Odder Than Odd Itself

Where did you go? I want you to know That I love you so, But I got to get up and roam Due to being far from home Oh, I hear them...and feel them... I hear the echoes of silence Underneath my withering skin I trace it all away...I pray I will will it all away today I wonder in shining displeasure Don't desert me Don't just leave it all behind You don't deserve it You're a word I cannot find I smell the smoke of anguish I want to will it all away I smell the blood on your hands... it's fishy, but do what you wish Well, that was odder than expected I roam in a world I know not of Fell asleep on the bench of love Wishing for words of pure wisdom Wishing for His upcoming Kingdom I am an empty bone In a wasteland unknown I hear you in the claws of the meadows I can even feel you, crawling in the shadows Tasted the fury on my tongue of poetic prose Above the wreckage appears to lie a wilted rose I smell the aroma of avarice's angst I gave up my life for you without a thanks! You're welcome to your selfish silence You're welcome to your utter ignorance Hate this desire that is fire beneath my skin There's this certain coldness I feel once again Alone and on my own in the wilderness of woes and lies Unknown chaos got us caught up in this rut of goodbyes Envy wraps around my neck It tries to hurt me, I, the wreck For its sick pleasure and sake... This nightmare will vanish, but will I awake? No where to flee Just chase to the cut - We need to be free From this heartless rut I wish I could simply bid These woes a farewell Wondering where you hid Perhaps in your lone cell Tired of being a deflated baloon Be gone by the time it's afternoon Soon, you'll belong somewhere new like a traveling fish in a lagoon Away from my delightful tune... don't be as bitter as a dried-up prune Can't you taste it? The vanities and lies and a faith that dries That twist and turn as it sees fit? Dry off your tears, rolling off your eyes I revealed my reality to you My dear, this, I did so true Yet, you don't believe me one bit Well, there's no use, throwing a fit Where did you end up at? You're the cat that chased off the rat Like it or not, I'm not coming back Unless I change my mind and get on track Can't fathom What I've become Harmless and shapeless Regardless of your shameless... Darksome distress That leaves me breathless - Your emptiness... Your gravity of worry Brought me down... Weighed me down... You don't seem to care I frown and smile as I dare Something's missing Beyond these cold-stone walls I've lost it all, kissing Your echoes of unspoked calls Can't sugarcoat this regret...that piles up like debt You were mine just before you jaded me You were in town with my hopeful, friendly outlet I won't let inner ugliness ruin my beauty That's odd that you let me down so easily That's odd that you painted me a frown That's as odd as a toad in the sky frankly Also, like a bird in the water, way down Hope our time doesn't come to waste Fingers crossed that happiness within Doesn't arrive undone in a horrid haste If that was so, my hopes are paper-thin Wait, hold on for a while...move on...till you can no longer move on I'll fight the urge to cry when we see each other Sending all these mindless sheep to the slaughter dusk to dawn My daily muses backstabs me unlike any other I'm stronger than a few years back There's so much in us that we lack Echo words of empathy, But it's not enough sadly... I understand where you're coming from But, I must roam home before I grow numb Insecure in vain, I got to catch my train to leave temporarily Forever frozen in fate's fatality, but that's my scary reality I wish I was that someone, not me You hope I'd be done, spiralling in sunshine's rays of no-worry Well, I'm not done So, get over it, hon And I'm so done searching for you endlessly I just wanted you to know you're on your own Love you, but not the things you do thoughtlessly I already arrived home to my relief, never alone I will cast away your pain in your brain that is an insane rain, opposite of a craving you can't abstain - it is but a small grain or an unnoticeable stain...or a single raindrop, going down the drain... Well, that's something far from unknown A mystery solved, a well-fixed backbone I keep on praying for you to heal up fast God will mend and forgive your past It will be hard to forget, but it won't last... Where have you been? Have you gone again? Can't stand being left alone Deserted and on my own Yes, I can be odder than odd itself I encourage you to just be yourself But, no one promised it was going to be easy Sorry if I'm coming across as being cheesy