plans fall through
surprises around the corner
a random rendezvous
mirage moment mourner
diluted destiny denied
but disappointment dissipates
when you realize—
it's all fate.
-k80
And when you tear
open my rib cage
I'd like for you to
make me something
beautiful
The bearings of my
insides I hope are
useful to you
I hope I am useful to
you.
Keep swinging Capricorn
when the world's not on your side
He tasted her first, but they all say otherwise
Stand for the teachers
Fall for the Gods
the Devil and Jesus, the same sign
under the stars
Not felled just falling
crush and begin again
Covered in roses
it was us and never them
Diluted by poison
shot down and unknown
let's look to the future and pretend that we don't know
There is one thing that I need
it's more than I deserve
Outside the temple, wondering what it's worth
Look at us shining now, in the midday sun
He caught the birds and set them free
all of them but one
I'll dive out of this world and take with me my wings
I was sorry then and I'm sorry now
an endless offering
I'm warm again and finally, my words are being read
Wash away like letters in the sand
They'll wash away like letters written in the sand
DILUTED
Autumn leaves tremble
passion has waned sans color
floods diluted fall
9/19/2017
SINS ARE DILUTED
Ancestral sins
Diluted with passive time
Flows over screen
Vows and silence decay
leaving life dry and dreadful
Predator circling at heights
Prey stretches out
Without fear or facile.
Christmas Day will never be the same
Whilst companies who will only think gain
It's charms now diluted
Commercially polluted
Frankly, the fat cats are solely to blame
Should I never hold hopes
Of you making me yours?
Are we just stuck where we are
With no open doors?
Do you strive to move forward
Or are you content?
Are my visions of a future
Just delusions so bent?
I see myself with you
Beyond just today, just right now
I want to ask the same of you
But have no thoughts on how
To not have these answers
Literally drives me insane
So tell me what you want
Because I won't play anymore games
My Hot and Diluted Tears
My Hot and Diluted Tears,
Willingly Opened to Your Ridicule.
Knowing No Apocalypse to My Fears,
Accepting of Your Fierce and Fickle Rule.
My Prayer to Cleave Unto Your Shifting Soul,
Knowing I Have Waxened, and Make-shift Wings.
Flying Cousined to Your Searing, Hot Sun,
Falling To My Death, No Heed to the Toll.
My Hot and Diluted Tears,
Praying For A Certain Death's Interface.
To Sacrifice the Balance of My Years,
A Cemented Rest My Only Embrace.
Don’t ever question my love for you
As I will forever question myself
Could I have been stronger
And held onto your adoration?
Letting your love fill me up
Flowing through me like warm water
Seeping into all the hidden crevices
I created for myself
Sheltering my heart with walls
That simply melted in your hands
Like the finest sugar
The stickiness clinging to your fingertips
Only now do I see that
I censored myself for your consumption
While the heart melted, melded into yours
The soul was still fear’s cowering prisoner
The memories I have of you
Will soon be replaced by
Anger, Sadness, Loneliness, Fear
Because there is no you
The vast nothing that consumes me
Is all I have left
I am merely a shell, housing emptiness
Diluted by fear