Embrace the Confusion

ead spinning heart racing So many thoughts has my legs pacing Back and forth Between and around I am stuck in this place Just how can i be found Whose around for some guidance Whose around for some direction I thought i was merging until I found myself stuck at this intersection Holding up traffic No red or green telling me to stop or go Just my memories and assumptions Telling me to hold on or to let go My biggest struggle in life was holding on to the past Holding on to memories once filled with tons of love and many laughs Memories filled with rage and conviction Memories filled with a bunch of speaking while not enough listening Holding on because i am fearful to let go Fearful of merging onto that intersection with my foot on the gas pedal Fearful of change and fearful of defeat Fearful and unwilling to embrace the situation you see Embracing is acceptance which I wasn’t ready for Not ready to embrace closing up and opening new doors Afraid to picture what was on the new side I would keep my eyes shut tight to block the new memories from forming inside Wanting change but not bold enough to admit it Wanting more for myself and the others around me Not willing to embrace it while stuck in my old surroundings I had to remove myself from the old mess Embrace what was once my happiness Embrace that those memories shaped me into me Embrace that those tough times would shape my future moments and allow me to become free Embrace that i still had some soul searching to do Embrace the fact the ones closest to me had some to do too Embrace that timing is key to happiness in life Embrace that people closest to you come and go whether wrong or right Embrace that happiness is within you no other person can fill that void Embrace that my happiness is on the verge of being restored It takes a lot of courage to go through this phase A lot of reflection Avoiding misdirection Letting go of misconceptions All of this to fully merge onto that intersection Foot on the gas mirrors aligned I can see out the rear most importantly while leaving it behind I am who i am today but not who i was back then I can only focus on what’s in front of me on this new direction I have embraced the confusion and the uneasy feelings I have battled with those inner demons They won a few battles but i won the war I conquered my feelings and everything else I have in store