my head touches the pillow
as gentle rain lulls me
and i just want to s
i
n
k
into the sheets,
fold into myself,
….be forgotten,
immerse myself with the raindrops
and blend in—
washed out,
washed away,
be a mere globule
in those floodwaters
and once it recedes,
let me be
--bleached
by
sunlight
scrub a w a y
my darkness,
let that vast spectrum of light
assault it
let those rays
shine
No.
make that, glare--
into my outer and inner beings,
highlighting each of my flaws—
(--can’t you see?—
--tell me,
is it not amidst sunlight
that you see
all those dust particles
floating about?
air may seem invisible,
but it's not invincible
think. Again.
--those countless, innumerable
nano flaws)
let those rays
burn through me,
forcing melanocytes
to aggregate
into multiple nevi
--flaws manifested—
then after the Sun
has done its part,
allow pieces of me
to evaporate,
to condense,
to sublimate,,,,
I ramble, on
and on ...,and on
droning, groaning
like the hardened ground,
as, it’s, pierced, by, rain daggers,
(but unlike it,
the petrichor
that I release
fails
to
invigorate me
--the reason
behind this
escapes me)
Drench,,,,, everything!!!!!!!
!!!!! unleash,,,,, ravage !!!!!
then
devastate!!!!!
simply:
R e l. e a s e
all that chaos
within
then after all that,
revel in the silence
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,
and so
I simply lie
down
on my pondering senti.mental stool-
the overthinker, the wandering fool
Cut through me, Rain,
--be my salve
Burn deep inside me, Sunlight,
--then heal my tatteredness
--------rain and sunlight: lingering thoughts of a loopy, sighing, mind-----