Searching for the chemistry that we had
Was it ur age?
She is ur age and yet not the same
Was it ur blonde hair?
She has blonde hair and still not like u
Looking for the qualities that only u possess
Smoking myself into a coma every night
Clearly out of my mind
Thoughts of u send my mind into a tailspin
Lost with no communication
Searching an uncharted piece of my soul
I have never had these damned feelings
The words u told me were lies of a hopeful heart
We will never pick up where we left off
This emptiness will never be filled
I thought that I had loved and lost before
I had no idea it was like this...
My happy place is listening to Harry Styles with u on the porch in the sunshine of May. Ur blonde hair glowing in the sunshine. White tank top, short jean shorts. Ur yellow toe nail polish.
Soon after, reality starts to take over
The clouds roll in and slowly take away my sunshine, as u disappear into the fading sunshine. I am left alone in the gloom of an overly cloudy, grey sky. I wait through the rain and snow, hoping to catch a glimpse of ur face in the sunshine.
The downtown streets are crowded;
The ferry lines are long.
New York’s no longer shrouded
In despair, but looking strong.
I kinda miss the quiet
And can do without the hordes.
I guess I should deny it;
Swarms are Covid-free rewards.
But everyone’s not ready
To pick up where we left off.
For many, slow and steady,
Still get spooked by sneeze or cough.
So I ventured to surroundings
I once traveled to a lot,
Yet instead of leaps and boundings,
Hesitation’s what I got.
Go on with your life
Forget about me
Let’s go our separate paths
It wasn’t meant to be
No way to pick up where we left off
Old feelings just warm memories
We should have left it at that
It wasn’t meant to be
AP: 3rd place 2020
Submitted on February 6, 2018
Go on with your life
Forget about me
Let’s go our separate paths
It wasn’t meant to be
Impossible to pick up where we left off
Old feelings become warm memories
We should have left it at that
It wasn’t meant to be
AP: Honorable Mention
Posted on November 5, 2017
The Fallout
For a brief moment, everything I needed was right in front of me
She was the embodiment of perfection
A stunning personality, a heart of gold, and absolutely gorgeous
I didn't expect to fall so hard so fast
I could feel myself glowing from within
A smile radiating from my face by the mere thought of her
They say when you find the one, you just know
And I knew it, there wasn't a doubt in my mind
And as quickly as it started, it all came crashing down
In an instant those feelings turned to disbelief
How could the bottom fallout on something so great?
Turns out there's more to her than I ever could've imagined
She wasn't ready and didn't want to get involved in something she couldn't give her all
Inside she was rebuilding herself, putting the pieces back together
Repairing the damage done by a savage monster
Maybe someday we can pick up where we left off
Until then, all I can do is try to be her friend and help piece together a fragile heart
Didn't think I would be back here but then again it's like I get another chance to react differently and subliminally I get to handle it another way, what a day I'm not even gonna lie it hurt but I recognize your worth and I still believe you're the one who can fulfill my needs because it's you who I want, I can't front so when I turned my back I always looked back hoping you would too but also prepared if you never did, you don't have to be scared to fall for me I'll catch you that's a promise, I honor you enough to take it slow and respect you enough to let our love grow even when we're apart. I don't wanna start over let's pick up where we left off, our kids playing together me losing myself in your most deep inner thoughts. We deserve each other. We both been down the road that leads no where, but when I'm with you I don't have a care in a world, you're the girl I never thought I'd get but now I'm scared to lose. And now that it seems like we both have a second chance at love my only question is do you feel the same way I do
i’m talkin’ to you through a screen, it hurts that i can’t touch you,
too much space in between, i wish i had a time machine,
not to pick **** up where we left off, just to wipe our slate clean,
if only i could have foreseen this painful separation, this much pent up frustration,
but all I want is just to touch you, alleviation for internalized aggravation,
i’m in need of resuscitation, you’re such a strain on my brain, it’s like death by asphixiation,
need you to come to my location, wrap me in your arms, just some kind of consolation,
because my devastation comes from this desolation, and how we supposed to build if we don’t have a foundation?
this situation’s become such a complication, that i’ve been contemplatin’ on my final extrication
I don't wanna write tonight anymore.
My fingers are cramping more and more.
I keep getting rhymes rushing through my brain.
My hand grabs the pen no matter the pain.
I'm tired, Mind, make it stop.
Another day, I'll pick up where we left off.
My head's going to burst.
My body throbbing of sleep thirst.
Just for tonight, Leave me alone
I need time on my own.
I need to go to bed and not write anymore.
You were in my life for many years
I can't believe you're gone away
So many tears I cry
Thinking of what used to be
We grew up together
We were best of friends
So much together we endured
You were a sister to me in so many ways
I can't bring myself to say farewell
Who will I call when I'm filled with joy,
Or when things seem dark and blue?
My dearest friend
With all of my heart
I hope that you're at peace
And maybe some day
We will meet again
And pick up where we left off
One last thing must be said
With tears pouring from my eyes...
Goodbye.
11/06/2012
Busy reading a curious series
Wrapped in the fantasy
Written within it's covers
A story of Vampirates
A complex tale of lives entwined
Destiny shaped before life
Journeys embarked upon
While sailing the open seas
Set in a time ahead of now
Throughout the past plays it's part
Challenges faced by siblings divided
Worlds apart their loyalties tried
Enchanting descriptions of a world apart
Removed from reality
Still within its embrace
An epic tale of adventure
Thousands of pages
To tell its full tale
A beautiful story
An original, truly one of a kind
Wanting the story to continue
For the characters journeys
To not be through
To pick up where we left off
Sailing through the seas
In search of answers
Of treasure
And more
Twins who were once sheltered
Exposed to untold dangers
Denied the truth
To who they are
Centuries of time
Riddled with tales
Of more than just the twins
Conner and Grace
But alas the tale is done
With their unusual stories
Left swinging in limbo
So onto the next one
Written by: Shannon Deane
Written: June 9th, 2011
Contest: Sea Of Words
like a concussion you fill my head
and it's not safe to sleep
that's where false hope breathes
you're so loving in dreams
and there's nothing there to tell me
I should know better
nothing to say be careful
soon it'll all be over and what you were holding
will vanish into the waking eye
If ghosts can do no harm
why does yours hurt so much
part of me will always be preserved in a glass prison
waiting, watching
to see if you ever come back
should you return
pick up where we left off
great moments live on forever
some things never change
the me that loves you never ages
as you get ready to say I do
wish the best for you
hoping that one day my heart will loosen it's grip on you
but even when my hands are too old to hold anything
I'll still carry you
my last thought on this earth
will be of you
J.Hart 11/16/10
I want to wrap your heart around my little finger
give you more than you ever thought possible
make you cry "uncle" from too much love
leave you feeling like you can never get enough
I want to make you breakfast while the world is asleep
have coffee with you and watch the sun break the clouds
go back to bed and pick up where we left off
make you cry "uncle" from too much love
Meeting you just felt so right
We matched
Like cookies and cream
Sparks flew
Bliss summed up in a kiss
Who said love at first sight
Was only a myth?
But emotional love can't always hold water
We began to fight
Things got heated
Chaise words,
Common sense, not heeded
Old wounds, thought to have healed
Now split wide open
Neither of us understood what went wrong
We finally parted ways,
You stormed out leaving me
You said it was to "take a break"
But I knew better
I want to pick up where we left off
Talk it out
Fix what was bruised and battered
But it wasn't destined to be
I filled my time with mindless things
The pain of losing you
Blazing through me like a raging fire
Picking up the shards
Of my destroyed protective shield
To now erect
Around my heart again
Nothing seemed to erase my sorrow
Beginning to walk
Along through life again
Alone
Can anyone tell me how; when grave tragedy happens?
How to explain to a three year old; that her daddy is never coming back.
All the great times; that we always had together are over.
How do you tell your baby; that memory's is all she has.
That there is no restart, we can't pick up where we left off; it's just over.
I can't leave out my precious little boy; whom at the time was one month old; when his dad
died. It is sad, that he will never know the wonderful man, that was his father.
I know this is more of a diary entry, than a poem.
I felt like I needed to put something out there for people to know; there is hurt but there is
hope. I'm a young, widowed mother of two and it's been very hard.
Somehow though, we are overcoming our hardships.
It was hard to let go but for the love of my children I have done so.
The storms we have weathered,
so many and yet so few.
But how many should be endured
when there are two,
who love each other
as we do.
There have been in our lives, my love,
storms of passion,
that were so fiery that they left
shadows of ash on the pillows
where we laid our heads until dawn.
There were storms of indecision
that have taken our thoughts, and
scattered them with the wind in the opposite direction.
We can't forget the storms of happiness.
when even tho' we tried to be strong enough
to hold back the tears, we were still weak,
weak enough to let them mingle together
as our noses touched.
But of all the storms that we've been through, my dear,
there has been none so terrible and caused so much fear,
as the storm that destroys trust.
But as we go through this storm, I know we must
pick up where we left off,
and move on to sunnier weather.
Copyright: October 27, 2005
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