Best Every Fiber Of My Being Poems
Out of the dark, a lambent, lovely day has dawned
In silvery brilliance the early morning is drowned
In the sapphire sky, the sun has appeared on his diurnal shift
Over the firmament the vagrant clouds aimlessly drift
Pigeons nestle with their fledglings in the eaves
Bright sunshine seeps down through the leaves
Flocks of birds take on wings for their morning flight
Like diminutive dots they eventually disappear out of sight
All around is seen spring’s mesmerizing presence
The dormant bulbs have sprung back with a vengeance
They bear blossoms of pink, purple, yellow and white
Flashing before every watchful eye a spectacular sight
Like a bride, the Earth is clad in her silky emerald dress
Around honey laden florets, the bees restlessly buzz
Every heart overflows in cheer with no tension’s trace
On every face, smile shuttles from lips to eyes
In the wind I hear the lilts of a forgotten melody
From a woodland nearby, a lone bird sounds its parody
It seems Heaven has flung all its treasures down
And the Earth appears regally decked in floral crown
Within me, all of a sudden, I sense a divine elation
Erasing from my sullen soul, all traces of vexation
Through every fiber of my being, the waves of joy rise
And my spirit leaps out in ecstasy to the skies!
I was at a crossroads in my life when I met you.
My heart was in turmoil and indecision infiltrated
every fiber of my being. Should I stay or should
I move over two thousand miles away?
I was off balance with two small children to consider
who counted on me being the stable mom they knew.
I cried for them not me, I cried because I had no answers.
Your strength without promise got me through.
I had never met a man like you. A man whose kindness
knew no bounds, a man who listened without judgment.
A man who had the same kind of baggage I dragged behind,
who understood the pain of divorce with children at stake.
You made me feel safe as I mourned my loss, you were my rock.
Neither of us was looking for love, yet we were drawn
together by invisible forces we later accepted as destiny.
Your handsome face caught my eye, I won’t deny, but
your soul-light shined so bright I couldn’t help but love you.
I then knew the right way to go at those crossroads, I
took the path that led straight to you.
9-20-19
~Second Place~
Crossroads Poetry Contest
Sponsored by Silent One
How easily you return,
Within this mind's hindsight,
Never knowing how the swelling,
Gaping hole of your absence,
Weighs me down heavily,
With the confusion of your presence
In my dreams...
I crave substance,
Though well be my visions and tastes,
Vibrant...real be this cruel shape before me,
With voice like readying thunder,
And eyes plotting my defeat,
Ready to touch and redeem my soul
See how long control has fled from me,
As every fiber of my being convulses
With a grief none shall ever feel
And only hear of...
You can tell me to wake up,
To face reality,
To cope with the passionate eruption of these killer dreams...
But I will not hear you,
Or any being who dares to force me out of this trance--no,
I will not hear you
When the thunder claps
And my soul writhes against your grasp
You can scream at me,
Call me a fool with no substance,
You can shake me with the quaking ire
Of your controlled authority,
Though I will stay here,
Like unbreathable air
With monomaniac devotion
My future became threadbare then,
Lost in the desire of my eager grasp
The force of hot feelings flowing against ancient, chilled iceburgs
We once were untouched,
Ummovable,
Yet free
And once I tasted your fire,
Freedom has become all but a dream...
within me dwells my essence, my soul, my breath it is my inner self untainted and uncorrupt, my identify breathed into me at birth and I am responsible for its safe journey in this life so I will learn fearlessness, steadfastness, truthfulness, unselfishness, gentleness, and cleanliness of body and mind
this is my oath and promise to the Lord above and I will carry purity in my heart, only tranquility will be spoken from my lips and only serenity will dwell within me always, and I will have no wrath, or find fault in others . . .
I will possess no greed, no hate, no conceit but be humble and silent
people will say I am calm, forgiving, modest, and show great restraint, I will find the beauty in everything ... I will study the scriptures of my religion and follow their knowledge and I will have compassion of all of the Lord's
creatures, humans, animals, birds, fish, waters, plants, forests and will
protect them from destruction with every fiber of my being, I will be kind
and giving, generous, and helpful, I will live in harmony . . .
But, most important to me, is that at the end of this journey, it will be
said, this person possessed radiance in character . . .
I could speak of life in general, But this ones for a friend.
We live our lives all by ourselves, together till the end.
When clouds roll in and dim the light.
We need the sun to help us fight.
Just like the weather, our moods do change.
And alone together, we both feel strange.
With eyes espy of others joy.
We hope and pray, but remain coy.
In silent shrowds of hopeless fear.
We await a hand to wipe our tear.
But time goes by and tears just dry.
As we give up and don't even try.
So with every fiber of my being.
I hope you hear what I am seeing.
And in your heart, you'll know I care.
Cause I am here, and you are there.
Each morning I awaken, I put on ‘the mask’
in order to perpetrate my sham.
At dusk, I’m wearied, tired, and exhausted after a
full day of trying not to be who I am.
The pressure is on.., society says, to be accepted by all others,
I must fit in no matter the cost, even if it means
forsaking my own brothers!
If you like me, then I like myself, I’ve found this fact
to be true. Your opinion of me dictates my worth
so what’s a body to do?
Maybe if I was who I really am, you might just like
me in spite of it. But, I can’t take the chance on the
hurt I would feel from a friendship unrequited.
So, to avoid being labeled the ‘black sheep’ in a
fold of socially accepted lambs
I spend my time and every fiber of my being
trying not to be who I am!
Dedicated to my Dad who lost his short battle w/ Colon Cancer on June 18,2013
I hate you Cancer
Your vile evil and cruel
You don't care who you hurt
I'll never forget that day
I'll always hate you for it
Your heartless Cancer
You took someone important from me
Someone important from others too
Took people who didn't belong to you
I hate you for it
You disgust me Cancer
You had no right to take him from me
He mattered more than my very own life
I hate you for taking my Daddy
I hate you for taking others too
I hate you with a passion Cancer
You took part of my heart with him
You took part of my soul that day too
I hate you for it
I hate you I hate you I hate you
I hate you with every fiber of my being
Go back to Hell where you belong
I hate you, others hate you
Your not welcome or wanted here Cancer
I hate you more than his doctor's
I hate you more than God
I hope I get to witness that day
Witness the day you fall
And you will fall Cancer
You're gonna lose the battle one day Cancer
I'm gonna laugh and dance around your grave
You'll finally get what you deserve
And you'll never be able to inflict your disease on another soul
Sabrina Niday Hansel
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Placed 8th in Poet Destroyer A's 2013 "PINKTOBER" Contest
Please Support a Cure for Colon Cancer & every other type!
Summer sunset's blinding beauty
Utterly a fascination.
Maybe I'll be driving toward it,
Many days on long vacation'
Endless rays and scarlet streaks
Rolling across the evening skies
Send a thrill of pure delightful,
Utmost beauty to my eyes.
Never has an artist painted
Such a spectacle as this.
Every fiber of my being
Tells me God has sent a kiss.
I can feel the freezing fright and fear rattling in the marrow of my bones;
It immerses me.
I can feel the vexing uncertainty shrouding me like a black cloud;
It swallows me.
I can feel the baleful worry surrounding me like a pack of ravenous wolves;
It encircles me.
I can feel the awful dread welling and swelling up in me like a violent maelstrom;
It envelops me.
I can feel the cumbersome woe strangling me like a constricting python;
It entangles me.
I can feel the taxing stress crashing and breaking like tsunami waves on the shores of my mind;
It besets me.
I can feel the agonizing anguish beating my beleaguered soul to a bloody pulp;
It besieges me.
I can feel the terrible torment fomenting an emotional breakdown and upheaval;
It encompasses me.
I can feel the perplexing pain plaguing my heart with rancorous delight;
It inundates me.
I can feel the damnable distress torture every fiber of my being;
It binds me.
But I can also feel the wondrous spirit of Hope rising inside me like a spring of faith;
It strengthens me.
*Written for my dad who is now battling kidney cancer. All thoughts, prayers, good
vibes and well-wishes are sincerely appreciated. Thank you ~Chan
If I would have only known
The day you left would be the last.
The last time I would see your smile,
Hear your voice, hear you laugh.
If I would have only known.
What would I do differently?
What could I, even if I could?
Nothing...
I could do nothing.
Or even worse, I may have held on to you so tightly. That you would have wanted to pull away.
I would have cried and mourned your loss. Before you even left that day.
I would have tried to save you
With every fiber of my being.
Only to ultimately fail and lose you,
With only myself to hate and blame!
You left on a Tuesday morning.
I thought that you'd be back.
I thought that we had more time.
I always thought we had more time.
Looking back, I should have known
All the signs were there.
Maybe I was willfully ignorant.
Regardless, I was unprepared.
I always knew this day would come.
I just never expected it to come so soon.
I often wondered how I would handle it. Apparently alone, In a tear filled room.
Now you're gone,
And everything I use to love is a painful reminder that you're not here.
I miss you more and more as days go by, and every memory of you is chased down my cheek by tears.
If I would have only known.
But deep down, I always did.
You told me once that you weren't afraid to die. What you feared was not to live.
I don't know if I believe in God or heaven. Or if people just made them up to help them cope. I may have lost my faith. But for you my love, I will always hold on to hope.
So here I wait....
Here I sit seeped in my guilt and shame
My thoughts they bath in hellish flames
Wanting to burst out and free my soul
But the chains of addiction have a hold
With every fiber of my being resisting
But the urges are constantly persisting
Trying to justify my actions as I tell lies
Look in the mirror the reflection I despise
Deep within I scream and then I softly cry
Body feeling the weight of burden multiplied
Living fantasy because reality is being occupied
As I peek through the cracks of my brokenness
I see what was and what remains is hopelessness
Self-loathing is like a drug running through my veins
Only wanting to see the track marks of my distain
Battling the cancer eating away at my self-worth
Desperately looking for my salvation to be unearthed
I close my eyes because I no longer want to see
The ugly truth of it all the monster who dwells in me.
I cant help what I love, About you,
I cant help that I love... Everything you do.
I love who you are, and what you think,
I want you to know, what you mean to me.
You take care of me, I wanna take care of you too.
You do so much for me, Now I wanna do somethin for you
To show you that I love you too.
Sometimes, I dont know what to do, when I'm around you,
Cuz time just flies when I'm gazin up at you.
You mean the world to me and everything,
All this time it feels like we're just a dream.
You do so much for me, Now I wanna do somethin for you
To show you that I love you too.
With every fiber of my being,
and the bottom of my heart and soul,
I want you to know... How much I love you.
How much I love.... You.
For the longest time, I could not speak your name.
I could not write it; I could not bear to think it.
I was angry.
I was too young, too vulnerable, too powerless.
There was no justice for me, a mere girl.
I hated you.
Every fiber of my being writhed.
You became the scapegoat for my every misery.
I blamed me.
Was it my fault? I did not scream.
I did not fight, I did not kick, I did not wail.
I froze.
When I needed my strength and spirit the most,
It failed me; it sputtered into cold icy droplets.
I dreamed.
Years later, suddenly, for no reason at all,
You came to me in a dream.
You were real.
For the first time, it was not a reenactment
Of the unspeakable things you did to me.
An actual person.
You had not changed much physically;
You will always look the way you did on that day.
But you apologized.
You said you were tired of having to live with it,
You said you did feel the remorse all those years.
Too many years.
No more would you be the perpetrator.
You were tired of living with that weight.
Too heavy a burden.
I thought I would be enraged.
After all, one of my greatest pains back then,
One of the worst emotions that tore through my soul
like a howling, black wind:
the excruciating, heart-stopping fear
that you had no remorse. After all,
there had been no repercussion for you.
No justice for me.
Instead, I felt... understanding.
We have suffered, the two of us, for too many years.
Five years.
I refused to look you in the face, or speak your name.
But at last, after struggling so arduously, I knew:
I forgive you.
Replay
I see your face
The memories we share
Underneath that starlit sky
When you were still here
Before we muttered goodbye
Replay
I feel those butterflies
That mixture of emotion pulsing through my veins
The feeling of suffocating
Just from saying your name
Recap my favorite images again and again
Your face so perfect
Your brown eyes burning
The sweet way you were smirking
The way you blend
Congruence between you and me
The imminent euphoria
Found within “us” and “we”
Every fiber of my being longs to be with you
When you kissed my lips
My necessity for you was recognized
I choose suspension
If it takes a century
Never will I find
What you mean to me
Replay
Driving away
Fighting the repressive
Dealing with my feelings for you
My panicked objective
Feeling the sting in my voice before I left
As I said goodbye and I will miss you with regret
Repeat
We have been distanced
And yet we are so close
Every second of the day is when I feel you the most
They can send you over seas
They can make me afraid
That you won’t return
They can play with my pain
They can puncture my heart piece by piece
You see they are cutting a hole
But they will never possess the capability
Of draining my Soul.
© Ben Burton 2/25/2015
It's difficult to write an ode to those
With whom I've made a million memories
As melancholy ravages the hope
Their valiant will to fight, each day, recedes
I wonder if our prayers are being heard
When all I witness is that slow decline
Would that a minor miracle occur
To reinstate my case for the Divine
Which leads to an uneasiness for doubt
That sprouts when faith itself is on the wane
And every fiber of my being shouts
"Do not allow that villian to invade"
But, still, I realize it is the way
A cycle unavoidable on earth
For all of those now grieving on this day
Are offset by those celebrating birth
Regardless of the faith stored in the brain
For, sadly, it is there decision lies
The loathsome fear of suffering and pain
Remains to haunt my dreams deep in the night
That I, too, will distress my loved ones' thoughts
When, soon, my date with destiny arrives
But holding fast to doctrines I was taught
Spares comfort we shall meet again
On the other side