David William Breidenthal Poet Lyric

I Won'T Pretend

So lost in crowds 
Can't speak aloud
I'm so ashamed of who I am 
So lost in sounds
I can't be found

I won't give up
No, no I won't 
Can't remember who I am 
Music is my only, lonely jam

But, I remember hopes and dreams
I remember everything that sings
I don't know who I am, but I will figure that out
Pretending who I am is filling me with doubt

I'm like a broken dam
That, I am…that, I am...
A long lost lamb
Alone in the fields of shame
Alone in the lonesome game
Of giving up…
But, I won't 
I won't 
I won't 

I won't give up
No, no I won't 
Can't remember who I am 
Music is my only, lonely jam

But, I remember hopes and dreams
I remember everything that sings
I don't know who I am, but I will figure that out
Pretending who I am is filling me with doubt

I feel somewhat better than before
I have been hit to the core some more
I don't know why I feel extremely numb 
Please tell me God - I want to overcome…
These emotions
Are like oceans
But, I belong with Him in times of need

I won't give up
No, no I won't 
Can't remember who I am 
Music is my only, lonely jam

But, I remember hopes and dreams
I remember everything that sings
I don't know who I am, but I will figure that out
Pretending who I am is filling me with doubt

Give me some hope in times of hopelessness 
Give me a reason to hold on to His joyousness 
Everything fades, but not happiness from within
Observation has taken over me again and again
Can't help but be sad…
Yet, I am still glad
Was so lost in crowds 
Couldn't speak aloud
But, I won't pretend to be who I am…
I am like a strong, rowdy ram 
Yet, gentle and quiet like a lamb...

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Caren Krutsinger July 7, 2019 at 9:37 PM Many of us feel this way sometimes. "I'm like a broken dam That, I am…that, I am... A long lost lamb Alone in the fields of shame Alone in the lonesome game Of giving up… But, I won't I won't I won't " I am glad there was so much optimism here, because it reminds us that life can get a lot better, and fast. David William Breidenthal July 9, 2019 at 10:03 AM Thank you, Caren, for your heartfelt comment on my poetic journey~

Charmaine Chircop July 7, 2019 at 4:04 PM I can relate to your poem sometimes..Yes I do ask that question oftenly.."Who am I"?..Really enjoyed reading your poem.Hold to the songs ..dreams and better days. David William Breidenthal July 9, 2019 at 10:01 AM Thank you, Charmaine!

Jennifer Proxenos July 7, 2019 at 2:46 AM Hi JW, as long as you continue to jam the way forward will become clear, you make others happy - God loves you for this - continue jamming my friend - glad you enjoyed my poem - a powerful, creative, poetic gem you have expressed! Hugs and blessings, Jennifer. David William Breidenthal July 9, 2019 at 10:01 AM Thank you so much, Jennifer!

Nette Onclaud July 5, 2019 at 8:01 PM such a racy yet sentimental melody so good to put this into music, JW!... spot on!...huggs David William Breidenthal July 6, 2019 at 9:04 PM Thank you for your lovely comment on my poetry today! X-) JWE

Richard Lamoureux July 5, 2019 at 9:04 AM You are on a roll, another meaningful ponderable piece. David William Breidenthal July 6, 2019 at 9:04 PM Thanks so much! :) Such kind words.