As the messages quietly sync, I feel the deepening absence of replies,
An abyss slowly swallowing the denial from a heart weary of waiting and longing,
My greatest fear, the unknown truth, now takes shape in the light of day,
Coming to claim its rights, a bitter fruit of uncertainty that can no longer be avoided.
I have always been ready to fight for every dream, to venture with an open and courageous soul,
But truths like these leave no room for lies, only a heavy and crushing silence,
A truth that penetrates deeply, dispelling illusions carefully woven with hope,
I can no longer dance around dreams as if they held fragments of light for me,
When everything falls apart, leaving only the shadows of a once-held hope, stirring memories,
I remain alone in the chamber of my consciousness, an endless flow of thoughts and emotions rolling,
Seeking balance between lost illusions and harsh truths, a dance of the soul in melancholy,
In a world where beginnings are born from the ruins of dreams, an endless search for light.
reality hitting me like hot grease at six years old
my curiosity screams out in pain
i want to know more about you
i want to know why you left your now ex husband
i want to know your likes and dislikes
i want to know your passions and your pet peeves
i want to know what you feel like as a whole
i want to what you taste like from head to tow and from front to back
i want to know everything that is in your heart as well as your mind
i want to know your definition of Love and Respect
i want to learn how to earn and ultimately win Your Love
reality hitting me like a broken guitar string to the eye
my losing record with you sighs heavily
instead of being stupid and doing and saying something very unwise,
i choose to smile, Praise God, and remain your friend
*****
Being ignored, drives me toally bonkers.
Like being on a lonely street, at midnight in Yonkers
When a poet here, I take time to heartilty cheer,
No reply, feels just like a hard kick in the derrière!
6/25/2021
***Many here can relate to this! Also, sometimes replies disappear more than once in the same day....please notify me and I will redo them. Pangie xx
Smart Replies
Why did the desperate fish
jump out of the pond quick?
Because the finned fellow
was getting hydrophobic,
And what is the difference
between a plate and a dish?
A dish has such great legs
and other things we wish
Why do some big big bulls
charge with such great glee?
They do not really believe in:
“Buy one and get one free!”
Sometimes, your questions have no
meaning
when taken to a point where
east is your east and
west is your west.
If this be so,
I wonder why you need my
replies--
you already memorized them
in your head.
Jack might be a wee bit scarce till next month
There's millions of things to think about all at once
We're moving and so
My replies may be slow
I'm sure you will hear my groans and my grunts
© Jack Ellison 2015
Current mood:
ashamed
You've broken my
borderline
I’d rewind but the
outcome is final
Pay my decaying fine
you've scratched me
like spinning vinyl.
And I simply reply
“I forgive you“
You've pushed me to
my past
So now I
procrastinate
openness
Because your
selfishness is
ruthless
And I simply don't
reply I take it.
You faked it I made
it
You’ve demolished
this
What the hell is
this?
Why not interrogate
You’re integrated in
my head
So I simply replied
and said
“I won't give up”
Believe in you?
Believing in what?
Change?
Or Challenge? I
don't know about
salvaging
I thought I had you
hook with love
talons
But no love talents
were shared
I’d start seeing me
seeing through you
to stuff
I chose and choose
not to believe
And I simply
reply... “I love
you”
So now he is not
only hurting me, I’m
hurting myself
I know these things
but I let them
continue
I knew these things
and I let him
continue
And I simply reply
I’m used to it.
I love you dammit, L
O V E
I thought I never
would I never wanted
to
Because of this fix
this!! Fix me
This love is hell
I fell
And so I replied.
“I’m done.”
Love is that can't be measured by the depth of word where heart replies well