Long Anesthesia Poems

My wounded heart drinks deep from the rotting gut of misery,
Humanity vomits its relics onto the oozing tiles of the real.
I see kids chewing syringes like candy canes,
Their innocence smashed, face down on the concrete...

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Date:   April  2050

Same day:  
Damian walked with 
Godfrey Barrington Shadir and Matthias 
Isiah the others across to the
Other side of The estate to visit Desharah 
Damali and Sedanah. Arrival was
Swift. Damali...

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*** Satan Tries to Strike ***

By the house,
By the door
	coming in
	across the floor
To kneel by my bed,
My guardian angel came
Carrying ways to hold the peace
	of our Lord,
To restore the joy in my morn…

And, to wait...

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Some say the scientific method
                              Is the ultimate algorithm and others
                              Prefer prayer.

For symbolists, all intelligence can be reduced to manipulating symbols, in the same way that a mathematician solves equations by replacing expressions by other expressions....

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Double Set Up


The first lump was the scariest in 1983.
 I had found it in the shower.
 Two other major surgeries I've already had that very year.
 I was thirty three.
 A mammogram back then...

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*** Lunacy Loo Flies ***


Beauuty, in a creature from
Among the most high;
In rythmic song while in her flight 
Witnessng the realities and fancies
Circling the clouds — 
Proud of her ancient, legendary form, gone

lost into that...

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*** ENDURING ***

(A Part Two about my recent illness, following “Lunacy Loo Flies.”

Fear
Stepped into the holes of my weakness
To impede my pace to recovery, 
Absorbing the basic radiant light —

My going forth walk had previously...

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"Debby Downer edition"     posted 5 Jul 2021

the chill pill you took this morning      appears to have been a placebo

misery loves company     ...

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keeping low walking softly blending in
as a defensive buttress against you name it
shall we get back to categories vs. kaleidoscope
asked the autisticly artistic ship's doctor
his specialty more melancholia than anesthesia
I'll gladly tell you that much
which...

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My first enemy was one I should have loved
He claimed that he loved me but I suppose not enough
He carved the gaps in all my memories
And deprived me of what made me
A child at twelve...

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The smells of hospitals in 
December 
can almost taste the anesthesia 
faint remnants of uncertainty 
  
expecting outcomes so trivial 
from the outside in 
passing sleepless strangers in the corridors 
thinking to oneself, 
...

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Part 18

it helps to see the spectrum of behaviors
as a spectrum first of all
not disorganized not random
not to the degree the clergy would have it
which makes them ridiculous
as well as dangerous
to anyone standing outside the...

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I woke up late this morning, my phone was dead. I guess I never plugged it in, I found it buried under my pillow (erah!). I barely had time for anything, just managing to cover...

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I’ve heard lots of feminists say
we’d be better off without men,
they claim that they are just joking,
but say it again and again.
That we’re all of the world’s problems,
that we start all of the world’s wars,
the...

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She was a tiny angel of a woman
mindlessly moving, in a chemical faze
her heart baracaded, tormented
from her long, lonely days 
while dancing on the edge of a pin.

Dreaming images with her feet, twirling
oblivious on a...

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You won't open up 
You never did 
The chances of you reaching out to me on this shifting tectonic plate 
The same as jumping out an airplane window 
But you never opened up and now...

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My day had arrived, the hospital was intimidating. He got lost parking our car, I felt the pavement's heat, it pained my feet, as we had walked very far. The doors opened as we walked...

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The Three Islands Sleep!

Sleep, sleep, the islands asleep!
Sleep while the winds blow on her face,
On her trees, and on her mountains and hills,
Sleep when the thieves dressed in suit come in,
Like the befuddled man sleeps...

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and suddenly all bets are off---
wondering how it all summed up itself in such a way
as if the body would last forever, as if this thing that exists
to cart your sorry ass around 
would stand...

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Whitney is gone
Everybody assumes but no one knows
I just would say she is no more
To sing the love of self so sweetly
So richly
So full of natural delicacy
You could almost believe
We know who we are 
Almost...

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My crimson scribbles; there is no meaning, there is no feeling, and there will be no healing, not today at least…

Horizontal, never vertical for some reason. I cannot explain, though reasoning is out of my...

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We don't see it in our everyday lives.
Its not one of our husbands or wives. 
We don't think about it on our daily drives. 
I'm here to tell you about the few who survives. 

I'm...

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The muslims say assalaam alaikum
The jews say shalom
But there isn't any peace in the home
My grandmother just called the police on the neighbors across the street cause 
they don't get along
She thinks they are selling...

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You can feel them move through streets
Emblazoned with sirens' primary colors,
A swatch of fjord's colonial flagship hues
Left to slap in the wind of reorderd forms
Until sheared into confetti strips. Scripts 
Writ into a code are...

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‘Pizza and Beer,’ Ill-Luminated

What do males seek like candy post-trauma of birth
if not breast of their mom’s, our first joy found on earth,
the first love a child gets is mom’s milk (who’d contest!),
and love’s last...

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