Torturous Existence

It hurts when it feels like everything is up in the air, It hurts when life doesn't seem fair It hurts when happiness disappears without warning, It hurts when you have to endure unceasing mourning It hurts when there is no safe place to rest your ache, It hurts when surviving no longer looks like a piece of cake It hurts when memories that once held dear dissipate, it hurts when paradise should be there, but purgatory waits It hurts when every bone in the body fancy love & connection, It hurts when the head rejects even little scraps of affection It hurts when darkness doesn't look thrilling, It hurts when life feels hollow and unfulfilling It hurts when I am fine is nothing but a lie, It hurts when the soul longs to leave the body and fly high It hurts when inner demons become angry beasts, It hurts when self-doubt is the food they love to feast It hurts when the mind goes through immense emotional pain, It hurts when every effort to fix it goes in vain It hurts when every thought about oneself turns black and white, It hurts when even small battles demand a tough fight It hurts when familiar and unfamiliar faces seem alike, It hurts when the mouth doesn't utter a word, the world hands over a mike It hurts when the frown refuses to leave the face, It hurts when you no longer know the emotion to chase It hurts when acting normal becomes tough, It hurts when every behavior is called rude or rough It hurts when eyes become easily wet, It hurts when the sun of hope begin to set It hurts when numbness refuses to go, It hurts when mood willingly chooses to be low It hurts when the empty void in heart keeps on evolving, It hurts when mistakes from the past keep the head revolving It hurts when noises inside your head are too damn loud, It hurts when you know they don't deserve the crowd It hurts when the light that shines in the tunnel wane, It hurts when they bluntly say “stay in your lane” It hurts when cold shoulders are given more often than lovely kisses, It hurts when the childhood days are the only time the heart misses It hurts when indifference become the response to every query, It hurts when patience runs thin, and the heart gets weary It hurts when awful days extends beyond their due date, It hurts when escape looks appealing in absence of a gate It hurts when bright dreams morph into wildest nightmares, It hurts when after every nap, mouth utters WHO CARES!