Long poem by
Gerald Dillenbeck | Details
"In the unmanifest [timeless (0)-soul] dimension, the ground of [eco-syntax] Being--that perfect, empty no-place [holder "Zero"] where there is only absolute stillness--you could say that God [Timeless Eternity] is peace.
Before the universe [spacetime] was born, resting in that state of [timeless] perfection and ease, it could not have been more [or less] peaceful, because nothing [potentiating everything spaciated] had yet occurred.
But when [timelessness co-arising into "Time"] God decided to become, to take form [in-form OVER ex-form co-gravitational function] this whole process of [universal through personal] creation and destruction, friction and emergence, was set in[carnationally] motion [ionic and ergodic and thermodynamic eco-balancing toward spaciating, then speciating, then individual egoing, then global ecoing struggling with our co-arising Win-Win co-creation].
That is what you are, that is what I am, and that is also the nature of [bicameral Polynomial Time Left dominant over recessive NotPolynomial timeless informing] God, in the manifest realm [Special Case, physical-ecosystemic Exterior Landscape as languaged by egosystemic metaphysical mindbody Interior Landscape, co-arising as co-gravitating].
What does this new understanding of God have to do with love [synergy of life-systems]? This is an important question, because the common [Business As Usual Left-brain dominant] idea is that love [Left] is God [Right], and God [Left] is [pulsating diastatic-pos OVER diastolic-neg] love [Right].
...to many of us, spiritual [natural] love [synergy] means compassion, forgiveness, [co-redemption as co-gravitation] and unconditional [bicameral] acceptance.
That is one kind of love. But that kind of love is the expression of God [Yang, in balancing precessive stage, toward Win-Win diastasis] as Being--the reflection of the mystical revelation that everything is already [potentially and coincidentally, coexperientially] perfect.
What happens to love when God becomes the [r]evolutionary impulse, or ["struggling with"] Eros?
That's the emergence of a very different form of love [synergetic precessive dynamic]--the expression of God as [Yang optimized Continuous Quality Improvement, Positive Evolutionary Psychology] Becoming.
In an evolutionary worldview, God's [therapeutic messianic] purpose is perpetual development [of health and beauty, goodness and truth], or vertical [ly therapeutic] ascent.
So in this context, the expression of the greatest love is an insistence on higher [eco] development.
It is not the kind of love that's going to accept you as you [ego-centrically Left-brain too-dominantly] are.
It's a kind of love that always wants more [co-investment value in health], and is therefore always challenging to the [overly competitive] status quo of the personal ego and the [eco]culturally [de]conditioned self.
No matter how far you have come, there will always be farther to go [into (0)-interest economic and politically regenerative system incarnation].
This love [synergetic integrity of ecosystemic memory] is infused with [r]evolutionary tension, and it generates [co]-creative [fractal] friction.
The idea of God as [co-diastatic experience and memory of octave truth as beauty] peace and Love [of beauty and health] as [synergetic] compassion is an ancient ideal, one that took root in the human [bicameral] heart and mind long before the [comprehensively polyparadigmatic] knowledge of [Taoist-TippingPoint-Balance as Revolution] evolution emerged.
While it remains as powerful and as relevant ever, [sic] this idea of [Time as spaciated, then speciated, universal positive ubiquitous energy] God is only half of the picture. Now we understand the nature of [Time] God to be both [yinyin (-,-)] Being and [Yang+Polynomial] Becoming, [co-arising ZenZero] emptiness and [co-gravitational of mythic romantic resonance] Eros.
And discovering what God [Eco-Spaciated Time] as Eros actually looks like and feels like within [Interior eco-messianic Landscaped Bicameral] us and between [bicameral] us is new territory.
When you embrace this [r]evolutionary interpretation of who and what [and why] God is [stimulating dialectical bicameral eco-balance], then you realize that yes, God is love [synergetic integrity of ecosystemic Win-Win memory] but love is a dynamic and dramatic will toward higher [Earth-centric co-] emergence.
It is [EarthyHuman natural-organic dialectic-systemic] God trying to evolve, through you and through me, and most importantly, through us. "
["us" = all Earth's RNA/DNA health v. pathology struggling toward positive optimization of regenerative eco-systems within cooperative universally synergetic TransParent timeless fractal-networking RealTime Win-Win Group (0)-Soul Geometrics of MindBodies as Time (-,-)1 = Space +/(-,-)0-Cubed, bicamerally reversed as +1/(-,-)0 Ego/Eco Deduct/Induct as Inhale/Exhale reverse of time's seasonal unfolding, pregenitors predicting their progenitor dipolar appositionals.]
Copyright © Gerald Dillenbeck | Year Posted 2015
Long poem by
PoetPrentice Dupins | Details
I remember waking up to the melodious sound of my mother singing happy birthday,
the aroma of bacon and pancakes wandering through the hall, invading my nostrils,
my sister having no regard for my annual celebration and continuing her annoyance,
and my father, toiling with twigs and meddling in the meadow beyond our house.
He was a British bailiff in my imaginary kingdom of weeds and lilies.
I remember hearing the plans for my birthday shindig. I never fully understood the operations of how it would come about. I was just assured it would be fun.
I remember driving to Chuck E. Cheese and listening to the radio. The weather would be foul and traffic would abound was the report the DJ gave.
We entered the land of worry-free kids with distressed parents and I remember the sound of kids yelling and the sound of arcade games with its alluring music and sound effects. With every Zap! Zing! Blinnnnggg! and Blammmm! My heart fluttered with growing excitement!
I remember taking several photos as if I were a model. My face was sore from the fake smiling.
I remember seeing my cake on the long, decorated table. It was a chocolate cake with triple fudge icing. There were Batman plates with SpiderMan cups strategically placed on the long table and there was a sign by the cake for all my presents.
I remember being given a certain number of tokens to play the arcade games. My mother told me, “don’t spend it all on one game because that’s all you’ll get. We have to save tokens for your friends when they show.” As a momma’s boy, I know mother knows best, but sometimes it’s best mother doesn’t know. There’s an unforgettable pain when you see your hero helpless and crying.
I remember having a “prodigal son” moment and spending all my tokens on one arcade game defending the earth from zombies!
They say time flies when you’re having fun. It was time to eat. I remember approaching that long, inviting table and seeing my mother on her phone talking with her hand over her forehead as if she had a headache. She became visibly upset and I thought maybe she found out I ran out of tokens saving the world from the apocalypse.
She walked up to me and said, “We’re going to have a good party no matter what. You hear me?” I was confused, yet relieved I wasn’t in trouble.
We sat down at the long table, ate pizza, and began stabbing my cake with burning candles. My family was unusually overly excited for me, almost as if they were trying to compensate for something. Patronizing wasn’t a word in my head back then but the response to it was.
As we huddled around the cake, I remember how my weeping mother sang happy birthday. She did not sound like the morning song, rather like a stressed-out parent in a place for distressed parents.
Zap. Boom. Bam. Bing. Other families around us gathered in bliss.
We ate in a deafening silence.
I finally asked, “when are my friends coming so we can save the world?” My sister just walked me over to the zombies with no explanation.
Time dragged on.
I remember feeling like a won the lottery because I was given more tokens than I could imagine.
I remember winning all the games I played. I remember finally saving the world.
I remember eating more pizza and cake than I could stomach.
I remember the dullness of playing by myself. I had become the zombie and this obligatory observation was my killer.
I remember when I came to that doleful understanding that I was the life of my party.
I remember having to endure more soreness posing for yet another family picture.
I remember wanting to go back home to my kingdom of lilies where I could play with twigs and meddle in the meadow.
Copyright © PoetPrentice Dupins | Year Posted 2017
Long poem by
Galeo DS | Details
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@Linda@ \ \ \ R
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Y / @Linda@
pretty birthday roses
sent with bright smiles, hugs and kisses
to a very special poet sis and best friend
whose birthday is globally celebrated again
roses placed atop of the sweetest birthday cake
I lovingly baked for you with my best wishes, will you take
I wish you good health and hope your happy times multiply
depression divides,frustration subtracts, then joy and success add up many times
May you have a Very Happy Birthday!
Oct. 8, 2014 9.35 am bkk time
ON YOUR SPECIAL DAY
Bubbling rainbows mottles on air,
In ebullience, the sky dresses you in flair
Your special day and most glorious time is here
I’ll perform a ballet for you in a very joyful cheer
Let’s swirl our hips and dance in a snappy tap
Like the time when you were born, one’s joy was on top
I sing a song with gratefulness for all these years
You are our great joy, a precious gift---so dear
Sending you my most melodious birthday serenade
You’re a loving celebrity in graceful promenade
Like a frisky petal wafting its scents on air
Forever blooming in an inevitable passing of years
Fragrant flowers sways in the most delightful fun
Larks and wrens choir like no more setting of the sun
Their sweetest songs are my crews for my best wishes
Heading all to your way with my warm hugs and kisses
May all your days be filled with vibrant smiles
May you gather all your stars far lesser than miles
May you be filled with God’s love and care throughout the years
As joys and blessings climb down for you from Heaven’s Stairs
10/7/14 8.27pm BKK time
I lovingly dedicate this poem to our very dear poet friend, my loving poet sis and bff,Linda (PD). Today is her birthday, OCT. 7 . HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY! Biggest birthday hugs for you! And also, to all other beloved fellow Librans! Best wishes! God bless!
Copyright © Galeo DS | Year Posted 2014
Long poem by
Raymond Ngomane | Details
The roots on my legs grow branches of a legend
A tree of hope like the dope Alexandra Pope
In forests men are hanged on a washing line between trees to dry their tears
Me followed a choir that struggled singing Gospel hyms sober
I am looking for Me
The son of My Body in your fertile ground
He gost lost in the middle of loud friendly zones and their grounds
Centre of imaginations was a tea bag on his homeless ground
He's never been grounded
I have no clue where Me has been but he donated words, ears and planted views
I have clues and a cue for his wounded wounds
He's been in hustle with smart fools
Me is sick but has never bothered to bother doctors who less studied him and his clues
He is not an ash tray but remains the biggest fire in his own tree
The skin of Africa
Shut up and listen kinda like missions
Breaking visions of blind folded snakes as he wins all price tagged storms
Its a norm to bond and live in this morden traffic before roll down red carpets
Its a form filled in pencils for the world prefares editing your poems
Mischivous but real
Truth is, poetry stays real
In different genarations poetry spreads in the name of love slamming doors
The warehouse of corrections in poetry slamming doors
Heart beats beat the need to grow perfection by force while painting love in triggers of speech
Using the same language to bridge brain triggers
Poetry must find Me
Poetry questioned his dreams
He protected fantasies amplified by baby urines covored in beer bottles
Detox on cornflakes and milk with no honey repairing the night before disco lights chasing hunnies
Me flooded in different nations like a little bunny
Me must be somewhere in between real issues and being funny
The mistaken kitchen designer facing truth in the back of its head
In two faces facing facts in the back of its head
Me was once located naked in the midist of lame headaches
Chasing perfect levels better than Rambo's muscles
Me must have been the perfect speaker speaking things on other levels
A rebel with no tattoo drawing hearts in fine art images exposing racoons in artistic headaches
Too lazy to kill a fly type rebel but quiker than the speed of life's comments
He planted smiles in suprise moments more like a depressed comedian
Anacondas hide their heads in Me's body languge Language is a body that plants bushes to hide anacondas in Me's headaches
Mischivous but real
Truth is poetry stays real
In different genarations, poetry ran marathons in different names painting seeds of headaches
In different brains these words swam and died out from brain to brains
Producing light hearted legends in darkness love making moments
The karate kid who never whorship kiddings
Superman did fly for real
Me was told its not real so he can be real
Me might be hidding behind roots of rainy days
Days when Me opened his mouth to sip pure water from rain drops
Days when beef turned hip hop into chewable vegitables
What is plural if you cant malti task rural cool sounds in the eyes of strangers,
Rain makes more skills grow faster in trees,
With no intentions to preach
Me must have lost track and tracked wrong tracks in the map of artistic muscles
Chasing musculine profiles
He was told chase your dream even when your legs are broken
He was told smell your smiles even when your dream nose is blocked
He was cold and turned warm in his born day with no expected understandings
He's the art of a tree
(c) Raymond Ngomane
Copyright © Raymond Ngomane | Year Posted 2014
Long poem by
Balveen Cheema | Details
Dad Revisited- Once More
Last night I sat up in bed and prayed a little longer,
I asked god to send dad back for just one more day with great fervour.
Dad was waiting for me in the verandah as soon as I reached,
Seated on his cane chair with legs outstretched.
Suited- booted, neat crisp turban, expectant eyes so tender
The same tweed coat, the warm muffler across his shoulder.
The moment he saw me he fumbled with his walking stick,
Stood up took a few steps forward in a nick.
We embraced each other tight as he planted as kiss on my head,
I nuzzled against his warm coat enjoying the love of my figurehead.
Warm drops of love fell on my cheeks,
Saw oceans pouring through his teary creeks.
'I can't control them', he said chokingly,
Feeling the other's heart beats we clung to each other tightly.
'Let's go to the garden, the grape fruit is waiting for you!'
We walked together slowly over his leafy garden dew.
Dad showed me the new cuttings and saplings he had potted for me,
He pointed to the overgrown grass and said his workers were on leave.
He said,' Ah, for more varieties of flowers!
But the dogs don't spare them in my bowers'.
We smiled and saw the overladen grape fruit trees,
I plucked three grapefruits and said they would suffice with a tease.
We slowly climbed up the steps to our sunny verandah to sit alone,
He asked me what was it that I had wanted to tell him over the phone.
I read out my poem, '13, West Macott Road', a nostalgia shakeup,
Of our ancestral home in Poona where he had grown up.
I was reared up there, too, by my grandparents,
He wept and hugged each other, our undying love evident.
'I can't believe you had this talent and I didn't know about it till now,
You always make me cry with your emotions, but no more willI allow!'
He took out his kerchief to wipe my tears, his permanent flair,
I was still sniffing when I sighted his empty cane chair.
December 6, 2015
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I was still sniffing when I sighted his empty cane chair
Mother heard the car door shut and slowly wobbled out
Withered brow and wasted eyes she clasped me to her heart
A year gone by and no solace yet without her mate
A long hug of completeness lasting uncountable minutes
With a deep sigh we looked at each other at length and smiled
She bemoaned her growing pains and aches
Wanting to free herself of her worldly encumbrances
Dad's bed and memories were my only claim
I lay by her side the night through recapping the nostalgic years gone by
How he cycled me as a child, sitting on the carrier
My foot entangling in the back tyre and Dad's fall,
Flummoxed and helplessly looking at his bleeding knee and hands,
How we slept under the open summer sky, dazzling with sparkling beauties
Studying the Great Bear and other heavenly celesta's
On our return from fields Mother feasted us with her most delicious culinary delights
My ever smiling humble mother stored our yearly granary with perfect ease
Yet the home maker sadly lived in Dad's shadow
And in his absence has become a shadow of flesh and bones
Frailer and weaker, more loving and expressive of her love
Tears rolled down my eyes as I turned in bed to watch her sleep
A day after the Ides of March she grows a year older, a year since Dad departed
A surprise party we have planned for the sacrifices by the Woman of Worth
March 14, 2016
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Copyright © Balveen Cheema | Year Posted 2016
Long poem by
Laura Loo | Details
Happy birthday, my love….
Today you turn forty-seven years old, dear sister...
May your wings shine brighter today than ever before.
May my smile bring you joy and laughter. Oh, how your laughter saved me so many times. You had these big brown eyes with a tiny slant on the side. You wore your heart on your sleeve yet held too much empathy that only one soul could handle. I miss you dearly Karen. I still need you, and still breathe for you. I still wear your cross-shaped brown leather wristband sometimes. You were wearing it when you died. I swear it still smells like you. You wouldn’t believe how much has changed since you left. Ella is going into fifth grade and considers herself a “tween”. You should see her play basketball Karen. She’s amazing, you would be so proud and be at every one of her games. She misses you too. She still remembers all the fun times you had with Charlie and Lola and “butterfly”. Every Halloween you were there. Her preschool graduation came and there you were right next to her so I could snap a picture of my daughter and her Ti-Ti. All the sleepovers and fun in the pool...
I have grown so much. The last time I saw you I was barely two years sober. Now I am over seven years sober. It’s mostly because of you I have traveled this far. There were many times I was so angry at you for leaving intentionally. Why would you want to die? I try to understand this because I too, have been in your shoes before. Many people in the world felt like you did. I am living proof that I do not want to turn out like you. Yes, you carried a beautiful essence and always will but in the end seeing you that way I promised myself I would push forward and want to live. Your family was shattered. So many memories could have been made with you. So much laughter could have been worn on all our faces. We would have made so many inside jokes with Jen and Shawnna. I just got back from visiting Jen in Tennessee with Ella. We spent the week just hanging out with the kids doing stuff only sisters do. We were missing one thing during our time together. You. Because I know we would have made the trip together. We would’ve stopped at Speedway three times and ate at Hardee’s. We would have taken the kids to the pool and searched for bears. We took the kids roller skating and Ella must have fell ten times! Things just aren’t the same around here, but I will tell you this…
My love for you will never change. It only grows as time passes and every day I heal a little more. I will never heal completely but It does get easier. Life is good and so are you. The greatest woman I will ever know.
I thought I’d die when you left but I have grown,
Living without you seemed so truly impossible,
So many questions have been left unknown,
No one else but you is directly responsible.
I thought I’d forget all our memories we shared,
Living without you seemed full of pure sorrow,
So much laughter, and no will ever compare,
There will always be a brighter tomorrow.
forget you never
faith in the Lord spreads healing
Happy birthday, my love….
Today you turn forty-seven years old, dear sister...
May your wings shine brighter today than ever before….
Copyright © Laura Loo | Year Posted 2016
Long poem by
Kelly Crenshaw | Details
I'm 51 today.
51 tomorrow, yay
Was 51 yesterday.
52 is months away,
And yes I'm thankful.
Although it's not my real birthday,
It kinda is in a certain way.
I'm still alive another day.
I had the notion to celebrate.
And be thankful.
Though it's not a holiday.
Thanksgiving has come and gone away,
I'm just alive today.
For that I'm thankful.
Honestly, I am not just trying to make these lines rhyme,
Or reflect upon the deep sublime.
I'm just grateful today to be alive.
I mean really thankful.
I'm not trying to wow you with philosophy,
Or impress you with theology.
It matters not at all to me.
I just feel thankful.
So tonight I take a walk outside,
I look up into the endless sky and then I breathe.
I breathe in deep,
And I say thank you.
And maybe not just to Who you think,
Man let's throw in the kitchen sink,
And include all who've touched my life, to whom I'm thankful.
Some of you I'm glad you're gone,
Even tho you still live on
Frankly you stayed a bit too long
But some you the grave stole far too soon,
And yet I'm still thankful.
Today the living and the dead
You've both been right up inside my head,
And synergized this verbal thread.
For that I'm thankful.
I close my eyes and think of Tim, named David right there toward the end.
I always smile when I think of him,
And now I listen
I heard a siren going by,
I wonder who and wonder why,
Was it a wreck, did someone die?
Yet still I listen.
Neighbors dogs are going wild.
Was that the laughter of a child.
Seems like I can hear for miles.
Still I listen.
I hear the hi-way roar of cars.
Tho I have never heard the stars
Is there really life on Mars?
Shhh brain please shut up and listen!
The soft night whispers in my ears.
Pressing through my random fears,
I stand amazed at what I hear.
And now I wonder.
I open up my eyes and see as I feel this winter breeze
The silhouette of leafless trees.
I stand in wonder
Then I wonder about the first man to ever be,
Or the first time he looked up to see
The Milky Way the galaxies.
Did he wonder?
I wonder what he did
How he loved how he lived.
If he ever lost a friend?
Man oh man I wonder.
Was he the first to dig a grave?
How it sounded if he prayed?
How he fought?
How he played?
If that man could see us all today,
What would he say I wonder?
In ways was he a lot like me?
Did he sometimes fear what he could not see?
Did he create unseen walls
I stand and wonder.
Did he ever hurt the ones he loved?
Did life convince him not to trust?
My great grandfather lived
My DNA is shared with him.
I wonder how we are the same,
And I don't even know his name.
Still I wonder.
Will my great grand kids know my name?
Will it even matter who's to say?
Will they look up in wonder?
Will they listen?
Will they be thankful?
Not much I can leave to them
That would matter too much in the end.
I suppose the primal hope in man
Is the hope I hope lives on in them
I hope they wonder. About the universe.
I hope they listen. To life's unspoken verse.
I hope they're thankful. Even in midst of deepest hurts.
I hope they're thankful.
I hope they listen.
I hope they wonder.
And no matter what life hands them,
I hope they hope.
Copyright © Kelly Crenshaw | Year Posted 2014
Long poem by
John Posey | Details
Glen Campbell – A Special Person
It was September 4th, 1968 and I threw an empty suitcase into the trunk of my car, telling Joan, my daughter, that I might not be home to celebrate her birthday. She would turn 13 the following day and Wanda, my wife, had planned something special. As I dropped her off at school she had no clue as to what was in store.
Joan had become an ardent fan of a young Glen Campbell and he was due to be in town that very night for a concert. We led Joan to believe we had given up all hopes of taking her to see him since my travel plans would probably keep me out of town that night. Joan reconciled herself to the distinct possibility she would not be in attendance at his concert. She was a very understanding young lady.
When I returned home that evening, Joan was advised we would celebrate her upcoming birthday with a simple dinner out and maybe a movie. As we drove, Joan was very animated and proceeded to tell us of all the activity of the day. She didn’t pay much attention to where we were headed. Her chatter told us she wasn’t on to our plan.
Well, when we approached the Music Hall in Houston, TX Joan realized where we were and became so excited I thought she was going to faint. She shrieked with joy and showed the textbook signs of one about to see their idol. I don’t believe we had ever seen her so excited.
Wanda had managed to reserve some wonderful seats, center stage 3 rows back. We took our seats and soon were enjoying watching our daughter watch this young performer transform the audience, mostly young people, into an almost hypnotic state. We had joined Joan as fans of this young man from Arkansas. He was really putting on a great show. But something special was about to happen.
He finished the first half of his show and we sat there and listened to Joan excitedly chatter about what was taking place.
About halfway through the 2nd half Glenn pulled up a stool, sat down and asked, “Is there a Miss Joan Posey in the audience?” Joan was literally dumbfounded. We acknowledged to Glen that indeed she was here. Glen looked at here and said, “Well, tomorrow you’ll become a teenybopper. This one is for you.” He proceeded to sing “Hey, Little One” and there were probably as many tears in Dad’s eyes as in Joan’s. Her insistent question was, “How did he know?” repeated time after time.
Wanda, in her fantastic way of pulling off the impossible, had written to Glen Campbell, in care of the Music Hall, and told him of Joan’s upcoming birthday. It would mean a lot to her if he could only wish her a happy birthday. It was a long shot and he only received the letter some 2 hours before show time. Someone on his staff picked up on it and took it from there. He finished and instantly became a very special person to two proud parents. Joan became an instant VIP since almost half her class had been in attendance. It was a most memorable time and Glen Campbell will always have a special spot in our hearts…. Jake
Copyright © John Posey | Year Posted 2013
Long poem by
SillyBilly theKidster | Details
My prey lays on the table somewhat consciously.
He is slowly reviving from my injection that put him to sleep.
He is secured to the table with duct tape tightly.
I'll remove the gag from his mouth when he awakens fully.
His muffled screams begin inevitably.
It's time to greet my very soon to be very deceased.
Brandishing my blade in front of the face of he
I say to him calmly but very assertively,
"I'm going to remove your gag, but I'll cut your tongue out if you scream.
Nod if you understand me and agree."
After nodding at me shaken understandably,
I removed the gag, he then began to speak.
"What's going on? Who Are you?" he said to me.
I replied, "It would appear that I am your final destiny."
He looked at me shaken and asked, "What do you mean?"
"I mean that I'm about to kill you," I said to him nonchalantly.
I held up a photo of a young lady.
"She's now dead because of you," I said to he.
I held up another photograph for him to see.
"You killed this man too apparently
on a drunk hit and run accident spree."
"I didn't kill them," he pleaded, "It wasn't me."
I held up another photo and simply stated, "Oh really?"
"You killed this little girl on the day of her birthday party.
Never another birthday will she or her grieving family ever again see."
I held up more photos for him to see.
Some were children, some were young, some were elderly.
"..but it wasn't me, I swear," he cried pleadingly.
"It wasn't me," he cried, "It was the booze. It completely takes over me."
"Now there's a situation," I said to he,
"that I'm not completely unsympathetic to actually.
You see, I can't help myself either," I said to him.
"I have no control over my desire to kill human beings."
"I promise I'll never drink again," he then said to me,
"I'm so sorry for all I've done. Please, please believe me."
"You've done this way too many times to be truly sorry.
You would just kill again if I set you free
and so very soon you will be wrapped in garbage bags neatly
and dropped to the bottom of my little corner of the world under the sea
where you will never be lonely. You will share very similar company
with others much like you who have had this moment with me.
Neither you or I are in full control of our destiny,
but it would appear that I hold the upper hand presently,"
and as I plunged my blade through his heart I was immediately released
from my dark passenger's embrace that allows me no peace.
I don't know why I am the way that I am.
All I want more than anything is to be a normal and good man,
so as long as my dark passenger continues to haunt me,
killing other human beings will be the way I always will be,
so I'll channel my darkness where it will be most in need.
I'll take out the garbage and dump it at the bottom of the sea.
I like to write dark occasionally,
so don't be turning me in to any law enforcement agency.
I've just been viewing my collection of DEXTER DVDs
which has motivated me to write dark lately.
Copyright © SillyBilly theKidster | Year Posted 2013
Long poem by
William J. Jr. Atfield | Details
My birthday gift, to me.
This night of November 27th , in our year of the lord, two thousand and one I decided to treat myself to a living birthday present, a living, dancing birthday card, fifteen days late in the coming .
They be some lovelies that make old men’s mouths water, if only they could, – had not dried up – give him wet dreams, if only he dreamt of such things, where nothing seems as it is or should be, or could be. But isn’t that the reality of life ?
The first gift of eye candy came in a natural state, this black haired beauty was going off as I came in, and then, after a little time had passed, a fair haired beauty dawned on her act and came before me in all her natural and unnatural beauty, dropped all of her inhibitions and exposed her enhanced, unnatural beauty, the works of some sculptors hands – a doctor of plastic molds, whom I have to admit, is a master among his peers, for his work flowed so naturally into and along with the beauty she was born with, I was impressed. It was difficult for me to discern at first, but being a, very personally flawed, protectionist, it finally showed. More down time had passed before this raven haired beauty with bright rays of sun light streaking down past her temples and sliding off her sculptured cheeks, cascading down from above, flowing softly over her soft bear shoulders. For those who believe that all women are ball busters, this I have to say to you, “ in all my flawed wisdom, this lovely, this young lady is not one ” but I do believe that she could be a tooth buster, for there was not a spots upon this beauties body, of joy, of pleasure that a man could and certainly would lay his lips to, softly sink his teeth into, that was not hung like a Christmas tree with all these perfect, golden trinkets, these diamonds dangling, before discerning eyes, just waiting, with delight, for someone to bite .
Time to go, I have seen enough of the show, no more do I need to reminisce about all that I miss, of that time, when spring was sprung upon us with her sparkling green attire, that set on fire, dead wood brining warmth, for a moment, that I could not retire from and so I stay to watch one more play of body upon the mind, upon ancient memories, upon the stage as she turns another page with a radiant smile as warm and bright as the sun streaked beauty, that came before her, who’s warmth seemed to radiate ( wishful thinking ) towards me, who’s smile and attention brightened up my otherwise gloomy day, who’s playfulness seemed as sincere as the natural beauty of her natural body as she pranced, paraded and danced before us, us who came to see, - for one brief moment ( for whatever reason ) – wish and reminisce and now it is time for me to go, I have seen enough of the show to remind me of all that I used to know.
Copyright © William J. Jr. Atfield | Year Posted 2013