Youth of Darkness
Excelling at life after hanging
between heaven and hell…
Disproving the world of
thoughts of innocence and
naivety…
Hidden in her fabricated shell of
silence…
The Darkness of Youth hides
her true demeanor…known not
by the world what she can be…
Sacrifice willing to be made for
others…potential willing to be
wasted…to save the innocents…
Foreign battlefields readily
risked…to put her skills to the
test…
Troubled companions...train for
the dangers of her future…by
helping each other instead of
themselves…
She knows not what can be
accomplished…if only she was
revealed to the one most
deserving to know of all…her…
Her mind works above the
capacity of her peers…but stays
excusive to those
Stay connected
Electric fusion
Electric chip
Reminiscing
Buddies who are the Uber Gods
Reminiscing to those days
Stopped by the police
Piano concerto
Mum looks disappointed
New York City
Rolling with life
Empathising with others
Piano concerto
Sweet 16 as a criminal
I never regretted it a bit
Because now I know the truth
The truth behind the beginning of time
You outlandish fool
The new world has come
The world of the chip
The world of social media
The world where kids are Gods
Adults are just old news
You don’t believe me?
It has already happened
You can’t open your eyes
So here comes my own story
As an adult
You can’t stop me
Government power is over
You can’t stop us
We are one
You will not prevail
Who?
That is for you to work out
"I never travel without my diary, one should always have something sensational to read.."
~Oscar Wilde, 1891
Dear Diary, April 6, 2011
I am a wandering writer.
New to the world; always a fighter.
Experiencing light and a world of mystique,
Places of normal, weird, and oblique.
I try to keep up with the world passing by
But I am falling behind the harder I try.
I feel like a new Helen Keller in ways.
In darkness and silence for each of my days.
Raising my voice yet not being heard,
I need to master the author's word.
With many thoughts and ideas that need to get out,
So I'll continue to scream and continue to shout.
I'll find a way in even if I must jump,
Because I too have to find, my own water pump....
Sincerely,
Voiceless
Your world is falling apart,
you hold your broken heart.
You're dying deep inside,
you want to run and hide.
You feel you cannot live,
for what you cannot give.
Your love that's locked away,
your feelings you keep at bay.
You want to scream and shout,
instead you stand and pout.
You stare at the shattered heart,
it's broken and falling apart.
Your world slips between your fingers,
the love that was once there lingers.
Your eyes they start to tear,
your soul is full of fear.
You cowar on the floor,
your eyes are puffy and sore.
For days and hours you cry,
you feel you want to die.
You don't belong in this world,
in a ball your stomachs curled.
Your world is crashing down,
your eyes glace at the ground.
When you hear a sound,
your heart starts to pound.
You turn around and see,
just what the sound can be.
You feel you're spinning round and round,
your world just flipped upside down.
He picks your heart up off the ground,
which then in turn starts to pound.
The peices then start to bend,
you feel your heart will finally mend.
Everytime I see him, my heart aches and breaks.
Everytime I see him, my knees and hands shake.
Living with the pain,
I am in vain.
Thinking that I'm hated,
It's not appreciated.
Everytime I see him,my world turns.
Everytime I see him,my stomach churns.
Everytime I see him,the world goes around and around.
Everytime I see him,it's like my heart's falling to the ground.
Just hearing his voice, all rough yet smooth,
Just waiting for that one perfect move.
At the same time, his scent is sweet & bitter.
It makes my body feel as if it's gonna shiver.
Everytime I see him, a flood of memories come into my head.
Everytime I see him, it's like the burning in my heart is being fed.
This pain hurts so much that it's so unbearable.
To me, this situation is not understandable.
Can't he understand that I love him so?
Well, I guess not...
Some days it seems like all hope is lost
Like there is nothing left to fight for
Like I've already lost you; my best friend
Some days it seems like the world will end
Like I am all alone in life
Like there is nothing left to live for
BUT some days
I know that as long as there is love
There will always be something to fight for
And I'll always have my best friend
I know as long as there is love
The world will not end and I'll never be alone
There will always be something to live for
lost forever in a dream
who are you to say I'm weak
you do not know my truth
hidden from eyes and sent spinning through the tears
who are you to say I'm wrong
you're world has never touched the truth
you lie and cheat
who am I to try fitting in a world without my life
I have more strength than you imagined
I have more will to live
I have been broken
I have been shattered
don't give me your lies
your broken promises mean nothing now
I lost so much and you think it nothing
don't judge when you don't know truth
I am hidden in full view
stop your lying
stop your judging
forget what you know
it doesn't matter anymore
you aren't worth the time
She sits with the innocence of a twelve year old,
But of her likes, stories remain untold,
She smiles with a heart of gold,
Showing the very feelings she wants to grow cold,
So many silly thing does she despise,
But for such,her heart's desire doth rise,
Her friendship and affection does she price,
However,she opens her gates in friendship's stride,
She walks in resolute haste,
Allowing her little self marred in fragile paste,
She concludes discussions in a resolved state,
But confused,she consults at an unsettled rate,
In her mind surety's wind whirl,
Proving a world full of swell,
No matter how big the world in which she dwells,
She is still a little girl,
Lost in a world of affection
Can’t seem to see anything around me
Hurt inside because no one seems to care
When I fall to my knees I find out what I did
I ignored my friends….
I ignored my family……
Just because I wanted something even I knew wouldn’t last.
Am I that stupid?
To just leave the world behind,
To leave my good life behind.
Am I that retarded?
To make my life a living hell
I let the ones I love go….
I let the ones I trusted leave as I was dazed
In a world a fantasy that I regret
Tears down my face and then I figure that
It’s just a dream
I’ve been asleep
And as I wake
I knew that second…..
What it meant…..
DON’T LEAVE THE WORLD BEHIND FOR SOMETHING
THAT MAY NEVER LAST!
If only I could fly away,
Above the cities, beyond the bays;
To dance among the Northern Lights,
To scale glaciers of such might.
Might one day I also see,
Where in this world my place will be;
As I think it not here in this college,
With it's false opinions and daunting knowledge.
Knowledge which once I knew so well,
But from my prime I shook and fell;
In a world now so educated,
What once was so simple is now complicated.
Complicated beyond such wholesome trades,
Whose families now have split or are delayed;
A son will look down on his dad,
Respect all gone and joy now sad.
Sad is what a mother feels,
When at debts feet her daughter kneels;
Everyday we're told we're doomed,
By a darkness from which awe once loomed.
Now in this hall I glance around,
Seeing hollow success hence surround;
From the conventional I feel I must stray,
O God, please love and guide me on my way.
I am the sacrificial lamb
Upon the alter of the damned
Sit and watch me bleed
Satisfy your needs
Droning your eyes
Twisted by your lies
You open up my veins
Release tormented rains
Upon earths self righteous Bain
This crimson covered innocence
Will cure the world of ignorance
You’re haunted by my desolate screams
Sheltered in your sadistic dreams
Another victim in the past
Destroyed while you laughed
Defiled and laid to waste
I want you to remember me
Choking on your cold cruelty
This last picture of me
Is what the world will see
The pleasure you took in my inhalation
Avenged in exposing your monstrosity
Then in the pits of hell
Where all you victims dwell
Trials of revenge
You cannot escape
We are here to punish you
What heaven cant hell shall do
An eye for an eye
Your penitence is due
They say were crazy
We credit you
Down on your knees
Beg us for mercy
We stifle your pleas
Laugh as you curse me
You held our souls hostage for years
Tormented by fate and dark fears
Now the tables have turned
Reap the torment you’ve earned
See your pride tattered on the floor
We’ll ruin all that you adore