Ulan At Sinag Ng Araw: Pagmumuni Ng Isang Tulirong Isip

my head touches the pillow as gentle rain lulls me and i just want to s i n k into the sheets, fold into myself, ….be forgotten, immerse myself with the raindrops and blend in— washed out, washed away, be a mere globule in those floodwaters and once it recedes, let me be --bleached by sunlight scrub a w a y my darkness, let that vast spectrum of light assault it let those rays shine No. make that, glare-- into my outer and inner beings, highlighting each of my flaws— (--can’t you see?— --tell me, is it not amidst sunlight that you see all those dust particles floating about? air may seem invisible, but it's not invincible think. Again. --those countless, innumerable nano flaws) let those rays burn through me, forcing melanocytes to aggregate into multiple nevi --flaws manifested— then after the Sun has done its part, allow pieces of me to evaporate, to condense, to sublimate,,,, I ramble, on and on ...,and on droning, groaning like the hardened ground, as, it’s, pierced, by, rain daggers, (but unlike it, the petrichor that I release fails to invigorate me --the reason behind this escapes me) Drench,,,,, everything!!!!!!! !!!!! unleash,,,,, ravage !!!!! then devastate!!!!! simply: R e l. e a s e all that chaos within then after all that, revel in the silence ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ,,,,,,,,,,,,,,, ,,,,,,,, ,,,, ,, , and so I simply lie down on my pondering senti.mental stool- the overthinker, the wandering fool Cut through me, Rain, --be my salve Burn deep inside me, Sunlight, --then heal my tatteredness --------rain and sunlight: lingering thoughts of a loopy, sighing, mind-----