Long Inner demons Poems

“Come on, let's get introduced to my play mate in a palm.
Linda, these are Joshua’s true other selfs.” 
Lelia emitting a peculiar chuckle.
A comic situation arose where I changed my voice for each of my...

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This is how it starts
the decline of who we are, the decline of something more
the start of wars
Installed in us is confidence
confidence, a blessing or a curse
Without confidence we stand degraded, disenchanted, alone
while with too...

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The constant assault of the silence on his senses is intense 
Hands clenched in fist he wished for noise and bliss
Buddy stopped talking and drinking he begins pacing as he’s thinking 
Tired from walking he...

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The loneliest that lurks within her soul twinkles in her eyes like a meteor coming into the atmosphere. The first impression of her is a glimpse of happiness, she smiles widely and is very polite....

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Written: April, 16, 2025, for contest Sponsored by: Kai Michael Neumann

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From a deep weariness of the soul 
to the discomfort embedded in our bones. ...

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I’m scared of the lies, I’m scared to give away my heart
Cause it’s been broke before and torn apart 
I’m scared of the feelings that I’m feeling right now
Cause I can’t be the perfect guy...

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You a ferrous metal and I a magnet
Drawn to you by design,
Yet sin degrades all
With it’s terror and it’s squall.

On my worst days
When I listen to the liar
Saying “It’s okay its natural
Like breathing
Or seething.”

Desires denied
Sorrows...

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Twisting and turning

Colliding with in myself, cause of the thought of you.
Cause of the thought of you, I have to fight my inner demons,
slashing at me; with my own nails; bent and scorch,
by the heat...

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Victories In China
14th and 15th Nov 2015 are days for avid badminton fans the world over to remember,
Somewhere over there in Fuchou, who cares where exactly that is there in China.

All that matters to die...

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It hurts when it feels like everything is up in the air,
It hurts when life doesn't seem fair

It hurts when happiness disappears without warning,
It hurts when you have to endure unceasing mourning

It hurts when there...

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O the sunset...the sunset...the carnelian sunsets
how I long to hold them in my hand...so when you are blue...so blue
so deep dark blue...you can come to me 
I will open my hand and you can wonder...wonder...wide...

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Head spinning heart racing
So many thoughts has my legs pacing
Back and forth 
Between and around 
I am stuck in this place
Just how can i be found

Whose around for some guidance
Whose around for some direction 
I...

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ead spinning heart racing
So many thoughts has my legs pacing
Back and forth 
Between and around 
I am stuck in this place
Just how can i be found

Whose around for some guidance
Whose around for some direction 
I...

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in my nightmare the lights cut
asked a question of wether or not
we dream the realities we are destined and doomed to live
sweeping under the truth of this dirty rug
i ponder to myself
a soul to hold
what...

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There were times when I was thinking…
Wondering if I could possibly make it,
Through the grief, the signs showing me –
I didn’t have the strength, the depth, the belief…
Everything I would need to make it beyond...

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I wonder today
As I sift through the sands
And peer through the depths of other peoples verbalized talents
Works of intricate emotion and stanzas of hyperboles oxymoron’s and similes 
and metaphor

When I refuse to welcome you to...

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The proverbial victim immortalized forever
Seeing Prince Charming when you gazed into his eyes, but, beyond your 
delusion stood Satan himself fantasizing about how he was to devour your flesh.
Sibyl's true love for Dorian did not...

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I want to be your guardian.
I want to be your resort when you're at you're lowest, 
I want to be the wings to lift you to a safe haven.
I want to be the only existing...

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God knows my heart - my every thought.
He knows when I pray, what I say...
Understands my ways... even those days...
When I don’t have the patience or praise.
God knows my heart - my soul and the...

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If life itself does have no meaning
Pray, tell me, does justice need to come from the divine
From that power which is still mystifying
From that power which is still in the process of being philosophized

Why, see...

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I rip and chew at my edges
Trying to eradicate 
Placate
Eleviate
My pain
The anxiety 
The part of me that threatens to freeze 
My mental disease
The part I hope no one sees
The inner demons I wish to appease...

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Now that only forgotten promises remain,
sounds of solitude are gifts I wish to obtain.
Sentiments are temporary in a world full of change,
affections are wasted in an insincere exchange.

Some say my words are engraved too deep,
others...

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I am left speechless by her beauty.


My heart is in two pieces, torn apart by love.
Art leaves me sleepless; where is my good?
An empty orchestra plays only violins.
I need her love, to silence my own...

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I hated myself.
I hate myself 
I am hating myself.
Torture.
Is what I do to myself at 2:33am when I'm thinking about how much of a waste I've become, am becoming and how I think, think about...

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Ten Years (rewrote it for better meaning)

(Love you, mom)
February 21, 2007
The day that i last saw your face
The same face that went through war
To keep the family together
Through the hardships of life;
The day that i...

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