Get Your Premium Membership

Long Fatality Poems | Poetry

Long Fatality Poems. Below are the most popular long Fatality by PoetrySoup Members. You can search for long Fatality poems by poem length and keyword.

See also: Famous Long Poems

Long Poems
Long poem by J.W. Earnings | Details

After All is Said and Done

I wrote this random rap song just yesterday! Have a blast, reading it! :D
"We shall all be like magnets,
Connecting to God's Laws in perfect symmetry 
We shall all shine as the sun,
Glorifying the son of God in perfection and ecstasy 
We shall all master the self,
Harvesting God's enlightenment, taking wing of our destiny" - a preacher poet once said...I'm afraid he's sleeping in his holy bed (hahaha sorry lame joke...no anger I should provoke) 

{INTRO} love isn't a game of cheats and greets 
Beats me that you treat me like leftover beets - How discreet like hidden chocolate neat treats 
You deserve a punch in the face with a trace of these sick beats played in repeat...tap your feet to my feats   
I wear a grimace on my face 
Cuz I've been face to face with the disgrace before me - that's me 
I can't keep pace with your rapid race
I just want you to abide by my side and subside from negativity 

{VERSE 1} Yes, you're going to go away 
You're going to go away
No, you're going to go away
You're going to run away 
Into the forest of lies...
Into the wilderness of goodbye's...
You were always on my mind like lullabies...
I got betrayed by you many times and you drifted away from the path of peace...boy, how time flies...
Now, I'm stand tall
I'm stand tall
Through it all...
I got through it all
Why so fixated on your free-fall?
You must stand your ground like a fearless wall 
I know you've been tossed to and fro like a ball 
You're my favorite, flawless masterpiece and a mighty tease - oh please 
You're too entitled to your frowned-upon stubborn opinion 
You're remarkable, but judgmental - please don't hurt me again and put my whole life at ease 
Peeling you until you're gone
Feeling me like a darksome sun

Hmmmmm
Ahhhhhhhh 
Oooooh ohhhhh 
Mmmmhmmm 

{PRE-CHORUS} Lifted higher by your sheltering Sun-ray
Mmmhmm Ahhh ooh ohhh 
Fly away! Fly away, refrain from lingering around me...making me go insane 
Fear and hope rattles my bones this dismal day 
Ahhhh ohhhhh mmmhmm 
That moment! That moment between us was a sacred serenity - feeling a thousand tons of shame on my lamentable lane
You make me smile...
But, not in a million miles or so...oh oh...
Will I love you for awhile
All because I love you for eternity though 
Watchin' tv with my buddy
My companion, my champion like somebody 
I used to know long ago,
But forget it though - 
It's not important to the ears to hear
Just hold my hand a while, my dear

{DUET} Somethin' in me has died when I was on my bipolar ride so wide 
Cuz I'm missin' someone deep inside - I don't know why I cried 
The physical appearance can injure the soul in contrite 
We need to set our focus on the positive light, not in the negative night

{CHORUS} doo (x10)
Doo (x20) ...etc.
Fly away from the demons that say you're not good enough...
You didn't want my assistance - only my hesitance and my forgiveness 
After all is said and done, I gotta say that life has been so tough...on you and I and it hits us rough...
It's none of my concern that you were deserted and were in distress and you're an awful mess I must address 
Yes, you're going to go away 
You're going to go away
No, you're going to go away
You're going to run away 
I'll give you half of my success progress
So please don't weep, please don't leave in distress...
You're here to express, 
Not to impress 
I love you...
Yet, I don't too...
More or less...(x2)

Ooooh
Ooooooh
Ahhhhh
Mmmmhmmmm

{VERSE 2} This time, I've cried so many tears for so many years (I'm blind) 
Oh oh oh oh....
Yes, I tried to save you from the callous fears (in mind) 
Heal the scars, 
Countless like stars
Defeated by you 
You and your bewildering ways...
I let you go cuz I let you down when I went through those wretched days
Bye, bye...
Balloon 
I can't deny...
We'll see each other soon
In another maroon moon
Peel away the pain of your radiantless rain 
You're perfectly not in tuned with my heart and there's no happiness to gain, save the pain of losing you in my thought train 
Next subject...don't hate, appreciate DAMN - 
Don't reject, accept me for who I am 
There's no logical reason to turn back to the past
Let yourself look forward to the future so vast and oh so fast at last! 

Hmmmmm
Ahhhhhhhh 
Oooooh ohhhhh 
Mmmmhmmm 

{PRE-CHORUS} 

{DUET} 

{CHORUS} doo (x10)
Doo (x20) ...etc.

Ahhhhh hmmmm
Ooooh ohhhhhh 
Ehhhh mmmmmm 

{BRIDGE} *whisper* It just doesn't make sense
I guess I'm gullible and dense...a rubbish, some kind of nonsense
Fenced in my guilt and snowed under my envy 
My heart is bruised, my brain is abused, and you're accusing me...
Of losing a grip on reality...
Biting the bullet of regret...
Thought upon the aftershocks of your heartless neglect...
I bet you don't understand why I'm upset
All because you won't listen and you stare vacantly at me as if I'm a worthless insect 
You affected me... 
You infected me...
You directed me...
In the wrong route that led to my fatality...
My priceless fantasy pursues useless reality 
My heart is shattered like a mirror... 
I was your loyal keeper of your dreams, originated from heart and soul...not of error... 
This truth I cannot bear...
This lie is treating us so unfair...
Shards scattered on the floor
As if he doesn't care anymore
Anymore...
Anymore...
Let my wings of flight soar - I longed for this revelation in store and it's opened to me like an opportunity door...
All along, I was wrong - you weren't that special someone that I adore; what was I waiting for? 
You departed from my arms...
Sorry, our love lost value like unlucky charms 

(OUTRO) You ruined my self-esteem 
When I was living the dream I dream within a dream - at least, in my daydream and my nightdream 
I was riding clouds of gleam and steam and we, like bulbs, do beam
I thought we were one supreme team...
I hate me sometimes, my baby
But I can change me, you see 
I love you - now it's time for me to shine
Because, even though I can't change the things you do, you are fortunately mine 

"The breeze whips my curtains 
Grief sends me on a field trip to the warped-up road
But there's no logical reason to turn back in the past 
Let yourself look forward to the future
Let the dawn awaken 
Shun out the sadness that hangs on to you 
And let yourself grow and never look back 
At the warped-up road ~~~~ sway like the breeze at ease please...don't be that tease you were back then or I won't be infected by your delightful disease" - J W Earnings

Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2016


Long poem by J.W. Earnings | Details

Below the Horizon - Shallow Shame

Agony be to society's demise
Labels are for fools, not for the wise
Play the familiar tune of in-unison serenity 
Fatality won't come any time soon, thankfully...

Homeless and homosexual people were on the news not to long ago...I weep in anguish... 
I'm tattered and torn in long-term grief because why is society so heartless and selfish?

You fill in the gaps
Unwrap the poetic raps
Of my sold-my-soul-to-the-angel-of-light words 

I suppose I was born a maniac fool, a mindless talker - sucks to be me right now...don't be an intimidating mocker 
I guess I wasn't meant to be a deep thinker...more like a Walking Dead walker 
A sorrowful sinker...brilliantly lame and I can't be tame
A shallow thinker...that's a mighty shame that you play me like a game

Intimate family surrounds me
Immediately, I feel comfort in vain 
Make up the loss of your motivation
A brainwashed worker, getting paid minimum wage...reduced to happy, mishap-made frustration 

Glide into me...glee without ends 
Pilgrim inside the ship of my friends 
Happily ever ending never happened in the first place
The end is the beginning of trouble before my face...
I guess I was a disgrace...
An expired grace without a trace 
Under the surface of impatient waiting
Below the horizon of senseless debating

I hate it when people brag
I hate it when he rubs all his successes in my face 
I'm a wet, useless rag and I'm a computer that lags...I'm a worthless paper bag, left in the kitchen for what seems like decades of no-use times...life is a game of tag
I feel like you bred me with disgrace - you're the wild hog on your motorcycle...you zoomed off and I'm trying to keep pace with my heart beats...our love relationship was, all along, a competitive race

Swallow your pride
I'm going through a bipolar ride
Darkness swallows me like a dark tide
Step inside of the devil in my eyes...there, you'll find I wasn't the angel you laid eyes on...there's no where to hide the monster inside that's attacking what's in the outside...
Of...
Me...

Shame embraced me...you were a lost opportunity and a priceless possibility 
Where's the will to soar to pleasant lands?
Name of fame wasn't meant for me possibly...unfortunately...
Where do I land? In isolated islands? 

Is there a cure for loneliness?
Am I cute when I feel acute  misgivings? Why am I as enraged as Hulk? 
Why is you and I this miserable mess?
I'm angry because you rejected my helping hand...I'm depressed, but I wear the mask of mere cheer...I smile because I'm slightly happy...I'm glad I'm not in your shoes of sulk...

Too many times I bled out regret for you 
The hideous beautiful - you'll see it dimming anew
Rape me with rue and plant your seed in my mind's eye
Don't saturate me with your hatred and dread...feeding off of the debris of my loveless flu 

Woke up with a headache
I am caked with the sand of your lament lake 
Circle around me, shadows of the sun
Native American blood was shed here...the arrow of ancient time pierced me in the heart - so, put down your gun

I bit the bullet...you bite the bullet...have you met your end, debt? 
My joy jets fly on by below the horizon 
A good day to live and let die all of the sorrow and regret 
You don't see me cry above under you like the dusk dawn 

Bring me to heaven
Sad Raven, why so dark blue? 
Below the horizon
Sink in my words above your skin surface...find my other shoe...

Don't walk away
I'm a rain, transforming into a sunny day
I'm afraid everyday 
I sit down and obey

Masterbating to the fact that you have hurt me emotionally and sexually 
You fed me inner illumination and diseased me mentally...
Now, you're running away from the reality in disguise of a fantasy 
I'm suffering, you cannibal that eats up human happiness to the highest degree

I want freedom to get out of the chains of captivity 

Hell breaks loose in your hoarse voice
It's a bad day in California I'm afraid...we are different shade, so watch our relationship cascade 
Lately, my spirits were gliding in the prairies of your long-lost dreams, leaving you no room to rejoice
Rock and roll to my beat - you need an upgrade 

You dropped me off to school
You left me with jaded love
You took me as a fool
You are below the horizon, dove... 
You aren't a seagull...
All you say is bull! 
It's all said and done
I get it - I lost and you won

You and I aren't over,
So don't think I'll break it off with you
I am the flower and you, the clover
We work together as a team to higher our self-esteem to avoid feeling blue 

Strive to arrive on time in my classroom of tests and tribulations 
I will give you a complete guide to my heart's desire - Genesises to Revelations 
Suave sensations move me as my soul-at-ease heart pounds in my chest of I've-tried-my-best...
Say no more...holding my tongue of fire before it devours further - I was wired a weird way, so don't ruin my day...you friend and foe - or can I say pest?

What are you thinking about? 
Are you a screaming doubt and a child's pout?
I hear the downpour of your boohoo distress
I ignore it rebelliously with my teenage eustress 

Make love to the loveless
Feed the wealthy in heart 
Witnessed your mistakes that made you this miserable mess
I know why you're tearing apart

Puke out the bones of leave-me-alone's
Give me faith and do it again...do it again...you're my possession and my obsession 
I can't disobey you this time...I'll stay loyal to you...my troll fairy, my darling devil dearie 
Excuse me!? Don't say a word to me about your passions, a compare and contrast theory 

Judge me not, though I'm an absurd human being, alone in my herd
I dare you to tell me the truth about your past life - I won't spread it ear to ear (I won't spread rumors in other words) 
God is my shepherd and my voice will be heard...my words are of quality, not turd
I'll keep a secret as long as you tell me everything that's in your diary of personal stuff...have no fear, for God is here...God's Kingdom is near, my wandering-deer dear 

Naturally, living in fear and peace put together...I'm not feeling all the good, but doing somewhat better
Yet, God's spirit dives into me like a feather, caught in the breeze of a spiraling  weather 

Beaten...Betrayed...
Led astray...giving in to the abominations of my lustful life...a sick sin
Opinions swayed...
By facts, gone array and gone away by the wind of crooked doctrine

Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2016


Long poem by J.W. Earnings | Details

Inception: Trade Me Prosperity - Collab with Mikey part 4

Blossoming 
Effulgent sun proffers love 
Clambering… 
My brain makes me wonder if you remember the times shared
Back to the blessed times, I recall that you would listened, be worried about me, and, at the time, you cared
We’re running out of time again…
And I’m still searching for you – where have you gone?
Let our journeys of love begin – let’s welcome the sun…
Let the fire of desire burn on…I want to see you shine on…
Let this be our delightful dawn…
Now, I’m wondering where you have been…
I want to belong in your arms…
I don’t want to be deceived by evil charms
It alarms me to see you depart like the clouds during the gloomy morning
I catch a glimpse of you all of the sudden, mourning bitterly... Why are you forlorning?
Ascending
Above the undergrowth…of
Thorns and weeds
Your river of deceit leaks out… now, I can clearly see
Your true colors…you resurrected radiance in the eyes of millions…and you allowed me to escalate with ecstatic eagerness and enjoyment, much like a satisfied, well-watered tree…nurtured by sunlit glee 
I never thought that this all could be
You push me to become like all felons
Possibly, doubt slipped into my mind and traded me with prosperity in the hands of tragedy
Nothing can harm us...We're on the same bus…my misery and yours, together, weigh a trillion tons
You killed my trust and hope…and fed your twisted honesty
Our bittersweet chorus of lies and miseries sings its tune of tainted lullabies
Move on once again we must…or we’ll be targeted by calamity 
I know you hear me, but you ignored my silent cries…oh darling, how the time flies…
Oh please, darling angel, fix me, for I am a wrecked-up bicycle – never wave your 
Misery-laced goodbyes…cut it out before it devours us with utter distress!
For you, I am now saddened and try to untie myself from this mess…
As my love and hope for you slowly but surely dies,
Sift out the vile lies and don’t ask your whys
I still hear your wistful cries
You relied on the Lord of the Flies
And you engrossed him…now, he draws near to you because you enchanted him with your miraculous powers…I was spell-bound and gravity-bound in the chambers of alienation while you were showing off your capacities…I thought it cool until I saw your wicked ways…I was never wise, but a young fool! 
You say it’s a natural gift that’s used as a priceless, grand tool…but, now I know that YOU are so cruel 
Your wrongful sins – your mind can’t wrap itself around it…it still denies
As my racing thoughts keeps asking those ridiculous whys
I tried my hardest to protect you from your own mistakes…leave the past behind you
Don't let me go; please...I know our time is almost up
Don't cut me off...don't rage wars in your mind...suicidal fatality stuffed your mind with plastic relief...
It will bring grief upon us...so, don't say those words...
Tell me one thing before you go away forever leaving me in grief
I'm hanging on the branches...tomorrow is way too far away...let's embrace our young spirits
Like dying angels we fly away apart like birds
YOU shattered me with thoughtless words...the beat of your heart...is thumping so absurd...releasing herds (of distress and stress and pushing me back in my emotional mess)
You once were my heart’s dearest tune; now, my heart has turned into a prune
You're so far...yesterday's tomorrow shines on like a star...
I was the shining sun and you the beaming moon; soon, I will unwrap my fresh, majestic wings and soar straight out of my cocoon 
Furtively
The moon unravels wonders
Glimmering  
Dream on, wherever you are – I’m the dusk and you’re the dawn…where are you now? Have you driven to another lane, super fast car?
You once owned my mind and heart…I was smitten by your blessed breeze
Nightmares will fade and something else will allow us to be at ease 
He will, with a heart of love, heal your scar…that’s in the core of your heart…
You pushed me way too far – I tried to twinkle bright like your midnight star, but I broke apart
Right now, let's do what we should've started long ago
Give me a scar that I can show
We got right now...we're running out of time...go with the flow...of the blessed breeze...and be marinated in the sun's glow
To remind me to save myself from what I thought was bliss before we both must go
There's no use of crying nor is there any excuses for lying
In the back of my mind, I knew this day would come upon me – I was scared (out of my wits)
Now, I stand here like I always do, but my soul you have scarred (I was so unprepared…we were breaking bit by bit and we threw our childish fits)
Like nothing ever happened to me or you, 
You moved on and on with your life without ever thinking of me
I loathe the thought of you forgetting about me out of the blue
I’ve emphasized about what you’ve been through…why do you have to be so cruel?
You used me as an inadequate, worthless tool and you stepped all over me like a mat...my love fuel
That I’ve kindled just for you…burnt out due to discouragement and insecurity…
You will always be unforgotten in my memory…
It makes me upset to think about you leaving me broken…
I already know that you hardly ever think highly of me
No wonder you left me broken in streets of L.A. – I’m rotting like an ancient tree 
You left me to wither and grow rancid like a long forgotten tree with burden leaves, hanging on my limb-like branches that grow ecstatically for eternity
Withering away…like the day, bowing down to the night…I’m decaying ever more inside and outside
I have been corrupted and changed by you tears you have shed – I’ve been by your side; why are you so depressed? Why can’t I mend your shattered pride?

Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2014

Long poem by J.W. Earnings | Details

To Belong is a Harmonious Bravery

A sense of belonging Is amongst your nobility Peaceably, truly longing To give praise to You entirely Take me all the way with your sway of youth Give me physical poetry, please, beyond the truth You are more priceless than pennies from heaven You make me feel like seven times seven, my haven Raindrops from bitter clouds, soaring, Made me bite the bullet some more Golden crops grow in fields, exploring, Doubts are weeds to pull out for sure Sick of constant grieving Because you are leaving Stay, don’t stray Far too far away Felt your blues and want to make them brilliantly brighter I want your gravity to feel a lot less heavier, perhaps lighter Belong with blessings sevenfold I can tell your benevolently bold You wear the mask of shyness and modesty… I can see through it all through happiness and honesty… Express freely and do you times a million Even if we are miles away and you’re gone You’re near me and I feel somewhat cheerful now You place me in the high places of a pyramid – not as high as You You make me deal with trials with smiles somehow You gave me harmonious grace, Lord; thank you for the hello's you bid true Healing is a slow, strenuous, and delightfully painful as can be, Yet precious and miraculously beautiful…like a tranquil tree with me Swim in the mellow waters of who we used to really be, my baby, We will become are creatures of wisdom possibly, it’s such a possibility and an opportunity that can’t be missed, for it’s invincible with vulnerability of such vivacious vitality Belong…you and I will in no time, so no worries from time to time to its prime When It’s time, our love and affection will last everlastingly…guilt won’t overflow, but I will burn it away without a trace of looking back to the traffic of tribulations that we took part in in too many predicaments, don’t mind me and don’t think me odd, writing free-styling poetry with muses that reign over me overwhelmingly with oceans of emotions that pound me perseveringly with passion, yet it’s fulfilling me with perfect mistakes genuinely You are the honey to the bee, so sublime and your sweetness is a selfless crime… When It’s our turn to be together, lonesome will disappear and die away; vanish away, grief and vanity…give me a call to sweep me off my feet of fatiguing fatality-falling and freedom-failing faith…maybe, we will meet mind to mind and heart to heart unconditionally…spiritually feeling splendid with Agape Love of the true, pure definition of belonging frankly… You are everlasting in your loving-kindness once again, Father Your love is forevermore and will always be, unlike any other Remorse, temporarily, not forever…it won’t Worrying about it – I shouldn’t and I don’t Adore this hurt inside… Broken inside, nothing to hide This abandonment is making me a mad man, sorry to say Sorry, but I shall not feel sorry for your loss, but I will give you another chance, so don’t scorch away this chance flame I kindled for you…it sets aflame, my forgiveness that I have for you tonight and today with no more shedding of tears that are of pitiful dismay…once, I was led astray too, so please don’t give up and pray to Him for serenity during these hard times that we catch ourselves in in confusion and disarray…lived less than half a life without you, but better to be alone than neglected and ashamed, okay? But, mercy be upon you and I eternally Belong and you will crystal-clearly see Self-endurance that leaves us with scars of evanescence And it will leave us, rejoicing with roving reassurance, A remedy of bravery… Redemption from poverty Bring me zealous belonging and encouragement above you and me Belong with me and be one with me like God meant it to be greatly Two's better than one Three, with our Father of super love, God, Is a deal done times a ton Four's one too many, in unison, we nod We won the battle of bemusement We won negativity with amusement We are the ones who will belong, Even if we were in the right or wrong… I noticed you got unhappy, it’s uncanny that you’re oh so snappy I pray you smile away your frowns of loneliness, can’t help, but feel you Let me make you belong all the way, so let the Lord be by your side and be happy I want to walk your walk and I need to talk your talk day and night, that, too Belong sevenfold… With us two, Lord of Accord… These sins we committed, we can’t afford and this remorse is getting out of course and mixed, vexed emotions we hoard Protect us with Your shield and sword and motivate us towards certainty of integration and acceptance, despite the desertion of desires that punctured me with pain that is a knife in the brain, A strife times a thousand that we dealt with all our life – I fought back stronger and might as well be considered insane, but we are stronger than we realize, we are not alone and we are not a failure – a success behind closed doors…stabbed with loathe and hardships, but we spill out blood for the sake of belonging in everyone's heart train………… Belong and rise from the disheartening drain…

Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2018

Long poem by J.W. Earnings | Details

Leaning on a Failure Mentality

 {intro}
You keep-you keep-you keep flying,
Though I’m honestly crying…...weeping…..sighing…..
Extra careful not to snip your heart strings
Tattoo your tune in my heart that pleasurably stings
Pain is what I need not to inflict myself with – just what if…
This love affair was all but a reality with a mask of mischief?

{verse 1}
My mind is on a different channel…
Like an engine’s stereo on a bizarre radio station
I place my tiresome feet on the panel…
A fraction of your satisfaction is my motivation
Make a box house for you and I to be in…it won’t be snowed under anymore, the one I adore
We will be in the same roof, together as one if you know what I mean
You are the fox and I am your box, so build me up cleverly, not tear me down to the utter core
You melt me like butter on a hot potato, letting out all sorts of steam

{refrain}
Hopeless romance
Won’t help me at all
I am in this dance prance
Standing tall, but I fall
Enhance my success mentality 
Enchanted by the opposites attracting
Leaning on failure has its fatality 
Why am I overreacting? Under-thinking? 

{chorus}
I’m angry at myself…for giving up so easily
Why do I get ticked off? He said it teasingly…
But, I get offended because I’m sensitive…
I take things far too seriously…but I stay attentive…
My mind constantly active…
My fingers are responsive…
To the vibes of typing on a keyboard
Getting my feet off of leaning-on-failure dashboard

{verse 2}
It’s all my fault…but I’m looking for a better week when I’m energetic
For putting you through all this unnecessary stress
I’m the one to blame, but I’m frail, weak and tired, so be gentle and therapeutic
I’m making progress by picking up my own mess

{refrain}
Hopeless romance
Won’t help me at all
I am in this dance prance
Standing tall, but I fall
Enhance my success mentality 
Enchanted by the opposites attracting
Leaning on failure has its fatality 
Why am I overreacting? Under-thinking? 

{chorus}
I’m angry at myself…for giving up so easily
Why do I get ticked off? He said it teasingly…
But, I get offended because I’m sensitive…
I take things far too seriously…but I stay attentive…
My mind constantly active…
My fingers are responsive…
To the vibes of typing on a keyboard
Getting my feet off of leaning-on-failure dashboard

{verse 3}
Getting a hold of myself before I bend and break
I don’t wanna burst into flames and call you vile names
So, I keep still, for healing is nearby to rescue me from this chaos doubts
Silence whispers in my ears that are eager to hear of your whereabouts

{refrain}
Hopeless romance
Won’t help me at all
I am in this dance prance
Standing tall, but I fall
Enhance my success mentality 
Enchanted by the opposites attracting
Leaning on failure has its fatality 
Why am I overreacting? Under-thinking? 

{chorus}
I’m angry at myself…for giving up so easily
Why do I get ticked off? He said it teasingly…
But, I get offended because I’m sensitive…
I take things far too seriously…but I stay attentive…
My mind constantly active…
My fingers are responsive…
To the vibes of typing on a keyboard
Getting my feet off of leaning-on-failure dashboard

{verse 4}
My mind has gone another route it seems
God is good to me always
Jesus Christ was crucified on the cross for our sins and broken dreams
Broken by the seams these days

{bridge}
However,
I’m not finished yet
With this journey of on-and-on-and-on-I-GO
Why am I regretting being upset?
Is it my fault that we don’t have the same flow?

{refrain}
Hopeless romance
Won’t help me at all
I am in this dance prance
Standing tall, but I fall
Enhance my success mentality 
Enchanted by the opposites attracting
Leaning on failure has its fatality 
Why am I overreacting? Under-thinking? 

{chorus}
I’m angry at myself…for giving up so easily
Why do I get ticked off? He said it teasingly…
But, I get offended because I’m sensitive…
I take things far too seriously…but I stay attentive…
My mind constantly active…
My fingers are responsive…
To the vibes of typing on a keyboard
Getting my feet off of leaning-on-failure dashboard
Getting my feet off of leaning-on-failure dashboard
Getting my-getting my-getting my-
Getting my feet off of leaning-on-failure dashboard
Getting my feet off of leaning-on-failure dashboard
Getting my feet off of leaning-on-failure dashboard
Getting my feet off of leaning-on-failure dashboard
Getting my-getting my-getting my-
Getting my feet off of leaning-on-failure dashboard
Getting my feet off of leaning-on-failure dashboard

{coda}
We aren’t on the same demented boat as I have soon come to realize
We were on the same page at one point…now, comes the distress
You hypnotized me by your jam on the radio before my ears and eyes
What’s the point of trying when trying leaves me dying in success?
I keep-I keep-I keep trying
Though, I’m frankly dying…denying the fact that you have…landed from your flying…

Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2016

Long poem by J.W. Earnings | Details

SO Far Away

I Stumble Upon My
Words – I’m
speechless
We were so far away
from each
other…I-I-I’m one
with
r-regret…f-feeling
incomplete…
I thought our love
was as worthless as
the debris…
You smoked me out
like a cigarette…and
y-you left me on the
filthy, messed-up
street…
I thought your kind
of “freedom” would
set us free…
From the rusty
chains, placed in
captivity…

I’ll find a way to
get you back for
another few years
But, I’d be
lying…don’t bottle
up the tears…
Talk with me, for we
are by each other’s
side…the words
escape my chapped
lips
We were so far
apart; now, we’re
both trying to get
our grips…
I thought your kind
of “freedom” would
set us free…
From the rusty
chains, not even
close to vitality 

We were so far away
from each
other…I-I-I’m one
with
r-regret…f-feeling
incomplete…
I thought our love
was as worthless as
the debris…
You smoked me out
like a cigarette…and
y-you left me on the
filthy, messed-up
street…
Do you realize how
much pain you’ve
caused me?
We all wanted love,
but for the wrong
reasons…
Our relationship
changed like seasons
to seasons
I thought your kind
of “freedom” would
set us free…
From the rusty
chains that puts our
crazed hearts on a
leash...living in
misery...

We exchange
passionate, graceful
looks...I don’t know
what I’m fighting
for
Lonely & insecure
like the wolf, jaded
by his pack
heartlessly
Blindly walking the
road of recovery…I
need something to
live for…and more…
We all want you back
– we were all in
agreement, seeking
freedom eagerly
I thought your kind
of “freedom” would
set us free…
From the rusty
chains, beildered to
the extreme...here
shall e flee? 

We were so far away
from each
other…I-I-I’m one
with
r-regret…f-feeling
incomplete…
I thought our love
was as worthless as
the debris…
You smoked me out
like a cigarette…and
y-you left me on the
filthy, messed-up
street…
Do you realize how
much pain you’ve
caused me?
We all wanted love,
but for the wrong
reasons…
Our relationship
changed like seasons
to seasons
I thought your kind
of “freedom” would
set us free…
From the rusty
chains - I'm rotting
like a starved tree 

I’ll find a way to
get you back for
another few
years…I’d do
anything to have you
cuddle with me in
the blankets of
benevolent adoration
But, I’d be lying to
myself…don’t bottle
up the tears…don’t
cower away, getting
picked on by
countless fears and
nightmares…I’ll try
not to collapse into
the ditch of
frustration
Blindly walking the
road of recovery…I
need something to
live for…and more…
We all want you back
– we were all in
agreement…we yearned
for liberty…but
change is a
challenging chore!
I thought your kind
of “freedom” would
set us free…
From the rusty
chains...or e'll be
spellbound for
eternity

We were so far away
from each
other…I-I-I’m one
with
r-regret…f-feeling
incomplete…
I thought our love
was as worthless as
the debris…
You smoked me out
like a cigarette…and
y-you left me on the
filthy, messed-up
street…
Do you realize how
much pain you’ve
caused me?
We all wanted love,
but for the wrong
reasons…
Our relationship
changed like seasons
to seasons
I thought your kind
of “freedom” would
set us free…
From the rusty
chains - don't
mention our
fatality...our
unfortunate reality
that bos don to
tragedy like slaves
to their
master...hat a
pity...pity...
 
Whisper in my ears,
for I trust every
word that you utter
as long as you
remain faithful to
me and be loyal and
honest, friend…the
words escape my
chapped lips
We were so far apart
long ago; now, we’re
both trying to get
our grips…
We exchange
heartfelt, friendly
bear hugs...now, I
know what I’m
stronger than I
realize
I was once lonely &
insecure like a
weeping wolf, jaded
by his pack suddenly
I thought your kind
of “freedom” would
set us free…
From the rusty
chains...I feel
guilty for loving
you ith plastic love
rapped around my
heart...ith ruby
delight and golden
revenge ith a
sprinkle of sugar
and spice...no, I'm
figuring out ho to
get out of my on
maze, so graze in
your on maze, my
fallen angel of
Lamentation & the
aftershocks of
it...it's not that
pretty...believe
me...me...

Our pride and
confidence will
passed away at some
degree
Do you realize how
much pain you’ve
caused me?
We all wanted love,
but for the wrong
reasons…
I’m trying to get
over you…I must
forgive you
willingly
B-but, our
relationship changed
like seasons to
seasons
I Can’t Fathom The
Thought of you in
distress
You promised
perpetual “freedom”
that ould bring us
the Promise Land
I'm laying don in
ashes of
disheartening
regret...this
feeling of remorse
is not that
grand...don't you
understand my side
of the story? Do you
kno here I stand? I
NEED GOD'S HELPING
HAND...

Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2014

Long poem by J.W. Earnings | Details

Odder Than Odd Itself

Where did you go?
I want you to know
That I love you so, 
But I got to get up and roam
Due to being far from home 

Oh, I hear them...and feel them...

I hear the echoes of silence
Underneath my withering skin
I trace it all away...I pray
I will will it all away today

I wonder in shining displeasure 

Don't desert me
Don't just leave it all behind
You don't deserve it
You're a word I cannot find

I smell the smoke of anguish 
I want to will it all away
I smell the blood on your hands... it's fishy, but do what you wish

Well, that was odder than expected

I roam in a world I know not of
Fell asleep on the bench of love
Wishing for words of pure wisdom 
Wishing for His upcoming Kingdom 

I am an empty bone 
In a wasteland unknown

I hear you in the claws of the meadows
I can even feel you, crawling in the shadows
Tasted the fury on my tongue of poetic prose
Above the wreckage appears to lie a wilted rose

I smell the aroma of avarice's angst 
I gave up my life for you without a thanks!
You're welcome to your selfish silence
You're welcome to your utter ignorance 

Hate this desire that is fire beneath my skin 
There's this certain coldness I feel once again
Alone and on my own in the wilderness of woes and lies
Unknown chaos got us caught up in this rut of goodbyes

Envy wraps around my neck 
It tries to hurt me, I, the wreck
For its sick pleasure and sake...
This nightmare will vanish, but will I awake?

No where to flee
Just chase to the cut -
We need to be free
From this heartless rut

I wish I could simply bid
These woes a farewell 
Wondering where you hid
Perhaps in your lone cell

Tired of being a deflated baloon
Be gone by the time it's afternoon 
Soon, you'll belong somewhere new like a traveling fish in a lagoon
Away from my delightful tune... don't be as bitter as a dried-up prune

Can't you taste it?
The vanities and lies and a faith that dries
That twist and turn as it sees fit?
Dry off your tears, rolling off your eyes 

I revealed my reality to you
My dear, this, I did so true
Yet, you don't believe me one bit
Well, there's no use, throwing a fit

Where did you end up at?
You're the cat that chased off the rat
Like it or not, I'm not coming back
Unless I change my mind and get on track

Can't fathom
What I've become
Harmless and shapeless
Regardless of your shameless...
Darksome distress 
That leaves me breathless -
Your emptiness...
Your gravity of worry
Brought me down...
Weighed me down...
You don't seem to care
I frown and smile as I dare

Something's missing
Beyond these cold-stone walls
I've lost it all, kissing
Your echoes of unspoked calls

Can't sugarcoat this regret...that piles up like debt 
You were mine just before you jaded me
You were in town with my hopeful, friendly outlet 
I won't let inner ugliness ruin my beauty 

That's odd that you let me down so easily
That's odd that you painted me a frown
That's as odd as a toad in the sky frankly
Also, like a bird in the water, way down 

Hope our time doesn't come to waste
Fingers crossed that happiness within 
Doesn't arrive undone in a horrid haste
If that was so, my hopes are paper-thin 

Wait, hold on for a while...move on...till you can no longer move on 
I'll fight the urge to cry when we see each other 
Sending all these mindless sheep to the slaughter dusk to dawn 
My daily muses backstabs me unlike any other

I'm stronger than a few years back 
There's so much in us that we lack
Echo words of empathy,
But it's not enough sadly...

I understand where you're coming from
But, I must roam home before I grow numb
Insecure in vain, I got to catch my train to leave temporarily 
Forever frozen in fate's fatality, but that's my scary reality

I wish I was that someone, not me
You hope I'd be done, spiralling in sunshine's rays of no-worry
Well, I'm not done
So, get over it, hon

And I'm so done searching for you endlessly
I just wanted you to know you're on your own
Love you, but not the things you do thoughtlessly 
I already arrived home to my relief, never alone

I will cast away your pain in your brain that is an insane rain, opposite of a craving you can't abstain - it is but a small grain or an unnoticeable stain...or a single raindrop, going down the drain...

Well, that's something far from unknown
A mystery solved, a well-fixed backbone 
I keep on praying for you to heal up fast
God will mend and forgive your past
It will be hard to forget, but it won't last...

Where have you been? 
Have you gone again?
Can't stand being left alone
Deserted and on my own
Yes, I can be odder than odd itself
I encourage you to just be yourself
But, no one promised it was going to be easy
Sorry if I'm coming across as being cheesy

Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2018

Long poem by J.W. Earnings | Details

Chapter 2: Held Down - a Poetry Voyage

It’s complicated…
I’m the king of jealousy
Keep me up
I’m held down

Rumors are like the watery triangle of nasty errors… 
(Aphradere waterfalls fall on us)
My black and white future is full of grey blurs 
(Remember, we are on each other's bus)
Efforts and hard work got me where I am – 
I am mature and trying to find new cures
For you, me and everyone else

You are a selfish, senseless liar 
You pushed me in the fire
Aquatic hatred can’t cover love
Love covers all sins 
I can or can’t think of 
Well, duh, I’m sassy pants 
My irritation could happen so fast
Due to frustration from the past

You gave me desire
Despise me not
I came on too excited and tumbled over my empire
I have sass and I am fab,
So don’t worry much bout me
So don’t hurry up or slow down…
Make me feel even with myself…
Balance good from evil…I am on level eleven in your maze of bewilderment…

Just run and run in the narrow path
I’m an encouraging empath
I won’t fire up in utter wrath
I bet you noticed there’s a similarity between Language Arts and Math

It’s complicated…
I’m the king of jealousy
Keep me up
I’m held down

You are a selfish, senseless liar 
You pushed me in the fire
Hatred can’t cover love
Love covers all sins 
I can or can’t think of 
Well, duh, I’m sassy pants 
My irritation could happen so fast
Due to frustration from the past

The kill of karma is my thrill of aw's
I’m a king of the wealthy applause 
Claustrophobia and social anxiety
Is taken over me frankly…tremendously

It’s complicated…
I’m the coolsauce 
“King of creativity”

It’s complicated…
I’m the king of jealousy
Keep me up
I’m held down

You are a selfish, senseless liar 
You pushed me in the fire
Hatred can’t cover love
Love covers all sins 
I can or can’t think of 
Well, duh, I’m sassy pants 
My irritation could happen so fast
Due to frustration from the past

I’ve been walkin' and talkin' and I’m simply rockin', amazin'
I’ve given myself up to the muses of music…
It’s dazzling and incredible…I get oh so stimulating adrenalin
Rap: Do it again…do it…do it again – held down as if I’m the lunatic and you’re some sweet, special angel or an arrogant, yet ardent savior…you are so therapeutic – make out with my sarcasm of who we used to be…I’m trying to make out why you left me cold in the streets – so wicked and epic……….

Compromise
And be wise
Behave 
Be brave 
It’s complicated…
I’m the coolsauce 
“King of creativity”
Keep me up
I’m held down
Keep me up
Keep me up
Till I had enough
Keep me up
Till I had enough
It’s complicated…
I’m the coolsauce 
“King of creativity”

Appreciate, please don’t hate…anticipate where we are…
A road to the unknown – soon to be an award for all 
Accept who you are delightfully and reject your head's scar
Just don’t drag me down…mindblown, but I ain’t down and I will not fall
Into your level of many-a frown up in this time-obsessed town 
It’s a slow-paced, intelligently, and fatality-like reality, 
So my fantastic fantasy unwinds my mind simultaneously

Hopefully, I fall in love immediately and sincerely
I’m still hopelessly searching…still searching…
I give in to giving up..that’s what’s up! 
I need to let God choose the one for me
Sick of hastily and emotionally hurting…
I give up and leave it in God's good hands..that’s what’s up! 

I don’t want to be descending from my puny ascension
Don’t hold me low, you know? 
Don’t want to be in diving in your doubtful dissention 
You’re alright and I’m alright, okay? 

I already observed it by your eyes and sighs
I wish I can start ascending your lows and highs
Who knows what will happen – I rely on His eyes
Dad said I need to reap what I sow…deny the lies…

Rap: Don’t bring me down on the ground, all alone…I have done filthy crimes
I am…yes, I am guilty and really sorry 
I’m not on my own luckily, God saved my life a million times
It’s complicated…should I explain my long story?

Fine then…give me a call…don’t care about my ego or reputation like you do 
Might as well tell them all and rumors will ultimately spread like wildfires do

That I saw the excellent crown and it got me feeling glee – 
So, crown me as “King of creativity” right now and later, you’ll be happy

Hello? Waiting for your reply
None…relatable to almost everyone
Ugh, whatever…okay, goodbye…
Are you gone, hon? Wake up hours after dawn! 

Are we both above or still below the surface
The horizon is horrendously beautiful nonetheless 
Don’t go into the deepest oceans
Instead, tell me your negative emotions
I want to replace them here and there
Let God mend your wounds of feeling worthless just a hair

I reckon I am the “King of Understanding”,
Not just creativity and misunderstanding…

Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2018

Long poem by J.W. Earnings | Details

Titaniumb

Don’t you feel it, pounding in my chest? 
I’m trying my best to pass this difficult test
Life is hard, I know; I’ve been chained to my solitary, deserted pit and I’ve been feeling awfully numb for so long

Are you still left behind? 
Thanks for being so kind…I’m so sorry for being crazy in love and blind…
I bit into the apple of good and evil
Now, tell me, honey – am I your angel or devil?

Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
This titanium heart of mine beats for you alone…

My steel heartbeats sound like a drums in the middle of the night
I will stand tall and bold like a knight…I will the good fight
Where art thou? Where art thou, my darling angel of dazzling light?
Have you tasted the love I have tucked in my…heart of titanium?
Now, tell me, honey before I get off track– am I your angel or devil?
You were my friend, courageous and strong
Determination seeps through my mind
I sweat a river…don’t cry a river for me…I wrote this song
For you alone…thank the Lord of Accord I’m not blind

Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
This titanium heart of mine beats for you alone…

I’m afraid I might lose control…
The evil blood cells are crawling in my veins of pure vitality 
YOU USED ME AS A USELESS TOOL
You’re driving me into a lane of insanity… kissing my sweet fatality 
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night

Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
This titanium heart of mine beats for you alone…

Are you still left behind? There’s more future in store
I bit into the apple of good and evil…I am wicked and week…now, I’m acting like a pill
Thanks for being so kind…I’m so sorry for acting like an attention whore
Now, tell me, honey before I get off track– am I your angel or devil?
You were my friend, courageous and strong
Determination seeps through my mind
I sweat a river…don’t cry a river for me…I wrote this song
For you alone…thank the Lord of Accord I’m not blind

Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
This titanium heart of mine beats for you alone…

Are you still left behind? 
Thanks for being so kind…
I bit into the apple of good and evil
Now, tell me, honey – am I your angel or devil?
I committed the sin…
I blame it on the temptation from deep within
I don’t feel good in my own skin
Where art thou? Where have you been?
I was as tough as titanium…and I’m weak as the victim,
Getting targeted by the predator…oh no, here we go again…

Take flight, mesmerizing dove! Reach to your heavenly haven
You’re not as dark and bitter as a raven…
You are forgiven and you abide in the illuminated night
You are never forgotten in this mind of mine…you’re my sundrenched sight
This titanium heart of mine beats for you alone…

Don’t you feel it, pounding in my chest? 
I’m trying my best to pass this difficult test
Life is hard, I know; I’ve been chained to my solitary, deserted pit and I’ve been feeling awfully numb for so long
Screaming at the top of my lungs… please, please help me and I’ll give you the rest
Of the rare love that I have tucked in my…heart of steel and titanium…but where do I belong? I don‘t know the difference between right and wrong
Don’t you feel it, pounding in my chest? 
I’m trying my best to pass this difficult test
Life is hard, I know; I’ve been chained to my solitary, deserted pit and I’ve been feeling awfully numb for so long

Now, I’m feeling awfully numb
Well, I kept trying
Though I was frankly dying
I’m sick of your lying
Dry your tears – stop that crying 

Don’t you feel it, pounding in my chest? 
I’m trying my best to pass this difficult test
Life is hard, I know; I’ve been chained to my solitary, deserted pit and I’ve been feeling awfully numb for so long

Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2014

Long poem by J.W. Earnings | Details

Drinker's Doom in Sobriety's Sanctuary

Your drinker's doom
Turned out to be a tranquil tomb
Is there any room
To bring out your brilliant, legitimate bloom?

You linger around my restful haven,
My darksome and lonesome, yet pretty satisfying bedroom
You stared at me vacantly and brazen
Like a obnoxious, prideful alcoholic, oblivious of his doom

Exhausted and excited to see you accidentally come and go, so I’m going to and fro 
It’s exhilarating, yet humiliating to go with society's so-called normality flow – give me time to grow
Mesmerized by the moments we shared and separated with cares, centuries ago 
In general, I feel like I am a single grain of sand in the sea, caught in the current of the shore's blow

Skulls and bones symbolism keeps me safe and shelters me entirely from the grieving process
Because I will appreciate death and life, going through the sullen struggles, not always a success 
I embrace the passing away of a physical loved one with open arms and watch them swarm 
My mentality will be marked with motivation, not meaning to hurt anyone and do any harm 

You hypnotized me haphazardly with your sympathy symphony 
I have freely lifted from the ground of gigantic gravity
Nothing’s going to bring me down, so don’t even try to do so or I will grow shy 
Happiness is something I can’t deny…unless you take it away from me and lead me astray in pitiful prosperity 
There are no reasons to doubt or fear…the only cry you’ll hear is my joyful cry 
Ensnarement brings me bewilderment beyond belief – relieve the brief grief and let me see my true destiny…
I have nearly saved you from your demise-stricken fatality 
You finally realized the world is wickedly insidious…practically…

You keep getting distracted and drastically dazed by the mere bottom of your blasted liquor mug
Keep your hungry, drunken eyes on me and sober up extremely
You think I’m an inadequate, insignificant individual? I’m more than a shrug and a friend to hug
I am your considerate friend that stuck by your side perpetually 

I admit it – I don’t always run the extra mile
I am a flimsy, forgetful person once in a while
It is really obvious that you act more frivolous these wild and war-struck days
You don’t act genius when you pretend you are better than I am in many ways
You deserve better things than me, plus a life of happiness and endless success
Can’t I earn something beneficially significant and authentically elegant? 
I already learned a million lessons the hard way and changed for personal progress 
What you want from me? What are your motives? To stomp on me like an ant..

Don’t drag me down with your hopeless hatred towards you and others
You used to bring the good out of me when we were young and like brothers
Now, you threw me out into the garbage bin like a stained, ruined rag
Somehow, you’ll understand that life is not just a game of childish tag

Someday, you will be caught for being a thief of hearts and broken promises
It’s okay, I have built strength to fight away the fright that hangs me by my toes
I have pushed the limits to the brink and dipped my feet in your iced-up, fiery passion
Your desire towards a far greater and happier tomorrow seems like mere interaction…
Interaction without the ardent action in anticipation 
Is simply naught in my yesterday's yearning fascination 
Replace the remorseful angst and return to me salvation….
A surreal sensation, I will wear like a backpack without hesitation 

You made me feel at peace with your fearless refuge, (thankful you sobered up thoughtfully)
So thank you for giving me the unconditional courage (linger around my comfort zone boldly)

You’re fixated on my free-falls and the aftermath of its downfalls…it’s offensive and irksome, pardon my soul that’s sensitive...in need of spiritual, vast grace
I’m like a paranoid, protective priest, shouting words of wisdom triumphantly – time leaves you in a haste, but His wise Word isn’t, ever, a waste of space

You were aware you hurt others with your hopeless, heartless actions you somewhat senselessly do 
You were aware I was awfully scared for your safety's sake – mortified by corruption's consumption
Don’t drink away your issues and sipping the liquids' blue – the horrid past, you cannot candidly undo
Sorry for assuming the worst in you, but the best in you will shine through without any interruption

Copyright © J.W. Earnings | Year Posted 2018

Long Poems