I have known joy
amidst thick fallen snow
and slippery streets
and voices merciless
some like addiction's lure.
I have known joy
of strangers giving bouquets
cloak giving warmth
spoon with bowl beyond broth
both thirst and hunger quenched.
I have known joy
she spied and saw me sleep
a brown teddy bear upon my chest
I up and ate, she heard me weep
I was a butterfly in the mountains.
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Trailing clouds of glory do we come
Until by the end we are left dull and glum.
How it all came to this
We are responsible
For being so remiss
The magic of our early moments
Emblazoned in our minds
Fades and disperses with every pressure
Our world brings to bear upon our pleasure
Exams, bills, targets, workday worries
blunt our perceptions
And drive them undergound
Occasionally to spark alive in a dream state
Eluding our grasp
once we come to our senses
Wide awake and once more blind
How to recapture
And to resurrect
That rich inner spirit
Which came with our birth
That should be our aim
Too many earthly concerns
Within our clay
Must take the blame
For that loss of courage
To break free from the constricting frame
Forcing us
To forget the beauties of the day
To play the stultifying economic game
The stifling straitjacket of life
Keeps us playing
If I were your love and you, mine,
I would ask Earth to steady your way
and provide smooth race to the last line
with a paved path so you won’t stray.
If I were your love and you, mine,
I would ask Wind to sing a song
of love and ardor so sweet and fine,
you would agree that we belong.
If I were your love and you, mine,
I would ask Fire to spur you on
encouraging your passions to align,
and lay your fervor to bear upon.
If I were your love and you, mine,
I would ask Water to cool your brow
with soothing sounds In rhythmic time
and troublesome worries to disallow.
If I were your love and you, mine,
I could dream a life of grandeur sublime.
She was selfish, bad mouthed, fighting with him endlessly
He tolerated it patiently after all she was his wife, his duty
She insisted on a kid, he thought maybe that will change her
His child was cute looked just like him, he was overjoyed
She had gone to her mother's place for delivery, refused to came back
He kept calling her, asking forgiveness for things not done
Letter after letter pleading again and again
He missed his son, he couldn't leave him with someone as bad as her
He spent many sleepless nights thinking of his wife and son
She finally agreed but laid some atrocious conditions
Standing in front of a sea he reflected on them
He thought even if he agreed they wouldn't live amicably
It will bear upon his own son
He made a paper boat
Wrote her name on a piece of paper
kept it on the boat
Placed the boat on water and watched it float
She was gone from his life forever
After divorce one day he went to see his son
When his own son called him uncle he was heartbroken
Date: 1/7/2021
As affection of summer’s glow expires
Winds bear upon us announcing autumn chill
I wonder the memories laid upon me still
Before each thought of golden sun retires
A breezy lush of fertile bloom still lingers
As aqua mornings greet me with a sigh
With hummingbirds inviting me to fly
And butterflies to dance upon my fingers
I long to hear the song of carefree chatter
On never ending sandy shores of pink
Continue through the harvest with a wink
As hopes of giddy reverie do flatter
I count the waves while salty air caresses
The sea to chant a lullaby in blue
To soothe the fears of autumn’s rendezvous
My heart, while still in summer’s glow, confesses
"In Touch With Myself"
I can't seem to find her
The reminder of yesterday
I shut my eyes for a few seconds
Only there, can I reach to bear upon her face
The moment I open my eyes
The earth opens and she disappears
Every now and then
Darkness takes form around the blank wall
It brings out a long lost silhouette.
-I inhale a small desire,
reaching and tracing every line left behind.
I Just can't seem to reach her
The girl drowning deep inside
I turn around to look and feel no one by my side
It's been long since she slowly faded away
I gaze into the mirror and miss her every day
For one second past,
I swear she was there.
Lately, I can't seem to find her
That girl I was before
Empty feelings continue to lounge about
Rejecting yesterday away.
-Honestly, I don't know why I bother,
holding on to somebody that is no longer there?
By:PD
Sweet love, if death’s black net my mind shall cover
And drape with doubly twining nets my heart,
Be not the one to weep and cry, dear lover
For never shall I from your essence, part.
When you shall to your chambered bed, retire,
I shall bear my embalming pinions
Above your crest, so that when you shall tire,
You’ll safely roam in dream’s dominions.
When you shall wake before the morning’s charms,
And bear upon your brain, renewéd thought,
I shall enwrap you with my tender arms,
Although you’ll feel them as the air and not
As mortal flesh, but some unearthly ether,
For, love, in life and death we’ll stay together.
© 2014 Gleb Zavlanov
What I find in silence
What I wish to hide
All things inside me
I bear upon my side
Weight upon my chest
To smell the morning air
God, you give us breath
Be my taste of air
If all I have is broken
Nothing left remains
Pride left within me
Taken in the rain
To face another day
Alone in my heart
Echoed doubts control
Emptiness apart
Carried down a face
This river, all I hope
One day ocean sea
Survival rests on hope
Open heart attracts love
You find a broken soul
In the pain of sorrow
Fill an empty hole
Death before extinction
My heart will not go out
Attack me all you may
I will not burn out
Some secrets are too much to bear
a skeleton that your closet just can't keep
if it gets revealed
it would destroy your present relationship
destroying the only place you call home
A burden so great that you're unable to look your lover in the eyes
a commitment you've made the promise to remain faithful
that promise has been broken
that act of unfaithfulness is staring you in the face
haunting your mind
The load is too great to bear upon your soul
Would it be better not to let them know?
Or would it be right to hold the secret inside?
lying to your lover secretly eating you up inside
Would you want the act of unfaithfulness to remain a secret?
The added wisdom with the scornful use,
Will add more to the human miseries.
A century of conflicts, contending confusions,
Blurring the minds, hearts, and vision,
The Dormant Righteousness will be tormented,
To the utmost extent, the sleeping conscience,
Will awaken to give the Universal Call,
To wash contagious, cancerous effects,
Of faithlessness and too selfishness,
Uniting the indignant broken hearts.
An era of violation and use of force,
When spacey cobras will vomit fire,
Resulting wide disastrous devastation,
Erasing the falsified civilizations,
The Gigantic Guards will receive,
The grievous injuries in both the eyes,
Upon the skull, on hard brainy spots,
Making them blind, desperate mad,
In Panic trouble they will pant,
Ravaging around, with thundering roar.
They will bear upon this fatal fate,
For poking noses in the world everywhere,
It is the time to patch spots worn out,
With the thread of tolerance, and sacrifice.