Best Pretend Poems
Why not say you’re mistaken,
it was the wind that you heard?
And when I dropped to my knee,
I hadn't uttered a word.
Why don't you just shrug it off,
and admonish me out loud?
Let’s pretend, 'twas but a game
to amuse the passing crowd.
If we say it didn’t happened,
can we not forget this eve?
And should you feel offended,
just ask me to, and I'll leave.
But, what if I did propose,
and those words came from my heart?
And now, I'm crying inside
cause you tore my hopes apart.
(Quatrain)
2/3/2015
When you said you believed me
I laughed
I laughed how you easily believed
In the things I pretend
How you never knew the things I hid
Behind the smile I wore
You believed in the way I always seemed to be happy
You believed how my silence was a mere silence and not words I always wanted to speak
You believed in those silly smilies I sent you the time my tears didn’t know how to stop
You believed when I said the reason behind this scar is a door or my bed
You believed when I said my head was aching
You always believed me and that is where the problem lies
You see how easily you believed the things I pretend to be
And even after knowing me so well
You don’t really know who I really am
Behind everything I pretend
Behind everything I wish you never believed
Let's play pretend
Pretend you are the hero and I am the damsel in depression
You sold me a magic future you'd crafted out of fool's gold
And I fell into the shimmer
A siren song in rough seas and
I sang merrily we fall
What adventure novels did I neglect
While chasing a happily ever after lie
Though you were a tragedy in your own right
You were a rum drunk pirate
On a pain soaked ship
And I haven't the heart to call you a villan
I should have known
when you said you didn't read much
That you'd be the chapter I wish I could tear out
page by page
And burn like witchcraft
Turn your memory to smoke and ash
The boy who would not grow up
And the girl who could not make him
I forced you to see your reflection though
Not in a rippled tide pool
But exactly as it was
And you could not hide from yourself then
Let's pretend I'm the fairy godmother
and I'll grant you this one year to the midnight
Tell me
Did you think I'd ever find the courage to leave?
Let's pretend
You never said the things you did
And I never cried behind a steering wheel
Trapped screaming prayers to St. Anthony
To find the me I lost chasing you
Let's pretend
I didn't instead find silver spoons in snowboard boots
Or empty liquor bottles in full laundry baskets
Or the patience before I lost it and transformed as though by dark magic into someone spiteful
Let's pretend
I never wanted to make you hurt
The way you made me hurt
And let's pretend I never tried.
Let's pretend
That water is not vodka
And that I am not as stupid as you made me feel
Let's pretend
Like the time you shoved me into the wall was the only time you were a rough sea to me and it was only because you were weather worn
Let's pretend
I was in love with you
and not the role you wrote for yourself before I found out your true character
Let's pretend
We aren't as complicated as we are
And in my story you can be a sick evil pirate
And in your story I can be a vile gypsy witch
And in our story we are just sad, frustrated kids,
In a dark love,
In over our heads,
No breadcrumbs to lead us out,
In a Grimm fairytale
Made for morals
Not happily ever after
04/22/2021
It's very frustrating, pretend listening
Their unfocused eyes, glazing and glistening
And despite their wide blank stare
They don't notice my eyes and menacing glare
The cold touch of the metal
On my soft bare skin
The turn out can only be fatal
Ill do this with a grin
No one can ever tell
That i even feel this way
Depression doesnt ring their bell
But i know that this is the day
The day this all ends
The day that i fade
The day i make amends
The day i wont be afraid
Iv hidden it for so long
No ones ever known
Im not really this strong
The real me has never been shown
This metal razor is cold
On my oh so soft bare skin
The move im making will be bold
When i decide to let depression win
My life cut short
My life gone
My life had no support
My life is done
This razor now bloody
With a smile on my face
No movement from my body
My smile not out of place
Lying on the floor
Note tucked in my hand
Please do not ignore
For this is what it read
"I ended it for you
I ended it so be happy
Its what i had to do
I even made it snappy
You were the one
That i chose
You made me numb
And let me go
My life had its ending
But see im smiling
Im still pretending
That your 'i love you' wasn't you lying"
Pretend, how about it,
a different life,
one of more accord
and much less strife,
of calmer days
and soothing winds,
quivering leaves on
swaying limbs,
light blue skies
with puffy clouds,
no shouting people
in riotous crowds.
So lost in crowds
Can't speak aloud
I'm so ashamed of who I am
So lost in sounds
I can't be found
I won't give up
No, no I won't
Can't remember who I am
Music is my only, lonely jam
But, I remember hopes and dreams
I remember everything that sings
I don't know who I am, but I will figure that out
Pretending who I am is filling me with doubt
I'm like a broken dam
That, I am…that, I am...
A long lost lamb
Alone in the fields of shame
Alone in the lonesome game
Of giving up…
But, I won't
I won't
I won't
I won't give up
No, no I won't
Can't remember who I am
Music is my only, lonely jam
But, I remember hopes and dreams
I remember everything that sings
I don't know who I am, but I will figure that out
Pretending who I am is filling me with doubt
I feel somewhat better than before
I have been hit to the core some more
I don't know why I feel extremely numb
Please tell me God - I want to overcome…
These emotions
Are like oceans
But, I belong with Him in times of need
I won't give up
No, no I won't
Can't remember who I am
Music is my only, lonely jam
But, I remember hopes and dreams
I remember everything that sings
I don't know who I am, but I will figure that out
Pretending who I am is filling me with doubt
Give me some hope in times of hopelessness
Give me a reason to hold on to His joyousness
Everything fades, but not happiness from within
Observation has taken over me again and again
Can't help but be sad…
Yet, I am still glad
Was so lost in crowds
Couldn't speak aloud
But, I won't pretend to be who I am…
I am like a strong, rowdy ram
Yet, gentle and quiet like a lamb...
When I feel your warm embrace,
You won't see the tears rolling down my face,
Now you seem so far away,
Dont worry now, I wont ask you to stay.
When you left me,I felt so empty and cold,
You couldn't know how bad that felt,
Your happy now, or so I'm told,
I loved you more than life it self.
You told me you would be there,
All the way to the end,
You said you would always love me,
But you words were just pretend.
I thought if you really loved me,
you would be right here with me,
But you had other things to do,
You had other places to be.
You were my best friend, you were my heart,
I fell in love at the beginning, right from the start.
Now all alone frightened and scared,
Did you ever love me? Did you ever really care?
A bullfrog jumped into my eye socket today.
Pushed my retina aside, and was clearly on his way.
I can feel him jumping around. My sight is blurry.
Doctor, please come quick, as if you are in a hurry.
Why I care, but pretend I don’t.
First, screw you.
Second, I’m sorry.
Third, it’s not you it’s me.
Fourth, sometimes I hear things that aren’t there.
Fifth, why is everyone looking at me?
Sixth, do I walk weird?
Seventh, why do I do sports?
Eighth, cause I’m being forced to.
Ninth, maybe people will like me if I do this?
Tenth, never do that again.
Eleventh, sorry mom I just didn’t think.
Twelfth, why will no one date me?
Thirteenth, stop looking at me!
Fourteenth, no one likes a crybaby.
Fifteenth, what is wrong with me?
Sixteenth, “stop being such a nerd.”
Seventeenth, was that a joke?
Eighteenth, am I stupid?
Nineteenth, how come no one else looks like me?
Twentieth, sometimes I hear things that aren’t there.
Oh Pup, why couldn't I go to the stable with brother,
there are stallions there and a foal with the red mare
to the hounds he's going, to chase foxes with father.
I can hear the brass horn sound, can you hear its blare?
Mother says little girls can't go. It's really not fair!
I can ride, I can too! Hear, I'm talking to you.
Yes, I know, I know, puppy you wanted to go too.
I've got a hobby horse, could you be a fox?
We'll play run through the meadow and scream tally-hoo.
I bet you, we could play hunt without shoes and socks!
* See About the poem for the Picture
Contest: Briton Reviere
Painting: Sympathy
Hey, let's pretend that you and I,
Are traveling throughout the heavenly skies,
Yes, hand in hand and by and by,
Our journey along galaxy-way,
Is so exciting, wouldn't you say,
So, let's wend along and on our way,
We'll share some more colorful things,
Such as our view of Saturn's rings,
Oh! what a thrill it truly brings,
To ride upon a shooting star!
Traveling on and on afar,
Gathering star dust from the Golden Star,
Just enough for you and I,
To sprinkle later in the sky,
To make believe again, is why... Just you and I.
Let me pretend my way,
to a happy beginning.
Where the fabric of life,
was thick and not thinning.
A time and a place,
with a loving warm feeling.
A super fantastic life,
that was perfectly appealing.
Where my days were exquisite,
like lines to a "Hallmark" poem.
Everything so perfect,
our house was a home.
Time to be a gleeful child,
daddy left me alone.
My sins weren't so many,
I didn't need to atone.
Days warm and special,
from the very start.
A beautiful life,
imitation of art.
We each were so loving,
that was the best part.
Days filled with happy,
never a broken heart.
Pretending doesn't work,
so I'll just try and be.
Look past my own surfaces
and then I might see.
Beginnings aren't endings,
my God has blessed me.
Forgiven and forgiving,
from the past I'm set free!
why should I pretend
If is right I will surely show it
If is wrong I will surely rebuke it
I sure got a soul
Right deep down my heart
It so dwells
Why should I pretend
Life is beautiful
If only one understand
His soul first
For you can't gave what you don't have
Either can you understand
What you don't know
Why should I pretend
Why pretend when all is not right
Why lie when there is a truth
Why not be brave
It could had been better
Since now life is like a game
So all best to do is pretend
And follow all invoke
So now when you look into
The eyes of the people
You sure see fear
Why should I pretend
Coward are produce
Each day a lot now
Lack of self knowledge
Is like a dig of a diamond
So rare in places
I don't know how this is
This possible
Yet I know fear is our modern
Cancer
Why should I pretend
Real self power I adore
Self knowledge I worship
Self creativity I dream of
Self sacrifice I live for
So I am not a pretender
As on this quest I wonder
Why should I pretend
The old philosopher is at your service
To help you get through life's big circus
It ain't all that tricky
Pretend you're on a dinghy
Sailing the south seas with happiness plus
© Jack Ellison 2016