a hault,
When we assume the exterior of the heart to a fault,
Would I choose to be distant after a few simple statements?,
And not give time the chance to show explanation?,
The surface cannot show me all I need to know,
Should I forfeit the chance that may change me to grow?,
Oh, how many times in silence must I shake my head?,
Knowing there is so much more to this than what's been said,
Watching, heart aching, knowing there's more,
Withstanding ignorance to open the door,
Your love pulls me in, I can't see the mistakes,
Even when I'm surrounded by them up In my face,
Don't make assumptions, please don't assume,
That you can tell everything about a person from your outside view,
But care enough to look inside,
Allowing God's love to train your eyes.
Don't think more, just see with ur eyes
Can't hold onto the fantasies of life
Have to make my reality my own comfort
Ain't no woman different from the others
The heart would distinguish your worries and concerns
Love ain't a word that spreads all the time
Would I be a better man with the lies within me?
For a moment thoughts run within my mind
Holding onto a relationship that lost its flames
Can't bring peace yet am back-biting my enemy
Am limited to my body, that doesn't hold me
Come and taste my patience if you in a hurry
Clouds on top of my head
Feeling the drops of rain within me
For a moment I thought of you
Don't know if you feel the same?
Its a shame that we believing the myths around
Dear Grandma bless me with your words
Sometimes I wish the world would drop and hault
Look at the fault lines within the society
When will all these things come to an end
For a moment, I resort to prayer and guidance
Life Is Like A Maypole
As elegantly as it weaves
Over and under, curtsie if you please
Life is like a Maypole
It sometimes brings you to your knees
As the tine recantar
Emotions as the breeze
In life you've got to remember
Our lives stand true and tall
There is only one direction
And then destiny lends its call
Fate whispers as she collects all of her fees
Bending slightly over as the men have the ball
Then you have to remember
The flavor of their malt
Screams of absurd laughter
The game begins to hault
The error is their fault
We forgot to put the roof on
And now the error is called
7th
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