Best Seperation Poems
She sits alone in quiet of the night
as thoughts of him wrap ‘round her yearning heart,
and whispers ‘cross her skin; her flesh excites
while longing for his touch when they’re apart.
She yearns to gaze into his eyes of blue
while feeling his caress engulf her soul,
and have their hearts eclipse as love renews;
she longs for his return to make her whole.
She reaches for her parchment and her quill
to iterate her feelings and her doubts;
for him to know her longing thoughts instill,
and from this poet's pen, a poem pours out,
“My lonely spirit aches while you’re away,
and longs to feel your love as hearts replay.”
August 30, 2018
You called my name, blossomed pink through a screen
Red face, heart race, bewitched I fell sick in bed
A rusting rose emerged from my slivered soul
Before I slept, I remembered the first time I wished we met
The laugh, that made my days glitch
I'm here again, wondering what happened there
There were times, I yearned to see you again.
Started out as Best Friends, you couldn't keep us apart.
Our love for each other was strong, nothing could tear us apart.
Then we got married and had our baby girl,
We were Happy in life and love, and felt on top of the world.
We felt invisible, we were on a good track, both had good jobs, nice cars and financially, we were in check.
Then I got sick, and soon you would follow, our vows put to test, tension and strain unfortunately followed.
We started to resent each other, angry all the Tim, and fight continuously, communication was no longer, our relationship was breaking, our family tree crumbling.
We began drifting apart, strangers we would become, we know longer even liked each other, or the people we had become.
We both now have a person, we confide in and trust, no longer is this person you nor I, we can't communicate with each other and have both lost faith and trust.
Our relationship is getting crowded, barely room for you and I, for both of us to have a third person, new best friend, confident in our lives.
Slowly we began separating our lives as a couple, and had some hard talks and understandings that we could continue a married couple.
The only thing that is left between us, is our Joelsie, the apple of our eye, our family tree.
I hate that she has witnessed the destruction of our lives, and seen the separation from Husband and Wife.
Now its time for the next step, its time for us to move apart, we must do this for each other and our daughter before we farther tear each other apart.
Its sad and scary, for all three of us, but I'm hopeful in the long run, its what we needed to happen for you and I and what we in the end deserved.
This may be the only thing left we can do to save this family, to save whats left of our friendship and respect, and to both walk away snd keep our dignity.
I hope we can coparent and keep things out of the court, work together as a team again, and together brave this storm.
If our child can see us getting along as friends and some kind of a new family, coparenting, not fighting, and using hurtful words between us, what a life and a example that would be.
Heart Song Separation
“We got separated from us last week and I haven’t found you since.” Poet’s Quote
Too long my heart we beat in arrhythmic clashes
Languishing in sudden cardiac heart arrest
Out of sync creating dark vascular ashes
No phoenix rises from heart disease - never rests.
Too long my song we argue over melodies
Distracted by atonal hallucinations
Dismissing cradle songs of haunting rhapsodies
Elusive harmonies hide in cache creations.
Too long my words we engage in rhythmic stand offs
Glaring at my silent muse - tense verbal showdowns
Impasse of wills – procrastination’s folly doff
Disguised in masks adjectives appear as pronouns.
My aimless soul seeks union with lost heart song words
Remembering your quiet smiles of peace fullness
Your velvet vesper serene these mourning tears blur
As twilight yearns in midnight’s hypnotic stillness.
Too long my heart we beat in arrhythmic clashes
Too long my song we argue over melodies
Too long my words we engage in rhythmic stand offs
My aimless soul seeks union with lost heart song words.
12-11-20
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How could I have known,
How could I have seen?
I listened, but I didn't hear,
We dreamt of different dreams.
And now it seems the end is near,
And all we feel is pain.
The mask of strength has disappeared,
Empty, we remain.
Time will pass, and time will clear,
If you and I were meant to be.
No room for love when hearts have fear,
No room for dreams when you're not free.
Days will come of clear feelings,
Days of growth and understanding.
Days of sun sound so appealing,
For now, my heart for you is standing.
I came here to co-create
Yet what I did was judge and hate
I labeled things as good and bad
Some made me happy others made me sad
This is where the separation began
Never realizing it was at my own hand
At one point I decided I was here all alone
For God’s love and grace in this world were unknown
Suddenly I fell my knees hit the floor
I yelled GOD please come and take me I can’t do this anymore
A Healing took place through God’s Love and Grace
Revealing to me a world to embrace
I asked,” Lord how can this be, that I could not see
Everything here beholds God’s Beauty?”
His world you see, is a mystery
You cannot find it without being set free
Now I begin with forgiveness within
Trying not to separate through judgment again
Whatever bind that bounds us has been broken
For all the time I knew I never thought I'd be forsaken.
Yet after all and everything you are forgiven
Even though all the love we had has been taken.
Oh dear darling although you won't be forgotten.
Because in all of them you are the only begotten.
Situations come and go and leave the token.
And I was low not knowing that you will be taken
In my sleep I was too relaxed but got woken.
Because whatever bind that bounds us has been broken.
What bound us together has been broken
I am now left alone but I will never be shaken.
I believe the sun will shine,I will be enlighten.
And soon mercy will rewrite my life and I will be written.
Apart from all that we shared we are still mistaken.
In our game of love I never knew that once I will be beaten.
In challenges we face I thought we will always be outspoken.
But now that our good days are badly striken.
Time is no longer with us for things to be smoothen.
Whatever bind that bound us has been broken.
The bound between us has been broken
Dearly I will miss everything yet I am sicken.
In all we shared, crucial is time ticken.
I am sad though I admit that apart we are indeed broken.
Even if we cry loud our eyes will only get swollen.
In all this mess I can name the state as frighten.
Now it seem to be over and cannot be hidden.
My heart is dying I guess I'm left to get rotten.
My soul is sinking down the sea that is forbidden.
Whatever bind that bound us has been broken.
Oh guy we turned to be a message without haven.
You now look weird because you are left unshaven.
Whatever we shared turned bitter and we are bitten.
So sour that we forget that it was all sweeten.
I bury my pain and together we are partaken.
All that bound us together has been broken.
It must have been something
He was thinking of doing for a while
It happened suddenly but he’d thought it over
I could tell there were words left unspoken
That would reveal truths to me
When the hearts were broken
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But truly, now that I am saying it
Did he feel at all the way I felt?
Was it in him to give of himself?
When I loved him did he love me back?
There are so many questions
Left unanswered, and straggling
Around my mind with question marks
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My mind seems to be thinking up
All the possibilities of a lie that lives
Forever compromising and chilling
Spinning words from the fake tales
That have been told to avoid revealing
Secrets of dark and dreadful beatings
Inside a heart that is truly cheating
On love, on hope, on faith, on God
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It could have been my own fault
And in a way it was – I let it go on
For so long, too long to truly be sure
If it was my own selfishness, a hope
That I wouldn’t end up alone again
Without someone to eat dinner with
Someone to talk to on the phone
And ask questions that would be
Answered with affectionate lies
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I don’t know what to do yet I guess
The newness of his disappearance is fresh
Like a new rose opening up to the sunlight
All its petals are trying to reawaken
The soft center that has been waiting
Waiting forever it seems – for the light
To force it from a bud into a beautiful flower
As I stand a top this bluff
I stare down at the path
That got me here.
At moments it was
Bleak and narrow
And I thought I’d never see the end.
Never say never,
They say.
Because my life came
Full circle.
I had to lose everything,
To feel like I belonged
To something.
I found out
Who I wasn’t.
I longed for home.
That feeling of security
Is something
I missed so dearly.
Words are hard to find
To describe
The woes of that life.
Mistakes litter my path,
I overcame feelings of guilt
That I thought would most definitely kill me.
I had to accept myself for who I was,
Not who I wanted myself to be.
I had to really get lost
To be found.
I achieved self discovery
Through the trenches of addiction,
Life taught me some lessons
Through all of the tension.
Forgive me for my hesitation,
I was battling myself
And my afflictions.
I was too stuck in depression
To see the wrongfulness of
My convictions.
The truth is,
The heartbreaks in between then and now,
Were stepping stones
That lead right back the the steps of my once house.
I had to learn who I was not,
What life wasn’t meant to be
To really see the destiny that
Had always
Awaited me.
It was sitting,
Idly,
Waiting for me.
They could have carried me,
I wish I would have listened then,
But my ears were full of cotton
And I was hell bound.
There was no stopping the demon
From running to hands that fed my addiction,
They may as well have left me for dead.
There were no hand ups from that hell,
Because in the end
They all left me
Bettered,
Bruised
And withdrawling.
It was me who chose to stand myself
Back up
And keep fighting
The good fight.
In the end,
It was my family who welcomed me back.
It was like walking through heavens
Pearly gates
When I first stepped foot
Back home.
It washed over me
Like holy water
I received it,
Lovingly.
Words can’t describe
How warm and safe I felt.
Through all of the bad days,
The good,
And those in between,
I finally found myself again.
Now when I look in the mirror
I see her,
I feel like her,
She is me
Once more
I’m finally free.
You ran away from me
Neglecting the past, present and future
Like a bird migrating- you flew
I lost sight of you
Drifting away, red balloon
Lost in the abyss of the blue
My heart ripped in two at the time
I remanence and feel the pain,
That dull dagger drilling into my esophagus
I recall the questions
Wanting answers I wasn’t ready for
Why would you leave yourself-
Fallen identity- what is an identity?
My soul once mirrored yours like a puzzle piece
And now-
I don’t even remember –
Your features- your smile-
It’s all an empty VHR recording
Like someone wiped my brain clean-
What good is memory when it can be erased
Now I know I have become one person
A whole, who no longer looks for reflection
Who no longer tries to see myself in you-
Or anyone else for that matter
My dear twin flame,
I lost myself with you but now I’ve found her and I can’t see you anymore
full of potential
like a timely three act play
the quintessential
long ago and far away
they would find no brighter day
locked close together
as if time could not move them
not knowing whether
they'd handle what was to come
their moorings became undone
hints of rejection
hiding in common place words
like introspection
repeating that's for the birds
little chance for afterwards
no use debating
their future left on that plane
evaporating
like new fallen summer rain
what once was won't be again
Mustang Rain D minor
© London F. BuSS
I'm sitting here in silence, going quietly insane.
You're there alone, dancing in the pouring rain.
Dessert darkness lit by a glow, Storm flashes stab the distance
I'm thinking of your mustang hair dripping with rain!
But I sit here alone…. going quietly insane.
My dreaming: I was next to you: wishing the same!
The storm in your hair... we were together
slow dancing in the rain.
Rolling thunder is lost in your voice.
The sound of rain, that eases our pain.
Rivers of rain through your mustang hair,
Mustang wind blowing through your mane.
But I sit here quietly just going insane.
A flash in the distance,
But does it mean rain?
The winds blow the storm around in circles
Bald eagle rides the wind.
Thunder shakes through the ground
and rolls through the distant, distant tails of rain.
Smell of rain flashes through the clouds.
And makes love to the darkness: time and time again.
Putting loneliness to sleep, accepting the pain.
Memories:
I smell of the storm in your mustang hair,
Dancing alone in the Mustang rain.
But I sit here quietly, just going insane.
But I sit here alone, just going insane.
It would have been cool
To sit up wit ya
Conversation of worked imagination
Have you wishing I can kiss ya
Retire the night
With you and me falling asleep
To make your dreams nice
Sorry to say
It won't work that way
Things are too wrong to be al right
Can't ever be ok
Too many lies
Truth stretched so far that will eventually leave your heart broken
By trying to hold on and not shatter an innocent soul stolen
and spinned outta control
By charismatic dramatics
Street sweet talk with precision
Slow, low, with flow
that made you want to listen
As your mind is driven into submission
Have you obsessed with the intellect
Impressed with the biggest
Charmed by the little things
Treasure the moments you've shared with me
Take you out of reality
Leave you twisted in daydreams of what the future may bring
A mind is a terrible thing to waste
An unwanted heart one should never take
I've learned but I've found out too late
As I discover that a real lover will always be hurt no matter
How long..............................
I search for a Sweet
Easy
Seperation
What seperates the old you from the new?
Is it reaching a new level in life?
Thinking what you want may not be so right?
Is it going from poor to rich?
Or when the roles are switched?
How do you know when you've changed habits?
Because some don't even know they have it.
To some, the seperation is bad for the heart,
To me, it's the beginning of a new start.
SS
O Jodhpur sky, vast and wide,
You sparkled late in starry light.
Your silence so deep,
Made my longing heart yield with ease.
Pink and purple in the vesper,
Yellow-orange at dusk, so tender.
You guide and embrace my texture,
My soul wrapped tight in your rapture.
I declare my love to you,
My lips await your touch so true!
My hands & height - so small, so slight,
Will you accept my love, my light?
You stayed with me forever,
You rained when I cried,
You turned dry when I ached,
Is it pity or your love infinite?
I fear to leave - will you miss me?
Or will I lose you and Jodhpur's key?
Will you hide and forget me so fast,
Without a tear, as I fade to the past.