I put my heart on the line so many times,
I shared so much, I never felt the need to hide,
I viewed it as freedom to speak up and out,
I chose faith over fear more than anything else,
I watched fear debilitate and anxiety ridden,
Over cautious hearts believing it's wisdom to stay hidden,
All because they were scared of reactions and opinions,
They allowed their fears to dictate their decisions,
I didn't want to feel trapped by fears gruesome eyes,
I didn't want to live in bondage when I could see through the lies,
My heart ached to speak out, and stare fear in the face,
And vowed to God and myself ide never live that way,
And then of course, when you go against the grain,
You will always have some people who will say,
She shares too much, she's just seeking attention,
When they have no idea about her true intentions,
To care more, to free you too,
To break down feelings of fear so love will shine through.
Sometimes, just a small spark of empathy
Can brighten up another’s mind to see
The value of love and understanding
To lift the weight of negativity
For darker thoughts and doubts debilitate
And obstruct the path that leads us to heal...
We must shine our love to illuminate
The path that love and compassion reveal!
Don’t ignore those in spiritual need
Because the deepest of our wounds don’t bleed
They thrive wherein silence is the weapon
That amputates hope the soul sorely needs
A smile looks nice, but try on compassion
It’s transformative attire for the heart...
For suffering without understanding
Strips a soul bare while it tears love apart.
Before my breath touches the morning air,
My thoughts in taciturnity upon suppression of solitudes…
Inhibition initiates interdiction within the hibernal hollow,
Where time a frozen fortress amidst the saturninity still.
The covertness of oblivions obedient in their absolution,
Daunting dorms of doldrums debilitate in their debacle…
Where the vaporous voids echo in their virginal vacuums,
The muted madness mandates the asphyxiated air.
Segregated silent sorrows suffice within my chaotic cage.
Where ignorance incubates immoral idols imposing…
The hellion hordes encroach the silent sentinels standing,
The laconism within my heart erupts with forbidden fury.
The silence sings with thunder as a tear touch’s the ground,
My empty eternal eyes dormant amongst horizons hid…
My mind in a decadent declination before walls of illusions,
And thus before a wounded wake, I am trapped in tangled time.
June.23.2020
Reflection in Silence
Sponsored by~ Silent One
Placed 2'nd...Thank You
Jaded by the put me downs
Justly feel my facial frowns
Jaundiced views debilitate
Jeopardise my feeble state
Penned 20 March 2017
Used qijue format
When lights of hope burn out
And despair clouds hope
I want the words I utter
Gasps in the throats of those spreading hatred
When commossion collides consequently
I want the words I utter
Gasps in the throats of you and me
To release the pain of those who can't
Utter them themselves
And let light in the hearts of those in despair
And frustration
I want the words I utter create chaos in itself
Shall I not be content
For I believe there's no oil
If olives are not squeezed
No wine if grapes are not pressed
No perfume if flowers are not crushed
It is a crucible mystique truth
Something surreal
And macabre
I want the words I utter to debilitate
Hard pressed on every side
Yet not crushed
Persecuted but not forsaken
Struck down but not destroyed
I want the words I utter gasps
In the throats of you and me
Saying,
I just want to teach
And not discriminate...