It's four in the morning
I'm in a cold cell
She warned me before I
hit her
Father forgive me
for I did not know what I
was doing!
Ive forgotten what it feels like
to be wanted, needed
He certainly does not speak of
his need in words
He does not show it in his
actions
Unless i am to take those few
moments
Where he pulls me close to his
warmth and falls asleep
Surely he still swears his love
But more and more it seems
routine
He makes no attempt to pull
my young body to his
No longer does he run his
hands over my ample curves
My slender hips built for
motherhood
My supple breasts which perk
at the remembrance of his
cupping palms
Hands now turned greedy
when the few moments come
that he expresses his male
need to release
I needed? At the notion i scoff
This caveman of a lover knows
less of need than a newborn
Mistake me not it is in
understanding that he dwells
within a cave
When put to use he is more
than perfect as a lover
Selfish bastard. Laughing at
my words.
He understands nothing
And so i have been allowed to
forget the blessing of being
someones need
You say you love me
You say you miss me
You say you want to kiss me
You hold me
You Make me safe
You kiss me
You say im your true love
You say im your one and only
You said me and you forever
But little did i know you were
saying all that to some one
elst to
You really never loved me
I was just a toy to you
Why would you do this to me i
loved you and would do any
thing for you
Why do you cheat
I cought you but yet you still
lie your just a cheater and a
lier
You broke my heart and did
me wrong why did you play
with my emotions for 2 years
the worst thing i have ever
been called is your girlfriend
It eats me up inside.
Maybe you don't get it
maybe you're failing to accept
it,
But it's certain that it's hurting
and eating up my pride-
While guilt plays it part
While it all trembles before the
eyes soaked-
Reminiscent of your pain.
I can never win
Nor can I move forward
Paths are torn in two
And I want to believe you-
You say to me once more
When all I want is to hold and
prove I never loved
Like I now do
I never knew it was possible to
reveal a side to you
And that vulnerability
when your tongue tied words
Mimic the naked truth-
assuring not only your heart
but your mind falls harder
While you slip away in some
sort of fantasy
One you can't imagine leaving
One that's meant to remain
steady
Then the steadfast loyalty
suppresses any doubt
Even after doubt has been
proven time and time before
If only I loved you then as I do
now
I'd be a better person
Capable of genuine love.
Sometimes I take my anger out on
you,
I call on you when I'm sad,
When staring at girls you are the
one to accuse,
I do the same and expect you not to
get mad,
I play too much and you get
frustrated,
You laugh at serious things,
That gets me so irritated,
And yet, I can't help being me....
when I say smile you actually do it,
You always wanna take me out to
eat,
You dance with me when you hear
music,
Around eleven at night my phone
always ring,
I still feel that spark when we kiss,
You make me feel special in every
way,
At home you're the one I miss,
just let me know you love me all the same.
Our Love is growing weaker everyday
We find our selfs fighting more
I love you
But why don't you
Hold me
Touch
Comfront me
Nor Make love to me anymore
What have I done so wrong for you not to love me no more
Tell me how we can go back to the way we where before
I lay at night crying and reaching for your touch
But I just find myself reaching on
Your love you have for me is so cold
If you no longer want this relationship
Please tell me now
I lay my heart on the line
Are you going to take it or break
baby I'm so for being so cranky
Can you please forgive me
Black weeds of doubt
still sprout
from the seeds of me pain
remembering the day
when i had lost love again
after letting myself care much
forgot that love is hush
still I tasted the bitter
side of love that wasn't better
those words of pain from your letter
Ignored that, there is danger
in loving someone so much
that love is blind
takes over the mind
had treasured happiness
and locked it away in sadness
for black weeds of doubt
still sprout
from the seeds of my pain
As I force myself to remember
the drying, falling & dying
of our love in November
when summer started
had no love content
when the knife so sharp
those lies tore me apart
left me with black weeds of doubt
that still sprout
from the seeds of my pain
Now I cant say it no more
that I love you alot
for that repetition
does not bring correction
to the horror of my past
when i thought i had found love at last
until the day when all were gone
and our love was done
remaining with only black weeds of doubt
that sprout
from the seeds of my pain
they sprout
cause i doubt
that you love me
i think you'll hurt me
like he did, again...
How could The willows blow without the wind ,
With no Oxygen, my life with you would Not have begin.
Your experiences in this world Is unfair and Cruelty,
It's amazing if How hurt you are instead you choose me.
Choose me over Every girl. Oh, how lucky I feel,
How i feel so wanted. Wanting to be a heal.
Heal your heart and protect it from Hurt and misery.
Changing It from Me and You, To we, DaMir DaMir D Barry,
My love For you Grows stronger Every day I see.
I am Greatful to wake Up now Instead of fall Back asleep.
You opened My eyes To something better, and I knew it was true.
And for that I say Thanks, No, Thank You.
I found another man who said he wants to be with me
but so many men have broken my heart
im not the one to give up on love, and i think i should make a fresh start
will i be able to deal with having another man in my world?
how do i handle having somebody else call me there girl?
is this going to be another relationship where i just get hurt in the end?
am i ready to take another up on there offer and be more then just friends?
will he love me for who i am?
or should ijust not have a man?
The ringing in my ears are a continious thing. I hear playing the chilling melody in the distance. I
see in front of me the faded picture of him holding me for the longest time . Now as i sit here,
earphones in, tears falling on the page, heart exploding, and me writing. Im thinking what is he
doing. I hope he is wondering the same about me. At night i have sudden feelings that he is
laying in his bed, talking to me as im talking to him. Mother thinks im crazy. I guess i am b/c i
fell for your crazy ass.
Go ahead
Make me feel useless
I'll suffer just to be with you
Go ahead
Make me feel ugly
As long as you'll say you love me
Go ahead
Make me feel stupid
It's better than feeling nothing at all
Do you still love her or not
I ask you about the pictures of her in your phone
you just said you going through getting rid of the one you don't like and the ones
that are your favorite
So you can keep them
Man wish you knew how you made me felt when you said that
My heart feels so crush
You made me feel like crap
I love you
But the question is do you Really Love Me
I do everything to make to make you happy
But you still talk about her and have pictures of her
Where is the place for me here
Is there even one or not
We even got a kitten together does that even mean anything
I love you
But you hurt me
I just don't know what to do
If you want and love her
Then please let me know
Instead of leading me on like this
It only hurting my heart
I can't make you love me
But I want you to know that I do Love You
Is their something wrong with me
Or I am doing something wrong
Why don't you just talk to me
And let me know
Are you even ready for a relationship
Or Not
Because sometimes when you bring her up doesn't even feel like I am in the room
I am sorry for telling you how I feel but it's true
I do love you.
Since i first met youi have been surprised everday. No one has respected me like
you do, you call me everyday making sure im alright. If i were to leave this earth you
would not even have words in your voice anymore. I feel when i talk to you i get
butterflies, and im speechless. I like when you just ramble on how im so special an
you can tell me everything you like about me. I have to bring you back to earth for a
few seconds to talk to you...Your amazing
it is what it is right
it aint gonna change
been the samething for 14 years
so i guess it is what it is
i guess its time to say goodbye
it is time for me to no longer cry
because it is what it is right
just remember u made it this
so when u see me walk away
when u see me in a different way
just remember it is what it is
can you tell me why
everything we do is pain
give me a reason
just one plain reason
not a whole explanation
of why you cause pain
why cant we just try
just give us a fughting chance
just one little chance
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