Monster Within

Here I sit seeped in my guilt and shame My thoughts they bath in hellish flames Wanting to burst out and free my soul But the chains of addiction have a hold With every fiber of my being resisting But the urges are constantly persisting Trying to justify my actions as I tell lies Look in the mirror the reflection I despise Deep within I scream and then I softly cry Body feeling the weight of burden multiplied Living fantasy because reality is being occupied As I peek through the cracks of my brokenness I see what was and what remains is hopelessness Self-loathing is like a drug running through my veins Only wanting to see the track marks of my distain Battling the cancer eating away at my self-worth Desperately looking for my salvation to be unearthed I close my eyes because I no longer want to see The ugly truth of it all the monster who dwells in me.