Writing and Attention - Autumn Ehrhardt's Blog

About Autumn Ehrhardt
(Show Details...)
Bloggers Photo

Writing and Attention

Blog Posted:8/4/2011 4:06:00 PM
Often I find myself in a mini twister-- looking back and forth to see who is paying attention to my writing. It is a little weird. But art has this underlying ego embedded within.  Tell me what I ache to hear. That I am doing something worthwhile. According to Charlotte Kasl this is a false view that just cycles around hopelessly. The true motivation to be worthwhile is to prove that we are not worthless. The insatiable web that spins and spins. 

Once the first silken thread is spun of a worthwhile endeavor to write--a queasiness pervades. The upset to label our work as "good". A validation must be had, and in today's instant post, it should be had--immediately. Once again the need for attention grabs at my soul. Notice how these words mix I beg. It is the begging that feels awkward. It is an attachment to a validation that I should not need. A worthless quality evades. See how ridiculous it all becomes. Alas.

The irony is I will stare right back at this computer screen to see if you did pay attention to this inane blog on attention. I hold back from entering contests or even posting new works. Sometimes I don't even know why I write? Many of our mentors had to work so much harder to even have someone read his or her work. Am I worthy? Again I take a deep breathe and see the sticky web I have rolled myself up in. There is another depth of motivation to write that is not an ego fishing trip. And I set out to find it.
Please Login to post a comment
Date: 8/9/2011 8:45:00 PM
Writing expresses our humanity and our innermost desire to connect with others...it is the God spark inside all of us. It is a way to relieve stress, to think out loud, to argue with one's self, to educate others, and in the case of Poetry Soup, to find friendship with others who love pouring the left side of their brain onto paper. Your blog is refreshing, Autumn. Gwendolen
Login to Reply
Date: 8/5/2011 2:43:00 PM
Cool blog, Autumn. I really enjoyed the part when you mention how many of our mentors had to struggle just to have someone read his/her work....and now in this day and age, we just submit and click to gain some viewership.
Login to Reply
Date: 8/5/2011 1:08:00 PM
Human nature and its wants and needs. I'll put a spin on an old adage...better to have written and not been read, than to have never written at all... Sometimes we need to write just for ourselves. The glory winnings of the member contests is what keeps me going...and writing... We all need an ego boost now and then, especially when it is well deserved. I'm with your daughter, you are "kewl"! And, my daughter's middle name is Love, and I am a preschool teacher. My name is pronounced shay-nee. It was nice meeting you; hope to connect more with you. Take care and just continue to be you...
Login to Reply
Date: 8/5/2011 12:43:00 PM
I really enjoyed reading this, Autumn, I sure can relate to what you say here (and you write it so eloquently, Frank was so right, you are a gem)-- We all do have varied reasons on why we write, it definitely is a constant journey and yes, validation for our poetry definitely also comes into play, too-- Sometimes I guess we write for ourselves (I mean only to be seen by ourselves), and sometimes there is that compulsion to share it--just to be heard, to be accepted... very thought provoking blog-- thank you for sharing your thoughts-- btw I said there I love your name Autumn, then I see your name is Autumn Love-- so cool...:D
Login to Reply
Date: 8/5/2011 8:12:00 AM
It take courage to write and present it to the world, but if we don't - what value or purpose does it have? Lainie
Login to Reply
Date: 8/5/2011 3:37:00 AM
i feel this came at the right time for me, autumn... somehow, don't we all feel if a poem was rushed, made from a space of vanity, etc... yes, we do need an audience and in that vein, may we share who we are in a most authentic way--all sides of us taken! nice blog:) hugggs!
Login to Reply
Date: 8/4/2011 8:44:00 PM
I paid attention.. i hope you do some poems, 'cause i bet i'd like them... but I wouldn't like it if you got mad at me for not always paying attention to you
Login to Reply
Date: 8/4/2011 7:23:00 PM
I like my stuff read and hopefully some of it will touch another. One of my favorite songs is Jolson's "Let Me Sing and I'm Happy." I feel that way about what I write. If I can make someone smile, laugh, cry or for that matter think, then I'm happy. Your blog is far from inane and it deals with the emotions of artists who, like athletes, vary from ego to ego. Vince
Login to Reply
Date: 8/4/2011 7:17:00 PM
Autumn, unfortunately there are egos in every field of art, including poetry. If one writes for validation, they may receive it. But if one writes from their heart, then we as readers are blessed to share it. Don't stop writing; the web will soon fade into the background as you focus on work that makes you feel like you've communicated a special message. Some of the poems that mean the most to us may receive few views, but we know they're our personal favorites and that's what matters. Best wishes, carolyn
Login to Reply
Date: 8/4/2011 7:14:00 PM
The last comment was my beautiful daughter. Ah motherhood.
Login to Reply
Date: 8/4/2011 7:05:00 PM
I'M SO KEWL!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Login to Reply

My Past Blog Posts

I threw way my notebook to start again
Date Posted: 7/20/2012 3:36:00 PM
Writing and Attention
Date Posted: 8/4/2011 4:06:00 PM
Writing raw and unadorned
Date Posted: 7/28/2011 3:11:00 PM

My Recent Poems

Date PostedPoemTitleFormCategories
6/19/2013 Hope's Communion Free versesummer,
3/9/2013 Hemminway Free versestar,
4/2/2012 Purple is not an eye color 49 Free verseholiday,inspirational,
4/2/2012 Couldn't 48 Free versedevotion,fantasy,sad,
4/2/2012 I am too old 47 Free verseepic,fear,passion,urban,
4/2/2012 Stupid 46 Free versecomputer-internet,dedicat
4/2/2012 Long day 45 Free verseconfusion,cowboy-western,
4/2/2012 Snow day and the dive bar Free verseadventure,
1/22/2012 Out the Door Cold, Daily 43 Free versefear,
1/22/2012 Trauma Carousal, Daily 42 Rhymechildhood,fear,
1/22/2012 Sleep Racing, Daily 41 Rhymeintrospection,girl,girl,
12/27/2011 Heart Rust Free versefear,
9/27/2011 Daily 36 Alone in bed Free versesad,work,work,
9/5/2011 Daily 39, Bring Back the Old Effort Rhymehistory,
8/14/2011 Twin Twisters, Daily 38 Rhymeconfusion,fantasy,
8/2/2011 Choice Dealer, Daily 2 Free verseloss,
7/11/2011 Mallory Verseartautumn,
7/9/2011 Everyday Song, Daily 37 Coupletlife,music
7/7/2011 Steven Versehusband,lovelove,
6/27/2011 Whisper, Daily 35 Free verselost love
6/23/2011 Soul Cover, Daily 34 Rhymeconfusion
6/21/2011 Dream Glimpses, Daily 33 Free verseconfusion,death,fantasy,i
6/16/2011 Ode to a Fortunetelling, Daily 32 Odeadventure,death,life,myst
6/9/2011 Smooth Rock Listener, Daily 20 Free verseintrospection,nature
6/9/2011 Not Needing a Meeting, Daily 31 Narrativefunny,worktime,
6/8/2011 Twenty Years, Daily 30 Rhymelove,nostalgia,
6/6/2011 Ruined Slumber, Daily 29 Rhymeangst
6/4/2011 The Shop, Daily 28 Rhymedevotion,philosophy,relig
6/2/2011 Early May Morning, Daily 27 Rhymelove,mystery,nature,peace
6/1/2011 Hunger's Dance Daily 11 Free verseangst
6/1/2011 The Little Daily 25 Free verseintrospection
5/29/2011 Bad Dream, Daily 1 Rhymeintrospection
2/2/2011 Crystal and Dust, Daily 24 Free verseimagination
1/17/2011 Human Vessel, Daily 14 Free verseallegory,history,philosop
1/17/2011 Death of an Aquaintance, Daily 19 Rhymedeath
8/4/2010 I Can't Catch You Rhymelife
8/2/2010 Speak To Me With Light Free verseinspirational,introspecti
7/30/2010 Prose is my devil. Verseangstlove,

My Photos

Fav Poems

Forgotten Heroes of the Somme Rhymebrother,death,history,lif
Let Me Take You Rhymelove,natureme,rain,me,rai

Fav Poets

M.I.A . Indonesia Flag Indonesia Read