Long Loss of control Poems

Fr. Time, are you a monopolistic universalist?

Yes, but also a polycultural evolutionist.

Are you an outgoing kinda Yang guy?

Yes, but in an out/integrity balancing kindness
of an in/outgoing co-passionately healthy communicator
way,
Easier to share life's co-operative win/win 
comprehensively...

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Young and Strong

She was young, she was strong
Working cleaning all the day long
So much to do, but she carried that load
So concerned about everyone, at Kenmore road.

Then we moved, to Strandfontein we came
A new challenge...

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Untamed self control my own worst enemy I can be
I can not be the poison and the remedy
The voices I hear are not in my head
I hear the words as if they’ve been said.
Horrific thoughts...

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Follow me and I will follow you only to sacrifice and pledge my soul.
Now known only as one!
Soaring in the winds with rapid inspirations exploding one by one,
It is your final fantasy to live again!
Victim...

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Some strong emotion
touched my mind today
it wasn't quite expected 
and was quickly pushed away

then later as the evening passed
the thought that harvested emotion
intruded on every thought that entered
     my awareness
and pressed...

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In those very few moments just before rising,
my Mind is busy with things that must be done,
as it plans the day ahead and organizes my time
into smaller segments that will fit into place,
then decides how...

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I use to be and might still be
completely dedicated, 
chasing a better feeling, 
I needed to, I want to. 
Constantly running from the silence, 
that is deafening. 
Every day is the last time 
I will...

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I had a father who loved two women:
one so faithful and sincere, the other 
spell maker and always showed a defying grin.
no, nobody in that god-fearing town liked her!

And mom, the devoted one, hated her...

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It was love at first sight
Thought of you every night
Can’t stop thinking of you
What am I gonna do?
Blinding love at first sight

It was love at first sight
me feeling high as a kite
Ah, but this too...

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I told Lara,
told her we would meet again.

Her on the metal table,
the light bleeding over
stainless steel and clinging to
arm hair’s, draining
color from her matted fur.

In her eyes something - not light
more what light becomes
when soil...

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loss of control. an aberration. a defect,
when the perfection of creation is lost,
a cell grows and grows without a stop,
and all its purpose and function is deranged,
it blinds the eye or strangles the bowels,
floods the...

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11/28/16


Thrive survive and live

It is what it is
A day of nothing or success using sieves
Carbonation in the soda pop making it fizz
Distinguished areas for hers and his
Individuals involved or infatuated with the showbiz
Don't get in...

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Twelve Zero eight (2016)

Brought back into existence
From nothing more than the look in your eyes
Telling me it would all be fine
Survival did not seem so meaningless
Truth didn’t seem so hard
The wire we rode didn’t twist...

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The noise is a wound that won't heal
Vibrations don't let scars take hold
Held by a grip that tightens at will
No mind over matter
Because my mind is its hold

Even when seeing it coming
Light travels faster than...

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Peaceful Reading

I was writing. 
There was a beginning, 
a middle and an end. 
It was not happy or sad, 
but it was exciting, 
and interesting... at times. 

The pen hit the paper, 
the ink flowed,...

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What is there to hold onto if you don’t even know your Self? 
There’s nothing worse than a hardened heart that yearns to crack and spill all over
Bleeding for the truth, finally breaking free
Thickened by...

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The universe swallowed my thoughts
In another instant of uncertainty
Truthfulness and doubt together were something
Morphed into a new creation of nothing 
As if my time itself were the black hole
And I, a dwarf star in the...

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Falling

I can’t tell anymore
Which way I’m falling,
At once, I was sure it was down,
But it’s been so long
Expecting to hit ground
That I must be falling sideways.

Is my life so much a trial
I feel I’m falling...

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I had control
I held it well
Upon my throne
You could never tell

That deep inside
My fate was sealed
I'm so afraid
Of the way I feel

Grasping for straws to help clear my mind
Look behind
The shadows of fear come and...

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Grave filled with papers
 Illnesses and diseases around
 Words and numbers full of pain
 Like black plague sinking in to the soul
 Every day the same pattern
 Every minute same agony
 No reasonable escape, no...

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i got a ghostly
mostly moist handful of you
i got a mind
that's top heavy with you
it spills over with you
leaks you
I pant like a Parisian poodle for you

my baggy saggy heart
is packed to the hilt with...

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Our eyes are kindled with the careless spark of a sudden glance.
Few words are spoken, our eyes making a silent dialogue …
Invitation and consent.

Our passion-flame, vivid orange and blue-red,
Heating our blood until, like mulled wine,
It...

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Sudden Love
From the first time I saw you
Still I never knew
From the first time I touched you
Still I had no clue
From the first time we kissed
Still  never realizing what I would miss
From the deeper...

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You cannot trust someone
Until you have complete faith
You have to know them
Inside and out
Looks can be deceiving
Your mind keeps triggering

You think you really know someone
Until they stab you in the back
They laugh and judge
Strip away...

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The feeling rushes through your veins
Hands shaky and arms ice cold
While you walk around in a daze
Loss of feeling, loss of control

It feels like heaven, oh yes it does
Just something small, a pill that heals...

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